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#41
I went today after a month.Session was easy, I could have let it that way but I didn't. Now I feel like an idiot for not being able to talk about the thing I wanted to . I think next session I will tell you thanks and let's wrap this up.
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#42
Was my intuition correct regarding my prospective new boss? I called him to turn down the job offer, and we ended up having a conversation. In the middle of that conversation, my intuition told me to accept the job. So I did. Was that the right decision? T, why won't you talk to me? I need you.
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#43
I don't want to go to this thing tonight. I want to sleep for about the next six years. So tired.
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Poohbah
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#44
I don't know how I am going to get thru this. or if.
I am a wretched leach. __________________ Last edited by Anastasia~; Jan 15, 2019 at 08:30 PM.. |
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Grand Magnate
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#45
Looked at some of your pics on my phone and started crying. This is hell. I'm not sure how much longer I can handle this ****. Worst thing of all is knowing you moved on already. We never even got to do the stuff on my list that you promised we could.
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Poohbah
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#46
I think my T is terminating me. He won't answer my texts, as he always does. I am a horrible as I feel like I pushed him to do this. I ****ing hate myself so much. I wish I was never born as I am a useless piece of ****. This is my second termination, if this is one. I don't want to think positively because I don't want to fall that far again. I just text bombed him. He is such a good T, and I am such a bad patient. I'm done caring about myself. I just don't care anymore. I am just a big nobody. I guess he won't text me back. He didn't even tell me in therapy. I hate myself anyway. I deserve all the pain and agony and sorrow and depression that will follow.
*****He just texted me and said nothing was wrong. You know when you are terrified like I just was, in regard to your T leaving, that it is such a massive relief when it doesn't happen, and is so traumatizing when it does. I think he should leave me, or kick me out of therapy and yet, I don't want that. __________________ |
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Always in This Twilight
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#47
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Was going to reply then saw your update. Glad nothing was wrong--maybe he was just busy or his phone died or something? I'd talk to him about these fears. And how you feel he should leave you. I Imagine it relates to something from your past. |
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#48
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Thanks (((LT))))). It took him a long time to answer, which is not usual. Today, I felt horrible about the topic which made me think he was terminating even more intense. It was painful and I struggled to talk about it, and I still don't think he understood me, but I see him tomorrow. Thanks! __________________ |
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#49
T,
I'm so exhausted mentally, and don't want to do anything of this. I want to curl up in a ball and hide away from it all...pretend it doesn't exist. I don't know what to say or who to turn to when I feel like this. |
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Poohbah
Member Since Oct 2018
Location: Canada
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#50
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#51
We had a really good session today. You reassured me on several levels. You said I'm a good client, you appreciate that I pay on time, and that just because we have conflict it doesn't mean you're going to terminate me. That was all so very reassuring. Most of the time I feel good about our relationship, but sometimes I still doubt.
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#52
I'm going to meet with your another client so that she could give me meds she doesn't need anymore.
I'm glad to get free meds, but I'm already jealous, seeing your other clients is so hurtful |
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Location: USA
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#53
do you want to hurt me?
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#54
4 days to go
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#55
Well it's probably a good time to be at therapy since I feel like shite.
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#56
Dear T:
This seems new-- when things start to go off the rails, when I feel bad and stressed and have trouble sleeping, I turn my focus to the things that I know bring me joy, if I can. Can't walk now, too much icy slippery stuff on sidewalks, but will go to the pool tomorrow and Friday. A nod to doing the creative stuff, and the other coping things that work. I feel like I used to sit there in the dark, wondering why no one was turning on the light, or if they asked me, I might say, "no, that's okay, I'll just sit here in the dark." This is better. But I still feel a little like a scraped-up old wounded place is hanging out inside my heart. |
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#57
Possible trigger:
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#58
Help me!
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#59
SusannahSays Hope you're alright. HUGS kit
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#60
Dear R,
The anxiety's getting to me. We've never done one session a week during examination period before. Why do you think we should start now before my biggest winter exam?! Why do you think you know what is best for me? p.s I'm seeing T2 tomorrow at 10.30. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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