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Grand Magnate
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#221
Why does the show I'm watching have to have an episode in Portland? Why can't I go one damn day without thinking about you, I'm sure you have gone like 80 without thinking of me. I'm so pathetic. I need this madness to stop now
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#222
Thinking about you.
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#223
Wishing you’d answer me. Things aren’t good.
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Member Since May 2017
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#224
You have really been sucking at email lately. I am starting to think that you are sucking so much on purpose as a way to hint that I should stop emailing you. I think it's working, whether you mean for it to happen or not. You don't really do passive-aggressive like that, at least not with me, but I would rather have no email contact than for it to be like this.
It just occurred to me that this reminds me of my mother. I try to make myself as crystal clear as I possibly can, and it feels like you're purposely missing the point. Or maybe like you can't hear me at all. You would love this insight, but I can't share it because you would probably respond with, like, a turtle emoji. |
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Grand Magnate
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#225
I miss you. I miss being able to be honest when my mood tanks. I miss telling you about about my and my childrens successes. I must knowing where I stood. I miss knowing you would be there to help me through all the crap.
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Member Since Mar 2018
Location: CA
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#226
Things are really escalating really quickly.
This is like a snowball rolling down a hill getting bigger and bigger and gaining momentum. I need you. Last edited by LabRat27; Mar 10, 2019 at 06:50 AM.. |
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#227
It's all about shame, can't you see that?
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#228
hey ummmm idk if I want to come to game night!
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#229
Dear T,
So my PCP says I'm bipolar and psychotic, two diagnoses I know you wouldn't agree with. But this will be on the paperwork for the new mental health people so I guess they will do their own assessment and can decide for themselves. -Butterfly |
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#230
I think all this walking is helping clear my mind and in some ways is beginning to replace therapy. I still miss "us" but it was only really bad one night lately. I'm getting over loving you, slowly but surely.
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#231
The converted acolytes zealously defend your perverse nonsensical doctrine even more than you therapists do. There is almost no difference between religion and psychotherapy.
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#232
Art - I hope you don't mind me poking in here. Is there a reason you have to get over loving her? Wouldn't accepting that you love her; that it's ok to love her; and it's ok to love her even if she is not in your life anymore be a valuable step as well?
For some reason when I read your statement, I got the feeling of loving her meant possessing/owning her. Like if you couldn't have her in your life the way you want her to be there then there's no reason to love her or that you shouldn't love her. It also reminded me of your quote about finding barriers to love. What barriers are you putting in place so that this love doesn't hurt or what barriers are in place so you cannot or no longer feel the love that is there (and yeah, kind of thinking of looking at the mirror on this one - not sure if I'm ready). I know there's so much more to it than this, as I only know a fraction of what you have experienced, so forgive me if I'm completely off base here. |
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#233
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#234
I will always love her. I just need to get over it, get over myself, as in stop fighting how I feel, or something.
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#235
Why did you tell me you were retiring from public speaking and teaching last year, yet you are clearly continuing?
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#236
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#237
I wish you were alive. You would have known what I should do. You would have helped me navigate all of this weirdness. You would have taught me. I don't know what to do without you. I feel like I am stumbling in the darkness.
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#238
I have really cleaned more today and I threw somethings away and will give some things away. I am not in my head today. I love the site you suggested. I am actively participating and I learned something. I don't know how to look at data statistically speaking, and there probably not enough of it, but I noticed that a lot of people with social anxiety have a B12 deficiency. I know there may or may not be a correlation, but it really interested me. I feel like myself today. I am not worried about the therapeutic relationship at all. I have been getting more sleep and I have been walking and I feel SOOOOO much better. I really think doing what I did in regard to work was the only answer. I am kind of feeling an excitement/joy about what I will be doing next. I have no idea, but just fathoming that my life doesn't have to be so excruciating gives me hope. I had lost all hope. And now I feel hopeful.
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#239
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#240
Why did you have to refer to yourself (twice) as my "treatment provider" today? That feels so impersonal. I don't like this feeling. I feel like erecting walls now.
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