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#22
We’re not here to be interesting. My blog link below elaborates on my experience. This might be the best resource on therapy exploitation.
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#23
I live in a small town and there are moments when I am struck, four years later, by the fear of running into my ex T. I don't know how I would handle it. That's how I know that I'm still really affected by his games, manipulations, and the insistence that I stay in therapy with him long after it became a sick mind game.
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#24
8 1/2 years ago i left a very emotional controlling counsellor, it was very hard for me to leave i did not know much about therapy and how it wrong the relationship i had with her was. I now have a good pyschologist and good support groups i belong to now. Hugs to everyone
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#25
I rarely discuss harmful therapy often in real life because people become threatened. But then the profession has scant discussion of harm in therapy, which I take as evidence they find the subject threatening too.
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#26
Sometimes, I get really really furious over just how DEEP this kind of thing can hurt.
I didn't know to be on alert. Now, I can't NOT be on alert. I didn't know what gaslighting was. I just didn't KNOW. I didn't know. I didn't know how tricky it is too see when you're in the middle of it. Now, I see it even when it isn't happening (and then freak out that I'm telling myself "it's not happening" because what if it really IS happening?? Reassurance itself is now terrifying.) |
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#27
And I am so ...so mad at the part of myself that can't let him go. Can't let go of the hot coal that STILL burns me.
All because of the fostered NEED. The fostered dependence. And the parts of me that think he didn't even mean to hurt me this much - he just doesn't know, doesn't understand how much he's hurt me - if he knew, he'd be appalled... But it's not true. He doesn't want to know, for one. The only way to keep him in my life is to shut up about it. I. Hate. Myself. I hate myself. I hate that I can't hate him. |
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And I’ve seen...it was written about in the late 80’s and 90’s but academia is not writing/publishing about it anymore. Is it they think the subject is threatening, out of date (believe it doesn’t happen anymore), disinterest, or...what? |
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#29
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I’d had therapy in the Midwest which I found pretty unremarkable. Then I met one exploitive therapist after the other in California. I’d heard pretty wild things occurred in California...when new things started happening in ‘therapy’ in California, I figured, ‘this is just how therapy is done here.’ I didn’t know. I believed what they told me and I didn’t know different. I had NO idea it was against the law. I had NO idea it was a felony in California. Had I known, I hope I would have reflected on it more. But they made me feel special. I was needy. I was definitely a mark. And I didn’t even know it. |
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Because therapy lulled me into a false security that I was "cared for," it was more than jarring that I had to take the initiative to end a destructive relationship. I've wasted hundred of hours and thousands of dollars on other interventions for a rare, chronic neuro-muscular disorder. But none of that left me feeling the vulnerable fool like therapy did.
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It saddens me to see so many negative experiences with therapy. I was able to regain my life back after some excellent therapy that helped me to deal with my Pure O.
I will be heading back into a college program this upcoming year, called the Social Service Worker program. I completed a year and have one more to go. I remember there was a huge emphasis on empathetic listening, and never hurting the client. The professors were very good at what they did, and it is very clear they are of the "do no harm" opinion. It's a shame not everyone in this field holds themselves to the same standards. The Canadian mental health system is not perfect by any means, but I have seen a ton more complaints about the U.K system on this site than any other. I wonder why that is? |
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#32
Special.
Yes. Special. I was special.
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#33
I'm sorry to read about everyone's suffering.
for the last year or so i've kind of thought that i've had an experience of unethical therapy. i was in a rehab centre and at the time i believed that it was the safest place on earth and i never wanted to leave. it was nothing sexual at all. from the time i was there until now, four years later, i've had extreme anger at things that were done/said by the counsellors. at the time i didn't know why i was so angry and my anger got me kicked out of the rehab centre. i have talked about it with my therapist now but he is very non-committal about saying anything like "it was ok" or "it was not ok". he was actually the consultant supervisor for the rehab at the time, so i guess it would be like admitting a huge oversight on his part. part of me just wants to hear him or someone else say: that was totally unethical. i have friends who know the counsellors as well and their reaction to it is often "yeah, but that's just how they are". i got clean in rehab but feel like i came out with more emotional issues and trust issues than i went in. i'm very hesitant to say that it was unethical, to say that i was gaslighted, to say that things they said were inappropriate - that's almost part of the legacy of being there. everything i think, i end up questioning, like - but that can't be right... if i felt badly treated it was just because i was doing something wrong. don't know how to explain it properly but the whole experience left me feeling broken some place inside. |
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The second guy seemed really eager to tell me how he could help me by "reparenting" me and that it would be difficult but he would be willing to do it for me... on the second appointment... I got the creeps and didn't go back. Third is my current T, and I've been with him for a few months and am starting to feel safe around him. It helps that he's nothing like my unethical ex-T. Though it's still really hard to not ask "do you believe me?" or "you believe me, right?" after telling him about my father's emotional abuse. Unethical ex-T did a lot of gaslighting (among many other things) |
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#35
I am so heartbroken that so many of us have been hurt... My heart goes out to you. You didn't deserve it.
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#36
Since there is little literature about harm in therapy I'm not optimistic about some therapists understanding how harm might be caused. What I thought I wanted, a priest/priest to act as a parent with the answers, is not what I ultimately needed. The subservience and infantilization were very harmful, though I think neither the therapists nor I realized it at the time. I needed to grow up and see myself as a fully equal adult, and I don't think there would have been a short cut for that for me in therapy.
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My unethical T was an LCSW, and my current T is a PsyD (and I was only interested in working with a PsyD when looking for a therapist this time), though I've also heard plenty of awful stories about PsyDs as well (and good stories about LCSWs) |
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But ultimately I think it probably comes down to intelligence and willingness to self-analyze. Last edited by atisketatasket; Apr 02, 2018 at 06:48 PM.. |
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#39
I think in some ways these subtle cases can be the worst. Everyone loudly condemns the really nasty abuses, but in my experience the subtle train wrecks bring out the craziest gaslighting and can actually be used against the client. Whatver the case, failed therapy seemingly almost always leads to more therapy, with each new therapist harvesting the client's growing list of problems.
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