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Magnate
Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
Posts: 2,160
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#921
I've decided that every time I feel a pang of missing you, I will remember my younger self, and the sadness she carried, and acknowledge that this sadness is for her. And it's okay.
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Anastasia~, Elio, LabRat27, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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circlesincircles, Lrad123
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,692
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#922
I don't feel well at all just burnt out and low.
The other T I emailed replied, saying he could do thursday. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
Anastasia~, Echos Myron redux, Elio, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#923
I feel betrayed by you when you ask C if you should stop talking to me. Who the **** made her lord and master?
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Anastasia~, Elio, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, RaineD, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Poohbah
Member Since Jul 2017
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 1,019
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#924
My adult wants to distance from you from my horribleness.
My child part is horrified. My horribleness is a master in disguise and it hijacks me even when I am trying to be mindful. I am in complete chaos. Is this just me wanting attention or seeking intensity? I don't think so because otherwise I wouldn't feel so fragmented and afraid. Is this real? This is so devastating to me to figure out that this is a part of me. I can't get away from me. I don't know if I am delusional. I don't know what to do. I am so ****ing confused. I am such a disappointment to me. I do not know what to do. __________________ |
Elio, LabRat27, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Comfy Sedation
Member Since Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,301
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#925
omigosh u just came in the store with baby t and baby t smiled at meeeeeeeeee
so cute __________________ |
Anastasia~, Echos Myron redux, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Anastasia~, circlesincircles, Echos Myron redux, Elio, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Comfy Sedation
Member Since Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,301
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#926
and you introduced us!!!!!
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Anastasia~, RaineD, SlumberKitty
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Anastasia~, Elio, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, RaineD, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Poohbah
Member Since Oct 2018
Location: Canada
Posts: 1,073
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#927
When you sent me that email saying not to take your class because you’re tired of my drama, that hurt a LOT. I’m glad we got past it, but it hurt. I don’t even want to live right now and I can’t tell you how much I’m hurting.
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Anastasia~, ElectricManatee, Elio, LabRat27, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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junkDNA
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329
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#928
Dear T, seven days to go...Kit
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Anastasia~, Elio, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 1,009
6 2,354 hugs
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#929
When we talk about this, do you remember that I mean you?
What I'm telling you implies that I literally fantasize about being held by you. How could you not feel violated by that? How could you not be absolutely disgusted? |
Anastasia~, Echos Myron redux, Elio, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks, Waterloo12345
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,692
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#930
You asked me why I was rushing with my exams and trying to take them all early and in January.
The answer is you. If I'm done by the end of this month I can have around 2 weeks off before second semester starts. I just want to be around you. I want to see you in real life instead of just up on screen. I know all of this isn't really about you, but all of this hurts, the pining and longing for you seems so cruel... I don't know if I'm making a mistake arranging to see another T, but I don't see myself getting over this any time soon. Nick drake said it best "oh so weak in this need for you". __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
Anastasia~, Echos Myron redux, Elio, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Comfy Sedation
Member Since Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,301
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#931
1.5 hours left of working 7 days straight... cannot wait to get a couple days off
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Anastasia~, atisketatasket, Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329
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#932
@ JunkDNA, working 7 days straight sucks. I hope you have a couple of really good days off. Kit
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junkDNA
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atisketatasket, Elio, junkDNA
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Magnate
Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
Posts: 2,160
6 1,833 hugs
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#933
Hi T. I'm not going to email you this week. I promise.
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Anastasia~, atisketatasket, Elio, junkDNA, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 1,009
6 2,354 hugs
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#934
Why are jou late? ...
It's only like a minute, but I don't like it... |
Anastasia~, atisketatasket, Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Member
Member Since May 2018
Location: United States
Posts: 303
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#935
I'm out of sorts, for no discernable reason. I wish you could help me with that.
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atisketatasket, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Member
Member Since May 2018
Location: United States
Posts: 303
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#936
Also, I miss you and don't want to have to wait another week to see you.
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atisketatasket, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 1,009
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#937
"Worse than average" was literally all I was asking for and you couldn't even give me that. I thought that was safe to ask.
If I had an average childhood and ended up like this then it really was my own ****ing fault for being so weak. |
atisketatasket, Echos Myron redux, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Elder
Member Since Oct 2008
Posts: 7,361
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#938
labrat....been following your posts, and disagree with your T
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SlumberKitty
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LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, WarmFuzzySocks
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 1,009
6 2,354 hugs
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#939
Possible trigger:
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Amyjay, LonesomeTonight, Pennster, WarmFuzzySocks
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 1,009
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#940
He didn't say it was better than average, he just said he couldn't say it was worse than average because he doesn't really have a frame of reference because the people he sees probably tend to be people who had worse childhoods than average
(Which, extrapolating, means it definitely wasn't worse than average compared to the rest of his patients. Which I could have already guessed.) In his defense, objectively it wasn't that bad. Like nothing really awful happened and any "abuse" was fairly mild as abuse goes. Last edited by LabRat27; Jan 11, 2019 at 11:40 PM.. |
Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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