Dear T: I really need to tell you something XL

Jun 26, 2019 at 06:53 PM

Well I just about burst my boiler crying just then when I pulled my therapy bag out of the cupboard, just looking at it sent me over the edge I don't really want to l ok inside. It is at the back of the cupboard where hopefully I won't come across it again.

Omers · Jun 27, 2019 at 10:35 AM

I know that all you want from me/for me is to feel safe and relaxed in session. I’m sorry that is so hard.

Jun 27, 2019 at 10:38 AM

You may want to put out an extra box of Kleenex before I get there today. Just sayin'.

SheHulk07 · Jun 27, 2019 at 10:52 AM

I am not okay today. See you in a few.

susannahsays · Jun 27, 2019 at 01:33 PM

It's not a coincidence she's doing that. Not some sort of oversight. I don't understand people. I feel like an alien.

Lrad123 · Jun 27, 2019 at 02:40 PM

I’m not cut out for therapy. I can’t leave your office each week wondering if I should take a break from therapy. I’m dealing with this by myself and no one understands including you.

susannahsays · Jun 27, 2019 at 04:06 PM

Really don't know why I even bother. Just asking for it, right? I shouldn't be upset over something so petty, so why am I?

88Butterfly88 · Jun 27, 2019 at 04:51 PM

Treble Clef,

I wasn't too impressed with you today, it just seemed like you were rambling endlessly about pointless analogies. Also wish you would have given me some notice about you going on vacation, I will have to wait 12 days to see you instead of 7. A heads up beforehand would have been nice instead of just mentioning at the end of the session that you will be away.

-Butterfly

Elio · Jun 27, 2019 at 08:39 PM

That was not what I was expecting. Right now it doesn't feel like it will be helpful. Clearly today I needed more. I don't blame you. Just... why does it have to be the weekend

kaleidoscopeheart · Jun 27, 2019 at 09:03 PM

I Told you I didn’t need a response but I think I lied. Please reply to my email. Things are hard lately and I need to know that someone out there cares.

Jun 27, 2019 at 10:04 PM

I am out of my tree, driving around town looking for you I haven't done that for a few years.

Spirit of Trees · Jun 27, 2019 at 10:40 PM

I suck at doing rewarding things for myself. I just felt so undeserving of anything good yesterday.

Jun 28, 2019 at 01:58 AM

Thanks for today. Mostly for really hearing me. And for not sounding the least bit judging or whatever but only matter of fact when you agreed with me about the blame thing. I kinda wish you weren't on vacation next week. I'm going to really work on that thing we talked about with h. The 3 times thing. I think it will be helpful.

I wish I had remembered what my question was about complexes, darn it.

I'm glad I came back for the summer.

Jun 28, 2019 at 02:04 AM

Also I know it makes sense I'm not remembering dreams while I'm in this super creative process with my poems. But I miss them.

kaleidoscopeheart · Jun 28, 2019 at 10:31 AM

I still wish you would email me back. *sigh* I am so stupid sometimes.

Echos Myron redux · Jun 28, 2019 at 12:44 PM

How would you feel if I said I wanted to go 2x per week for a while?

LonesomeTonight · Jun 28, 2019 at 05:17 PM

Dear T,
Sorry. SORRY. sorry.
Love,

LT

susannahsays · Jun 28, 2019 at 08:38 PM

I wonder how your mom is doing.

velcro003 · Jun 28, 2019 at 09:01 PM

T: Alcohol is the only thing calming my anxiety at night.

atisketatasket · Jun 28, 2019 at 09:55 PM

Dear No. 3,

It was two years ago yesterday that we had our real termination session. Quite a bit of it you spent encouraging me to try writing.

I did. And yesterday, two years later, my first story was published. Neat ring composition, huh?

I’m still mad and hurt and sad at and about you, though.

ATAT

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Anonymous42961 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 26, 2019 at 06:53 PM #921 Well I just about burst my boiler crying just then when I pulled my therapy bag out of the cupboard, just looking at it sent me over the edge I don't really want to l ok inside. It is at the back of the cupboard where hopefully I won't come across it again.

Omers Grand Magnate Member Since Nov 2010 Location: Crimson cattery Posts: 3,512 13 3,133 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 10:35 AM #922 I know that all you want from me/for me is to feel safe and relaxed in session. I’m sorry that is so hard. __________________ There’s been many a crooked path that has landed me here Tired, broken and wearing rags Wild eyed with fear -Blackmoores Night

Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 27, 2019 at 10:38 AM #923 You may want to put out an extra box of Kleenex before I get there today. Just sayin'.

SheHulk07 Magnate Member Since Oct 2013 Location: CO Posts: 2,305 10 871 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 10:52 AM #924 I am not okay today. See you in a few.

susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 01:33 PM #925 It's not a coincidence she's doing that. Not some sort of oversight. I don't understand people. I feel like an alien. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold

Lrad123 Poohbah Member Since Nov 2017 Location: United States Posts: 1,332 6 372 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 02:40 PM #926 I’m not cut out for therapy. I can’t leave your office each week wondering if I should take a break from therapy. I’m dealing with this by myself and no one understands including you.

susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 04:06 PM #927 Really don't know why I even bother. Just asking for it, right? I shouldn't be upset over something so petty, so why am I? __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold

Elio ............... Member Since Sep 2006 Location: in my head Posts: 2,911 17 8,779 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 08:39 PM #929 That was not what I was expecting. Right now it doesn't feel like it will be helpful. Clearly today I needed more. I don't blame you. Just... why does it have to be the weekend

kaleidoscopeheart Member Member Since Apr 2017 Location: Parts Unknown Posts: 333 7 77 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 09:03 PM #930 I Told you I didn’t need a response but I think I lied. Please reply to my email. Things are hard lately and I need to know that someone out there cares.

Anonymous42961 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 27, 2019 at 10:04 PM #931 I am out of my tree, driving around town looking for you I haven't done that for a few years.

Spirit of Trees Member Member Since May 2019 Location: Earth Posts: 189 4 111 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 10:40 PM #932 I suck at doing rewarding things for myself. I just felt so undeserving of anything good yesterday.

Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 28, 2019 at 02:04 AM #934 Also I know it makes sense I'm not remembering dreams while I'm in this super creative process with my poems. But I miss them.

kaleidoscopeheart Member Member Since Apr 2017 Location: Parts Unknown Posts: 333 7 77 hugs given	Jun 28, 2019 at 10:31 AM #935 I still wish you would email me back. sigh I am so stupid sometimes.

Echos Myron redux Magnate Member Since Apr 2018 Location: UK Posts: 2,160 6 1,833 hugs given	Jun 28, 2019 at 12:44 PM #936 How would you feel if I said I wanted to go 2x per week for a while?

LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,735 (SuperPoster!) 9 74.9k hugs given	Jun 28, 2019 at 05:17 PM #937 Dear T, Sorry. SORRY. sorry. Love, LT

susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Jun 28, 2019 at 08:38 PM #938 I wonder how your mom is doing. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold

velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,361 15 25 hugs given	Jun 28, 2019 at 09:01 PM #939 T: Alcohol is the only thing calming my anxiety at night.