[greyclouds]

I am so angry right now, I had an episode the weekend and hurt some people's feelings... The next day I could not have felt worse or more depressed then I already do.

My cousin who is staying with me who seemed to be supportive before Saturday happened is now accusing me of making up my symptoms, self harming for attention seeking, and using what's going on as an excuse to act Like I do..

I'm not I a really nice person I know I am, I don't want to upset people. I've had to write on here before I say something I can't take back to her. My brain is spitting venom for her right now I hate her I hate her. Arrrr

My god my mind is racing nasty thoughts I don't want to tell her arr

[lynn P.]

(((greyclouds)) - so sorry you're very angry and your cousin said these hurtful things. You're right you're a good person and no one wants to be ill. Are you getting help and on medication for postpartum depression? How long is your cousin staying with you? Try to take some slow deep breaths. She obviously isn't knowledgeable about your illness. I hope it gets better for you.

[greyclouds]

Yes I'm on anti depressants. Waiting to see t. I was good this morning and I feel so angry rage in fact. I feel like I want to lash out.

And now I'm questioning myself is there something else wrong with me? Am I doing this for attention? Can I just snap out of it if I try? Am I making my symptoms up to get attention to blame the mistakes in my life? I don't understand why I would do this.. I have great friends. Great family apart from her At the moment. 2 great kids.

Surely I shouldn't be feeling like I do. And surely I wouldn't need to make things up about the way I feel and for acting like I do

[lynn P.]

Don't let one negative person break down your confidence or make you question whether you have a valid illness or feelings. Often we believe criticism from others easier than compliments. I hope your anger will calm down and feel better soon.