Ts and crisis

So because of my issues at work I have been in crisis for awhile now. My T wants me to get a higher level of care. I did ketamine treatments to make her happy so I could stay out of the hospital. My pdoc has increased my Seroquel and added Vistaril.

Friday which was supposed to be a settlement work blindsided is and self proclaimed that they did nothing wrong and weren’t going to settle. So knowing how this is going to put me in a tailspin farther down all I got from my T was a 6 minute phone call and her saying she would see me next session which isn’t until Wednesday. She has cut off communication even though she knows I am in a bad place. Typically she would tell me to check in daily but she didn’t even do that. So I am having a huge crisis at the moment and my T decides to change the rules. I don’t know if this is her form of tough love or trying to get rid of me. But her timing really sucks. I have been in bed all weekend. I have 8 job interviews I have to do for this one job over the next 4 days. I don’t know if I can do it.

I thought in your last post you said you basically fired your T via email a couple days ago. Or am I confusing you with someone else?

Either way, what did you need in terms of support right now? What would you like from us so we can best help?

What if you called on Monday and asked for an earlier session?

That sucks. Are there any crisis line type things you can call? I know it is difficult not having T be supportive when you need her to but I wouldn’t fire her without another T lined up... just what you need, a longer to do list right? Did she suggest a specific higher level of care? There are lots of options, knowing what she was thinking and maybe having a referral to a specific one might be more helpful than trying to force your hand in a crisis.

Hugs what if you called her and told her you cannot wait til Wednesday, im pretty sure she is willing to hear from you during this hard time Hugs

I would text my T for an extra appointment.

Wishing you strength to get through your interviews.

I thought they were giving you the right to transfer within the company,though I fully realize that companies try to rid themselves of employees w medical and even more so mental health issues. How many interviews did you /do you have for transferring?
I think it would be helpful, tho. I realize you feel overwhelmed, to put a short synopsis of all that has happened at the company as a signature on your posts so that people who have not followed your story can give reasonable answers.
Having tried to follow your whole story, sympathizing due to having hidden my disorder or taking temp disability a couple times for 45 years of working in education, just guessing, I think the therapist is probably hoping to do some damage control by calling a time out for you to destress, during which you may consider getting away from such a toxic environment while you get a new job.. You have been so stalwart in fighting this, but I believe in you and am just sure that you will find a better environment. Things can get so much better when you find the right niche. It might not happen right away, but getting away from these people could change your life.

Yes, I was reading your backstory, and it sounds like your therapist was asking you to get a higher level of care because you were doing so poorly or she could no longer see you. Was your pdoc able to help you get more stabilized?

Additionally, I know your job has a series of interviews lined up for you for a transfer if I’m understanding correctly. That must be a daunting and anxiety-making prospect, but additionally not being stable right now just compounds the issue.

It seems like I read your pdoc and therapist were asking you to consider disability. Is that a possibility?

Sorry I am kind of all over the place right now.

So work set up a settlement meeting but when my lawyer called they blindsided her and said they declared that they did nothing wrong. They also said the people I accused were try to help me and why could I not get that through my skull.

They let me keep my job for now but no transfer. I have to interview just like everybody else.

I haven’t fired my T yet I want to talk to her first and I just realized my appointment got moved to Thursday so I have longer to wait.

I did email her saying we needed to talk and for her to get in touch with me. So far nothing. I think I will start looking for a new T tomorrow. I hate starting over. I have been with my T for five years and she remembers things that I can’t. So I feel like I will be losing part of myself.

I’m so sorry. That sucks. It must hurt so bad when a T you’ve trusted doesn’t reply when they know you’re struggling. The appointment moving is rough, too. It sounds like you’re doing a good job of hanging in there despite the crappy circumstances. Maybe you can find a more consistent T who allows more between session contact and have both Ts for a bit. We are here to cheer you on. You got this.