Couch 194: The Floral Couch

LolaCabanna · Apr 18, 2019 at 11:29 PM

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Originally Posted by susannahsays

But... maybe they deserve to feel the flames of my righteous fury?

Perhaps they shouldn’t be denied that 😂

LolaCabanna · Apr 18, 2019 at 11:30 PM

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Originally Posted by healed84

Lola come back and play!!

I’m here .. what’s the game 😉

susannahsays · Apr 18, 2019 at 11:32 PM

Alas, the crisis was averted because the person acknowledged that I was not, in fact, being ridiculous as her previous reply to me had insinuated.

I may still have to process this with the therapist tomorrow, which could be awkward given the topic.

Lemoncake · Apr 19, 2019 at 12:06 AM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

I'm going to be able to see my therapist this Saturday at 1. I will get to talk over with her extending out the no SH after Lent after all. I was on the cancellation list but I really didn't think that I would hear from the office, but I did. I normally don't do Saturday appointments as I would prefer to go after work and not in the middle of my day, but in this case, I jumped at the chance to see her and get to talk to her about extending out the time. I'm so glad this worked out. Now, I just hope it's a good appointment! HUGS Kit

I'm glad she can see you much sooner!

Lemoncake · Apr 19, 2019 at 12:09 AM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

I hate my H. He literally threw a temper tantrum: threw food and water bottles all around. What happened is that we got fast food for dinner. I accidentally gave my dad H's burger. When H found out, he blew his lid. So then he went to another fast food place and they messed up on his food. So when he got home and figured it out, he threw all his food everywhere, and picked up a package of water bottles and threw them. So I have chicken all over the entryway, 1/2 bath, and coat closet, and water all over the kitchen.

I don't know how I'm supposed to do all of this without T and L...and cigarettes. I just want to die.

I'm sorry Scarlett, but none of this is normal behavior in a healthy relationship. An adult is capable of controlling their anger without throwing food around. Most little children won't even act like this. Would you be safe if you didn't clean up his mess?

Lemoncake · Apr 19, 2019 at 12:12 AM

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Originally Posted by healed84

******trigger warning for talk of suicide******

I met with the pdoc today.. when he asked me if I had any SI or a plan I said yes(talked a little bit about my thoughts) and as always follow up with I have a safety plan with my therapist though. Which apparently I didn’t to say because the next words out of my doctors mouth was, oh you don’t want to really kill yourself you just like the idea of dying to get away from everything (something along those lines). Great way to
Feel completely invalidated and not listened to at all. I hate all professionals right now.

Your feelings are real.I wish he'd given you the space before interrupting. I read your dear T post. Have you decided to stop seeing T?

Lemoncake · Apr 19, 2019 at 12:18 AM

I went to bed at 7.30pm yesterday, and I feel much better and more human. Just waiting for the gym to open, as it's good friday they're opening two hours later at 8am.

I also decided to just turn my phone off this four day weekend, and it feels rather liberating. I don't want to constantly be available and to keep getting notifications.

healed84 · Apr 19, 2019 at 12:27 AM

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Originally Posted by LolaCabanna

I’m here .. what’s the game

Awww.. I thought you weren’t coming back and I fell asleep. Lucky for me anxiety a tight grip on me and woke me up. So here I am.. you are probably gone now.

healed84 · Apr 19, 2019 at 12:28 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

Your feelings are real.I wish he'd given you the space before interrupting. I read your dear T post. Have you decided to stop seeing T?

Nope... I am pissed at him, but I really have no reason to be pissed at him. He didn’t know anything about my former doctor’s indiscretions, and the interruption of my session was the office manager’s fault and not his.

susannahsays · Apr 19, 2019 at 12:53 AM

I am back to being angry. The therapist can count her blessings that my anger towards her has temporarily been overshadowed by this other issue...

This will definitely be a session in which I would prefer the SD style conference room and lectern to the therapist's office...

Speaking of the therapist's office, a few of you might remember how I was convinced last week that she had moved her chair. When I saw her on Wednesday, my suspicions were NOT confirmed. My recollection of her office was that it was bigger in one particular area. To put it bluntly, I was dismayed to realize there wasn't really anywhere she could have been moving around in.

