Couch 193: The Aurora Borealis Couch

My rage at the therapist has not been diminished by my session. In fact, I might be even angrier. I'm not completely sure... some legitimate grievances, but also a considerable dollop of negative transference.

I just joined a painting group on fb its related to their youtube channel and the list of rules is unreal. the other fb group i am in basically has play nice and no promoting or selling of art. i am not too good with rules

I'm in a crochet Facebook group with a bunch of rules too. I rarely post anything cuz I don't remember all the rules....

Ah, another reason I'm not on FB.

in this one you can only post your art on certain days and you can only post their tutorial related things on other days etc etc I am going to find it hard and they havent specified what time zone to post so if post on my wednseday its their Tuesday i think.

I didnt have fb for a long time and i have forgotten why i had to get it back i am thinking of not using it but a lot of small businesses in my town use it exclusively

I made an origami pencil holder today. Yeah. What a good use of company time....whoops.

A coworker just threw me under the bus for someone else's mistake. Oh well. Gotta love coworkers....

Going to Starbucks with a friend tonight. I get to give her her birthday present. Yeah!

My anti-psychotic makes my head spacey.

I had a good session today I feel like it was the first time in a couple of weeks that we were able to talk about issues and not just spend time grounding me, and t listing all the reasons why I shouldn't kill myself. However, the way it ended was frustrating, first T and I started talking about some pretty important stuff towards the end of the session and I guess neither of us realized that it was close to the end of the session when some good conversation came of it. Then, t got a phone call from the front office it must have been a patient with some kind of emergency because he just said he would call the hospital and let them know she was coming and then hung up the phone. T sits back down and we start trying to wrap things up and probably two minutes later there is a knock on his office door. It was the office manger, she said she needed to talk to T. T stepped out and I could hear the whole conversation with the door shut, apparently the same client that they had called about earlier was still on the phone demanding to talk to T and threatening the office staff and in general just freaking out. I knew T was going to come and in started to wrap things off, but because of the interruption he forgot where we left up and wrapped up something that we had already talked about and didn't really get to wrap up the important stuff we had started addressing before we were interrupted.

I am really not annoyed with T as I think he handled things the best he could. He tried not to let the other patient's emergency have any bearing on my appointment time. However, when his office staff knocks on the door and says they need to talk he couldn't really ignore it. That is what frustrates me, though I am sure they were just trying to make sure another person would be safe. I guess I just wish the appointment could of ended a little better.

Aww what a sweet older gentleman. I'm on my after-work walk around my subdivision and he called to me from his front porch, pointed to a bench in his yard and said if you ever get tired and need to rest, that's what it's there for. I said aww thank you!!

At least he won't yell at you to get off his lawn!

I saw a competent doctor today (podiatrist—infected toenail) who apologized for keeping me waiting multiple times, as did his staff. Answered questions. Weird stuff like that.

And now I am missing a big toenail.

Ouch! Hopefully it grows back soon. Is it tender?

Local anesthetic.

I imagine it will hurt tomorrow.

Art why didn’t you
tell us it was National
Haiku Day? Lost chance.

(Terrible haiku.)

Oops! I didn't know!
Although I really should have...
Too much overtime.

Why didn't i know?
After all, I'm a nail tech.
I should be first call.

A competent doctor? You don’t say.

Sorry about the toenail. That’s gonna be a * * * * * tomorrow.