The Love Cure

I've been struggling with how "to be" in a theraputic environment. I find that I am even in a struggle to understand what I need from it. When I started, I was coming from a place of desperation not knowing where else to turn. I started seeing my current T in Nov. She was my 4th since April to no fault of my own. The other 3 literally departed abruptly from the organization and I can't say I was disappointed because I felt no connection with any of them. It was only frustrating in that I desperately needed to find someone I could connect with and waited for so long.
From the moment I met the T I have now, I felt a connection and a sense of safety and hope. First, the idea of feeling an immediate connection with anyone like this is scary. Sure, it's a wonderful feeling but it brings so much insecurity and emotional vulnerability with it for me. I am finding it difficult to express these fears with her. I think part of it is how immediate my sense of connection and need for her has been and having uncertainty about how such deep emotions will be received since we've not had a lot of time yet to 'build the relationship'. I don't want to scare her away & I don't want to make her uncomfortable. Why am I so concerned about her feelings? It seems like a barrier to moving forward and really understanding what I need from therapy given my circumstances.
I have a friend that is a psychoanalyst. Without going into too many details, I asked her for any good reading or resources relating to struggles with understanding theraputic relationships from both sides. She recommended The Love Cure by John Ryan Haule & thought it might speak to me given what she knows of my personality. It was very insightful and left me with some self clarity. I see myself as the "earnest searcher" he refers to, which is a person whose journey is more about resolving internal spiritual conflict than resolving the typical neurosis.
So getting to my real point/question. If you can identify with the "earnest searcher" and see your journey as more of a spiritual one, I'd like to hear your thoughts.
This is about much more for me than coping with panic attacks or learning to live with trauma that has occurred in my life. This realization along with the connection I'm feeling with my T are really a battle that I'm trying to come to some foundational peace with so I can move forward.
Hope someone might relate.