Crying in session and progress in therapy

You know, I think that the comment bumped right into my need to do things the right way.

If not crying=progress, then crying=not progress, which means that if I cry then I am not making progress, which means I am not doing therapy right, which means I am doing it wrong.

Which, I understand once it's out in the light, is very black-and-white thinking that doesn't allow for the actual complexity and depth of human experience and interaction. It's like a hidden script running in the background that I can't see, this need to do things "right." Looking at it like that, I understand that my therapist did not mean that at all.

And yet...at least not consciously. There's something there, a small piece, that's coming from her too, I think, but I can't see how much or quite tease out where it is. And I don't really need to, I don't think. That's not the focus of my therapy. It's not even really my business unless it impacts the work I can do in therapy. Human interaction is necessarily messy, even with therapists, and I prefer it that way; otherwise, a therapy robot would work just fine, right?

I think it's individual, but there's nothing wrong with crying in session. I've been doing this therapy game for the past two years and 4 months now. I've cried in every single session but 7 and I've been on twice a week for most of it I told R that I cry now because I couldn't cry before. .

I cried all through my session yesterday. I have teared up numerous times before but this was all out sobbing and perhaps a little wailing. I just felt so defeated and a failure. I had diligently done my homework but felt such a failure at it and that I let myself down - that I had let her down. The tears just flowed and flowed and flowed.

Some good may have come to this however. My therapist has bumped up my sessions from monthly to weekly, with a mid-week check-in to her office. She suggested too I try to get in as soon as I can to my psychiatrist so as to discuss my medication. She might be right. I've had no changes since 2015 and I it is probably do some tweaking.

I barely cry and i wish i could let the tears flow. There is nothing wrong with crying and i do not put progress on crying because i feel it's very healthy to cry. Hugs

If I were to cry in therapy it would probably mean I was either on deaths door or that I needed to be put in a straightjacket in a rubber room right away. I very rarely cry and wouod be even less likely to do it if I knew someone was watching. Sometimes Id like to be able to cry, because I wonder if that would be... progress? But my body physically wont do it, and I am not going to sit there and try to force it. That would be almost like lying to me, personally