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I went today after a month.Session was easy, I could have let it that way but I didn't. Now I feel like an idiot for not being able to talk about the thing I wanted to . I think next session I will tell you thanks and let's wrap this up.
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Was my intuition correct regarding my prospective new boss? I called him to turn down the job offer, and we ended up having a conversation. In the middle of that conversation, my intuition told me to accept the job. So I did. Was that the right decision? T, why won't you talk to me? I need you.
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I don't want to go to this thing tonight. I want to sleep for about the next six years. So tired.
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I don't know how I am going to get thru this. or if.


I am a wretched leach.
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Looked at some of your pics on my phone and started crying. This is hell. I'm not sure how much longer I can handle this ****. Worst thing of all is knowing you moved on already. We never even got to do the stuff on my list that you promised we could.
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I think my T is terminating me. He won't answer my texts, as he always does. I am a horrible as I feel like I pushed him to do this. I ****ing hate myself so much. I wish I was never born as I am a useless piece of ****. This is my second termination, if this is one. I don't want to think positively because I don't want to fall that far again. I just text bombed him. He is such a good T, and I am such a bad patient. I'm done caring about myself. I just don't care anymore. I am just a big nobody. I guess he won't text me back. He didn't even tell me in therapy. I hate myself anyway. I deserve all the pain and agony and sorrow and depression that will follow.





*****He just texted me and said nothing was wrong.


You know when you are terrified like I just was, in regard to your T leaving, that it is such a massive relief when it doesn't happen, and is so traumatizing when it does. I think he should leave me, or kick me out of therapy and yet, I don't want that.
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I think my T is terminating me. He won't answer my texts, as he always does. I am a horrible as I feel like I pushed him to do this. I ****ing hate myself so much. I wish I was never born as I am a useless piece of ****. This is my second termination, if this is one. I don't want to think positively because I don't want to fall that far again. I just text bombed him. He is such a good T, and I am such a bad patient. I'm done caring about myself. I just don't care anymore. I am just a big nobody. I guess he won't text me back. He didn't even tell me in therapy. I hate myself anyway. I deserve all the pain and agony and sorrow and depression that will follow.





*****He just texted me and said nothing was wrong.


You know when you are terrified like I just was, in regard to your T leaving, that it is such a massive relief when it doesn't happen, and is so traumatizing when it does. I think he should leave me, or kick me out of therapy and yet, I don't want that.

Was going to reply then saw your update. Glad nothing was wrong--maybe he was just busy or his phone died or something? I'd talk to him about these fears. And how you feel he should leave you. I Imagine it relates to something from your past.
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Was going to reply then saw your update. Glad nothing was wrong--maybe he was just busy or his phone died or something? I'd talk to him about these fears. And how you feel he should leave you. I Imagine it relates to something from your past.

Thanks (((LT))))).
It took him a long time to answer, which is not usual. Today, I felt horrible about the topic which made me think he was terminating even more intense. It was painful and I struggled to talk about it, and I still don't think he understood me, but I see him tomorrow. Thanks!
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T,
I'm so exhausted mentally, and don't want to do anything of this. I want to curl up in a ball and hide away from it all...pretend it doesn't exist. I don't know what to say or who to turn to when I feel like this.
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Thanks (((LT))))).
It took him a long time to answer, which is not usual. Today, I felt horrible about the topic which made me think he was terminating even more intense. It was painful and I struggled to talk about it, and I still don't think he understood me, but I see him tomorrow. Thanks!
That feeling of "impending termination", whether real or perceived, is soul-crushing. I'm glad all is well.
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