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LonesomeTonight
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Member Since: Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 20,699
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#681
Dear T,
Hope you reach (reached?) your destination safely today...wherever it is you're going. Love, LT |
SlumberKitty
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DP_2017
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Magnet
WarmFuzzySocks
is made of star stuff
Member Since: Jun 2017
Location: in the garden
Posts: 2,304
15.5k hugs
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#682
I keep rolling this around in my head:
At home, I am consciously, constantly keeping these things in mind when I communicate: Keep it short, keep it clear, keep it concrete. Sometimes when I am talking to you about the decisions I am making, you react as though I am waffling, not clear. Whatever, you can think that. I know where I'm going. Last I saw you, you repeated back to me what I'd actually said to you, clarifying something. At the time, we were focused on the content of the conversation, but later I realized suddenly--Ooooooohhh!--that the language I use when summarizing my thoughts and conversations is much more ambiguous, ambivalent even, than I use anywhere outside therapy. I wonder why that is? __________________ Since you cannot do good to all, you are to pay special attention to those who, by accidents of time, or place, or circumstance, are brought into closer connection with you. (St. Augustine) |
Anastasia~, SlumberKitty, unaluna
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LonesomeTonight
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winterblues17
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Member Since: Nov 2017
Location: UK
Posts: 379
62 hugs
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#683
Old T, ex T or whatever else I can call you... today I really thought about it all, I don't care what excuse you had to leave me last month when we were actually working towards this months event! Anyway whatever the excuse u want to use, u know what, it's just not good enough. Actions speak louder than your words, and I stupidly believes over 2 years that you cared. Anyway time to stop caring about you, you don't deserve it, you suck!!!
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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DP_2017
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Grand Magnate
DP_2017
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Member Since: Aug 2017
Location: A house
Posts: 4,412
665 hugs
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#684
I wish we could talk during recovery, I regret cancelling my original appointment or you would have been there for me. I keep wanting to text you funny things I don't think I'll ever be ok with not being allowed to talk to you anymore.
I miss you, I hope you are happy. __________________ Grief is the price you pay for love. |
LonesomeTonight, RaineD, SlumberKitty
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healing from trauma
Taylor27
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Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Alberta
Posts: 30,425
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24.3k hugs
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#685
Dear t I hope when i see you in a week and half you will have some good news about me seeing a new t after you retire. I feel i have more work to do on myself that requires therapy still.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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RaineD
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Member Since: Aug 2017
Location: United States
Posts: 950
962 hugs
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#686
I'm feeling hopeless about ever being able to find another therapist. Maybe I should just give up.
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SlumberKitty, unaluna
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RaineD
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Member Since: Aug 2017
Location: United States
Posts: 950
962 hugs
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#687
I love you, and I miss you so much.
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SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Anne2.0
elephant walks on
Member Since: Aug 2012
Location: Anonymous
Posts: 3,132
129 hugs
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#688
Dear T:
Contemplative this morning, looking forward to my day. Feel secure in a way I haven't for a bit now. Writing this down and imagining you can read it but knowing you can't gives me a little fit of giggles, like I'm putting a blanket over my head. I wonder if you'd be surprised at some of my tender feelings for you in these moments. |
SlumberKitty, unaluna
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Magnate
Echos Myron redux
is vaccinated
Member Since: Apr 2018
Location: UK
Posts: 2,157
1,833 hugs
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#689
I MISS you. (Yes it's Sunday again - official I miss T day)
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ElectricManatee, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
nottrustin
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Member Since: Jan 2014
Location: n/a
Posts: 4,819
375 hugs
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#691
Thank you, for the first time in a long time I feel optimistic. I do believe I can get to a place where my past no longer haunts me. I know it will be a lot of work but think we can do it. Just continue to be patient with me.
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Anastasia~, SlumberKitty
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LostOnTheTrail
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Member Since: Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,777
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#692
It's so hard to hold on to things going well, when things fall apart again on a regular basis.
__________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
nottrustin
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Member Since: Jan 2014
Location: n/a
Posts: 4,819
375 hugs
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#693
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SlumberKitty
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Anastasia~
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Always in This Twilight
LonesomeTonight
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Member Since: Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 20,699
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#694
Dear T,
I'd be too embarrassed to tell you this in real life. I saw that two unidentified men died in a car crash near one of our area airports early yesterday morning. I knew you were traveling yesterday (though not which airport) and was worried it could have been you (like with your brother maybe?) Even though it would have been the wrong direction from the airport. But I still worried. I found another article about the crash that gave a description of the two men and am pretty sure neither is you. I suppose it's possible that you have a large tattoo of a particular creature across your chest (though I somehow doubt it!), but you certainly don't look under 25 (no offense!), as they both did. I hate my brain sometimes... Love you, LT |
InkyBooky, Lemoncake, SlumberKitty
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DP_2017
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Luna's offical mini me.
Lemoncake
Adult female human
Member Since: May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,646
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10.1k hugs
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#695
I'm tempted to email and ask if I can have my tuesday slot back. Maybe we could have delayed it by 20 mins. But I don't want to break my 10 day streak if I'm being honest.
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Poohbah
piggy momma
loves all pigs. ALL. THE. PIGS.
Member Since: Oct 2018
Location: Canada
Posts: 1,073
70 hugs
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#696
It took me fourteen months to trust you, to trust that you weren't going to just terminate me because you felt like it. Last session you told me you almost terminated me last fall because I took so many trips last year.
Why would you say that? Why would you tell me that when I JUST started to trust you in the last three months? Now I feel like I"m back to walking on eggshells with you. I really wish you had just kept that to yourself. No good came from it. |
Anastasia~, Elio, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, Under*Over
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Poohbah
Anastasia~
has no updates.
Member Since: Jul 2017
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 1,019
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#697
I am afraid of all of this. I am terrified to still work, I can't do that anymore. I am terrified to do nothing. I want to try to relax and get rid of all of this anxiety that has built up.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Grand Poohbah
comrademoomoo
is losing at chess, winning at blundering
Member Since: Feb 2019
Location: Toodlepip
Posts: 1,698
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#698
I don't want you to go on holiday. Again.
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Under*Over
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Member Since: Mar 2018
Location: USA
Posts: 457
177 hugs
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#699
When you terminated me for being too sick- I understood. You told me it wasnt my fault, that you just werent equipt to deal with my condition should it worsen or I stop my medication again. I understood.
But it still hurt. I understand. But I still feel like... this just proved that Im an awful lost cause in some ways. I didnt ask for much. I dont ever ask for much. But my illness takes. And this was just proof that- my illness also destroys. And that I really wish I didnt have to understand. |
Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, Nik87, SlumberKitty
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Lemoncake
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Luna's offical mini me.
Lemoncake
Adult female human
Member Since: May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,646
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#700
I'm reading my old journal from this time last year. I'm glad I've kept my writings, but I literally sound deranged and I can't believe some of the things I've said to you...
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, unaluna, WarmFuzzySocks
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