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Poohbah
Member Since Oct 2018
Location: Canada
Posts: 1,073
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#201
I wish I could redo our session today. I’d actually make it productive. It’s my fault, not yours.
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Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, may24, SlumberKitty
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Member
Member Since Jan 2017
Location: Florida
Posts: 322
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#202
T, I can’t seem to write to you...
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Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Poohbah
Member Since Jul 2017
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 1,019
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#203
Trigger Warning***************************
I find myself struggling at work due to my paranoia. I hate to admit this, but it is unfortunately true. I feel like I am acting abnormally and I think others notice, but I can't be sure. I am finding my mind going to wishing I had an terminal brain tumor to explain my behavior, to allow me to stop working so I can maybe relax, maybe I wouldn't feel so tortured at work. I actually wish that I was normal, but I am clearly not. I can't remember anything and feel confused a lot of the time. I'm really exhausted. I hope things get better, but I can't see that happening at this point. How depressing. . . __________________ |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 1,009
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#204
Possible trigger:
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Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Poohbah
Member Since Oct 2018
Location: Canada
Posts: 1,073
5 70 hugs
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#205
I sent you like ten million texts and emails today. Sorry not sorry. But please please consider the one where I ask for longer or more sessions. Please.
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SlumberKitty
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since Apr 2016
Location: USA
Posts: 1,527
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#206
I need to see you bad. Like, really really bad.
__________________ stay afraid, but do it anyway. |
Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,700
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#207
I think you're actually right. Since we made our new contract all I've done is test it from the word go. Now that you've said I can have a second session again- I feel like I don't really want it...
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Aug 2012
Location: Anonymous
Posts: 3,132
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#208
Dear T, I stuck up for myself and my needs for the gig, it was really hard to do because it was asking the others to accommodate me. Learned a lesson about trying to travel by car in the winter where I won't make the same "mistake" again. It felt great to say "I won't do ___" but of course was willing to do something more reasonable. Also, in dealing earlier with not so communicative people, saying politely "I need you to confirm ___" and then waiting for a week before following up to ask for a more precisely defined timeline for the requested information. I think I showed a great deal of restraint combined with clear requests that made everything turn out just fine. It was not so easy, however, to be restrained-- I find over reacting and flying off the handle much more natural
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SlumberKitty
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LonesomeTonight
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Veteran Member
Member Since Jan 2018
Location: Somewhere in a cloud
Posts: 719
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#209
I wish you were my dad
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Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Magnate
Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
Posts: 2,160
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#210
I love you so much. Thank you.
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Anastasia~, SlumberKitty
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circlesincircles, LonesomeTonight
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Grand Member
Member Since Apr 2017
Location: USA
Posts: 916
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#211
Thank you for not pushing me to come back for another week yet. Two and a half weeks is a good break and will allow me time to heal a bit both physically and mentally. Please don't push me to sign a one year contract the minute I get back. I don't want to get into an arguement on day one.
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Anastasia~, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Member
Member Since May 2018
Location: United States
Posts: 303
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#212
I don't know if I will ever be able to tell you. The words are there in my mind, but the wall of shame is way too high.
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Anastasia~, Echos Myron redux, LonesomeTonight, may24, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Magnate
Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
Posts: 2,160
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#213
What if it isn't just the young part that's in love with you? What if the adult is too? It would be my worst nightmare.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Member
Member Since Aug 2018
Location: USA
Posts: 244
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#214
I know this is happening now. It’s all adding up, slowly, gradually, a touch here, a look there, a little closer now...
I know you want me to think it’s my idea. I’m just a game for you to play. How do you rationalize it, knowing all you know? How soon until your caring, supportive mask slips off? Why do I want so much for you to hurt me? I need to stop this. This is danger zone. |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#215
I wonder what you thought when I scowled at you today.
I felt mean. |
SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#216
I feel like a rotten, bad girl. I hate me.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, unaluna, WarmFuzzySocks
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 1,009
6 2,354 hugs
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#217
I feel so needy and I hate it. I just want you to say more kind and compassionate and validating things so I can feel warm and fuzzy again.
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DP_2017, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks, Waterloo12345
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Aug 2017
Location: A house
Posts: 4,412
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#218
That exam was awful and awkward but the relationship we had, it would have been no problem at all casually sharing all about it with you, you would have been so happy I did it, but I'm gonna keep doing things that scare me. Maybe not be as out there and risky as you but I'll try some stuff.
Also I miss you. I hope sometimes you still think about me and HOPE to see me again in 2020. __________________ Grief is the price you pay for love. |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks, Waterloo12345
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Grand Member
Member Since Mar 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 876
11 601 hugs
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#219
I feel like a failure. When will my life stop being controlled by my ptsd? Why do flashbacks have to ruin so many aspects of my life? Do I keep going to this class and have flashbacks every time or quit and be a failure? Either way I hate myself because of it. I just want to end it all and I’m too scared to call you because I don’t wanna annoy you.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Member
Member Since Mar 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 876
11 601 hugs
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#220
I regret everything. I feel sick to my stomach. I want to disappear.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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