[Chocopiano27]

Hi so currently I'm having PTSD, and I sometimes get frequent panic attacks triggered by specific situations. I myself acknowledge that it is very strange and irrational thing because there's no real life threats it somehow just reminds me of the past. Sometimes when i'm in a panic attack i couldn't really control my thoughts and what i do, I become even more panic because of it. I just moved to a university far away from my family and don't really have any close friends here.

I'm very lonely and I'm really alone. And for several times now i've been contacting my psychiatrist by whatsapp and email. When I'm having a severe suicidal thoughts I don't really know where to go and so I always contact them because well.. I don't really have anyone else here and i need somebody.

But recently i guess i've been contacting her too much. And she just reads my whatsapp and didn't really reply my email. I feel worse to know I annoy her. I know it's only her job but .. I really don't know where else to go in a fast situation like that. And i don't know who i can contact except her. My family isn't really the supportive type either. I don't know sometimes I feel like i just want to die and nobody would be sad anyways.

[Travelinglady]

Is there a counseling center on your campus? Surely there's some sort of help for students. I suggest you check to see. Having support nearby would be best, I think.

[possum220]

How do you know that you are annoying your P'doc? Maybe next time you have an appointment you could work out a plan to keep you safe.

[TicTacGo]

Something you could do is discuss the communication etiquette with your psychologist.

On the side of suicidal thoughts, you could reach an agreement that you can leave her a message so that she gets back to you. She'll likely just talk you down from what you are feeling and if she really thinks you are a danger to yourself, tell you to go to the ER and she'll meet you there or however she goes about it.

In the case where it has reached more than just ideation and actual harm is very possible, you should first go to the ER and phone her on your way there or once you arrive.

As helpful as therapist are and need to be, there have to be boundaries on the contact between herself and the client. She cannot be available at every moment and respond every time.
A therapist on YouTube by the name of Kati Morton (look her up, she's good) once said that a therapist that allows a patient to call or text at any time and she'll get right back to them are not setting good boundaries.
One could set the boundary that you may text or Whatsapp them and they will read it and only call back if it is an emergency. If your life is in danger, go to the hospital and leave her a message letting her know.