And yet... I feel crazy, but as I was typing that, even though I remember realizing I had been wrong, it doesn't feel true. Maybe she has a secret panel in her office to make the room bigger or smaller, and it's all a part of her plot to put me in the hospital by making me crazy.

Yes. This seems quite likely. The move to the new office is all adding up... and to think, all that bother for little old me.

susannahsays · Apr 19, 2019 at 12:56 AM

But really, joking aside, I feel more convinced than ever (as of 2 seconds ago) that her chair was not always where it is now. I am going to ask her tomorrow. The suspense is killing me.

Apr 19, 2019 at 01:32 AM

my gp suggested i get more social and suggested doing art classes. I found one run by the local art society but i am not a total beginner but they do spend a lesson on pastels which i am eager to try and impasto which i havent been confident to do by myself. I wont know if there is spot for me til next week. i am so shy i am doubtful i will be able to make it. i have tried going to other social things but maybe being an activity will be different and the pressure to talk wont be so high like the coffee afternoons i tried earlier

Apr 19, 2019 at 06:53 AM

Hi Lola!! I always miss you!

Hugs and headnods all around.

Apr 19, 2019 at 07:00 AM

And my full day in customer-facing chat begins.

chihirochild · Apr 19, 2019 at 09:29 AM

Presentation on trauma-informed primary care went pretty well--folks were engaged and talkative. There was one jerk nay-sayer who was like "not everything is trauma, quit pathologizing normal life events" but the rest of the audience responded to him pretty vehemently before I even had to say anything.

Now on to management of persistent hyperglycemia in type II diabetes (a talk I'm really tempted to name "how 2 halp the beetus w/drugz").

Lemoncake · Apr 19, 2019 at 09:45 AM

My mother is trying to play match maker and sent me photos of a man her friend knows. He's 34 and has the same name as my brother?!

Doomed from the start right?

Lemoncake · Apr 19, 2019 at 09:48 AM

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Originally Posted by chihirochild

Presentation on trauma-informed primary care went pretty well--folks were engaged and talkative. There was one jerk nay-sayer who was like "not everything is trauma, quit pathologizing normal life events" but the rest of the audience responded to him pretty vehemently before I even had to say anything.

Now on to management of persistent hyperglycemia in type II diabetes (a talk I'm really tempted to name "how 2 halp the beetus w/drugz").

Do itttttttttt! *

*in your head only

Lemoncake · Apr 19, 2019 at 09:50 AM

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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker

my gp suggested i get more social and suggested doing art classes. I found one run by the local art society but i am not a total beginner but they do spend a lesson on pastels which i am eager to try and impasto which i havent been confident to do by myself. I wont know if there is spot for me til next week. i am so shy i am doubtful i will be able to make it. i have tried going to other social things but maybe being an activity will be different and the pressure to talk wont be so high like the coffee afternoons i tried earlier

I hope you try it.

It might be easier when there's an activity to focus on instead of having to make small talk. How about a reading/ walking group?

unaluna · Apr 19, 2019 at 10:25 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

My mother is trying to play match maker and sent me photos of a man her friend knows. He's 34 and has the same name as my brother?!
Doomed from the start right?

Thats creepy, right?

SlumberKitty · Apr 19, 2019 at 10:36 AM

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susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Apr 18, 2019 at 11:32 PM #43 Alas, the crisis was averted because the person acknowledged that I was not, in fact, being ridiculous as her previous reply to me had insinuated. I may still have to process this with the therapist tomorrow, which could be awkward given the topic. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold

susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Apr 19, 2019 at 12:56 AM #51 But really, joking aside, I feel more convinced than ever (as of 2 seconds ago) that her chair was not always where it is now. I am going to ask her tomorrow. The suspense is killing me. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold

Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	Apr 19, 2019 at 06:53 AM #53 Hi Lola!! I always miss you! Hugs and headnods all around.

Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	Apr 19, 2019 at 07:00 AM #54 And my full day in customer-facing chat begins.

Lemoncake Luna's offical mini me. Member Since May 2017 Location: Cafe Nervosa. Posts: 9,698 (SuperPoster!) 6 10.2k hugs given	Apr 19, 2019 at 09:45 AM #56 My mother is trying to play match maker and sent me photos of a man her friend knows. He's 34 and has the same name as my brother?! Doomed from the start right? __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing."

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