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Help May 24, 2020 at 11:11 PM
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Hello! I am new to the forum, so I will give a brief introduction before launching into the topic.

I experienced some trauma when I was really young. I think I was around 4, but I don't actually know since I don't remember any of what happened. I don't have any memories, so I only know factually the general idea of what happened. There are also some scars on my body that say, "Yes, this happened!" even if I can't confirm 100% that's what they're from.

What happened is very medically based, and in light of the current pandemic, seeing lots of images and videos related to medical stuff has been causing an increase in symptoms for me. I've been pretty much completely avoiding the news because of this, but the bit that I was exposed to has left lingering intrusive thoughts. Additionally, it seems that number of things that trigger me has increased and become more general now.

The main point of this post is a question that I wanted to pose. Although I'm aware that everyone experiences things differently, and even if no one else can relate to this it doesn't mean my experiences aren't valid, but I wanted to hear some people's thoughts and see if anyone could relate.

Basically, because of the fact that I don't remember anything about what happened, I've never really had a flashback or intrusive thoughts about the event itself, since I couldn't remember it even if I wanted to. Having said that, it almost seems like I have intrusive thoughts and memories about things that I've seen that were triggering and similar in content.

For example, I might see something that's very distressing for me related to medical stuff, and the next day I'll find that the picture I saw will pop up in my head repeatedly throughout the day while I'm doing stuff and not thinking about anything related to it. It's always seemingly unwarranted and out of nowhere that those images will pop up in my head, and it completely halts whatever I'm doing and kind of blocks whatever I'm seeing in the present, if that makes any sense. Then, before I know it, I'm completely consumed by a bunch of emotions and fixating on whatever image it was that popped up in my head. One night when I went to bed, it took me a long time to fall asleep because I kept hearing screaming from a video I had watched and it wouldn't go away (not related to COVID, but still medical in nature).

This can happen with images I saw, videos I watched, or stories that I read, regardless of whether I saw those things months ago. It's unsettling how it can be literally whenever, regardless of what I'm doing, and all of a sudden I'm seeing this thing in my head and I'll be feeling angry, sad, tense, upset, and a whole slew of other emotions for seemingly no reason. Sometimes I wonder if it's like an emotional flashback or something.

Can anyone else relate to this or shed light on what might be going on here?
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Hello rupp: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC. I see this is your first post. Welcome to Psych Central

I think I may be able to relate to this to some extent. In my case there were two incidents I either have no memory of or only the slightest possible memory of. In the first case I would have been too young to remember anything. And in the second case, I don't know if I actually have some slight memory, or if what I think I remember is what my parents related to me years later. (I was a only child. And, growing up, my parents would tell me about things that happened when I was younger.) The two incidents in question would take some time, & substantial verbiage, to describe here though. So I'll spare you the details.

I enjoy learning about the findings of research into the workings of the human brain. And one thing I've picked up is that much more of who we are, & what we do, is controlled by areas of the brain to which we have no conscious access than we would typically imagine. So my thinking, with regard to what you're experiencing is that, perhaps there are memories of the trauma you suffered stored in non-conscious areas of your brain. And it is these memories, perhaps, that are causing you to react the way you do to distressing material. At least that's my non-professional idea with regard to what might be going on here.

Here are links to 5 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that may be of interest:

Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) | Psych Central

Unhealed Trauma

Unhealed Trauma

The 3 Parts of Your Brain Affected by Trauma

Memory Isn't Important to Recover from Trauma

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

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One quick thing that helped me alot with my blocked childhood memories is to let myself know that I am an adult now. I am now in control of my own life. Besides very low odds of a freak incident, I can protect myself now from all major harm to my body and mind.

I can limit my exposure to things that cause flashbacks and triggers. I am much more safe now as an adult.

That being said, I am of the opinion that seeking therapy to resolve childhood issues is still important.
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Hello rupp: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC. I see this is your first post. Welcome to Psych Central

I think I may be able to relate to this to some extent. In my case there were two incidents I either have no memory of or only the slightest possible memory of. In the first case I would have been too young to remember anything. And in the second case, I don't know if I actually have some slight memory, or if what I think I remember is what my parents related to me years later. (I was a only child. And, growing up, my parents would tell me about things that happened when I was younger.) The two incidents in question would take some time, & substantial verbiage, to describe here though. So I'll spare you the details.

I enjoy learning about the findings of research into the workings of the human brain. And one thing I've picked up is that much more of who we are, & what we do, is controlled by areas of the brain to which we have no conscious access than we would typically imagine. So my thinking, with regard to what you're experiencing is that, perhaps there are memories of the trauma you suffered stored in non-conscious areas of your brain. And it is these memories, perhaps, that are causing you to react the way you do to distressing material. At least that's my non-professional idea with regard to what might be going on here.

Here are links to 5 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that may be of interest:

Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) | Psych Central

Unhealed Trauma

Unhealed Trauma

The 3 Parts of Your Brain Affected by Trauma

Memory Isn't Important to Recover from Trauma

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

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