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My name is Tommy. I suffer from PTSD for a few reasons. Interestingly I have never been able to talk to friends or GF's about my past. I was married and my wife wouldn't even allow me the courtesy of talking about my past. My parents are my only witnesses who could validate my assertions and they passed away.
I was raised in violence.
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In relationships I always felt like I had to back it down, the imagined power of control I thought I had. As if intrusive thoughts comforted me with: we'll allow that insult... he, she, it doesn't understand what I'm capable of.. let it go." After my marriage fizzled out, no fault of my own. After siblings died and parents passed away its as if my life became my own. I don't associate with killers and criminals any longer. I don't have any reason to be on guard or be defensive or skilled in being a psychopath. My life, through all the madness wasn't all fire and fury. I had seven and a half years hanging out at two American late-night live television shows. I've written material for Movies, television, and radio. But that was many years ago. Now I'm a lonely guy who enjoys listening to friends do their podcasts while I post on twitter my brand of humor. My regret is I never had a real lover, friend, gf I could talk to. No one to unburden myself to and go over it all and try to make sense of it all. It's not easy when your life is filled with extremes. I've tried to talk to therapists who've heard it all and even they find my life impossible and assume its all delusions. But then again the simplest things I've shared like my Mom was a Nurse's Aid or I went to carvel a month ago gets me strange dubious looks. Apparently those are also hard to believe stories that Mom was a Nurse's Aid and I have experienced carvel. So yeah who's going to be able to believe anything else that'sevn more extreme? Last edited by bluekoi; Sep 22, 2020 at 10:34 AM.. Reason: Add trigger icon. Apply trigger code. Remove descriptive content. |
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Hello Tommy: Thank you for sharing your experiences. I see this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central. I hope you find PC to be of benefit.
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