Couch 194: The Floral Couch

Tylenol (or acetaminophen, for generic)

Acetaminophen is the name generally used in the United States (United States Adopted Name), Japan (Japanese Accepted Name), Canada, Venezuela, Colombia, and Iran; paracetamol is used in international venues (International Nonproprietary Name, Australian Approved Name, British Approved Name). In some contexts, such as on prescription bottles of painkillers that incorporate this medicine, it is simply abbreviated as APAP, for acetyl-para-aminophenol.

Both acetaminophen and paracetamol come from a chemical name for the compound: para-acetylaminophenol and para-acetylaminophenol.

Now you know.

It's so ridiculous the amount of anxiety I have about going to coffee tomorrow with someone I've known over a decade. What is wrong with me? Simple things are so damn nauseating for me and it sucks

Wow I really do, thanks.

So I guess the old "why is there no aspirin in the jungle? Because paracetamol (parrots eat 'em all)" is brand new material to you guys!

OMG thats my favourite i couldnt hink of it yesterday. thanks for reminding me.

I must be really depressed because my D asked me this morning if i had been crying, i hadnt. I sat outside Ts room this morning, like that is going to change anything. Thanks everyone for bearing with my irrationalities and constant ping ponging.
Only 5 days til i find out, deep down i know it will be no, but that wver hopeful part keeps sating maybe not.

She said I can contact her while she's away, it just might take her longer to respond.

I don't want to take her referrals. I have one of my own. She's at the clinic I go to. She started April 1st. My Pdoc wanted me to see her, but I already agreed to see L. If L terminates with me, even for a little while, I won't go back. So long as the house sale goes through, we'll have money in a month. If she can somehow allow me to keep a tab, or is willing to wait to see me till after the 21st, everything will be okay.

"Because of all the sandwiches there"!

(Why you would never starve in the Sahara Desert)

Yep somebody just woke up from her nap.

Can you tell your T exactly this?

What does your translation say?

I always think profiterole sounds like a kind of corruption, like payola.

"Trump aide charged with four counts of profiterole."

my last couple of days hvent been wasted i cleaned out 1000 old and unread emails and unsubscribed from quite a few

sounds like they have rolled over profits into an off shore fund

Exactly!

logic tells me that if my t decides to take me on as a client again he will contact me himself instead of going through my gp unless my gp has set it up that way for all contact through her. but the first option is the most likely, yes? Am i reading too much into this i feel i am unnecessarily stress myself out over an inevitable outcome.

It seems the ancient Greeks were quite aware of frogs.
Greek colonies are "like frogs around a pond".
And there are the Aesop fables about (1) boys throwing stones at frogs ("it's a game to you but it's death to us") (2) the frog and the mouse who tied themselves together.

Ok- who wants to help me "unpack "something from last week's t session?

My session was interrupted twice last week with t because of another one of t's clients. Both interruptions were at the end of my session, and we were getting ready to wrap up when t got a phone call in his office from the front office. Then, a couple of minutes later office manger knocked on T's door and asked to speak with him in the office. She needed to talk to him about the same client she had called him about. It was evident he needed to deal with this person, so he came back in and we quickly wrapped up. We were the end of the session, and were even a bit overtime so it's not like I didn't get my session time.

I was annoyed that the office manager knocked on the door, it felt intrusive to me, but not really pissed at T because he didn't do anything wrong. However, slowly as the days have gone on I have felt almost frantic in needing to hear back from T, some kind of communication whether it's email/Text/phone call. I have never been this way before. I have emailed him almost everyday since Wednesday last week, on some days twice. The last email being today asking him to reaffirm it was ok that I am still emailing, or if I have gone over board please let me know. All of these emails have gone unanswered, which isn't out of the norm, because T rarely responds to emails. However, the longer I go without a response the more pissed I get at him. I feel like a child throwing a fit at this point. I just want him to say something to me anything.

So, I know lately my depression, anxiety, SI, have been on high. I get that I am not doing well, but I have not been a good place before and never felt so desperate for some kind of assurance from t. So, despite not being mad at T for the way our session ended last week.. I wonder if this need for reassurance has more to do with my session being interrupted by t's client in crisis and than my overall mental well being at this point. I know you all can't tell me what is going on in my head.. but it make sense right? And why can't t throw me a freaking bone and send me something back in a email with that reassurance?

It was my turn at writer’s workshop tonight. I wrote a satire. A pretty obvious satire (rich couple hosts a dinner party at which they serve no actual food, calling it a new cuisine). But some of them didn’t know what satire was? Said stuff like “the characters lacked depth and it didn’t move me.” It’s *satire*. It’s the age of South Park and Stephen Colbert.

Healed, I would definitely find that upsetting if it happened in my session as well. In fact, once, ex-MC answered a call from a client (she called twice on his cell, so he figured emergency) during our session and stepped outside to talk with her for a few minutes. It really bothered me and made me feel less important. I wonder if part of the reaching out to your T and desperately wanting a reply is to sort of assert your presence, that you're important, too? Maybe coming from a younger place? (which your T should understand). I hope your T responds in some way. When are you due to see him next?

Hugs, healed. I wish I knew what to say that could be helpful for you.