[CartDown]

I'm really hoping I'm not the only one.

Does anybody here have OCD and fear they might be full of ****? That they really don't have problems and that they are wasting their therapist's time and feel like they need to come clean even though you're not sure what for? Like, in between sessions, when you're feeling happy you feel like a fake and think your problems never existed, you made them all up? You kinda wish your T finds something more wrong with you so got don't feel guilty being there?

I know it sounds nuttier than a snickers bar, but does this make sense to anyone else?

[SlumberKitty]

I can't say I've ever had that particular experience but I don't have OCD outright. I have some OCD traits but probably not enough for a diagnosis. At least, none of my providers have ever said I have OCD. I imagine that would be tough to feel that way. I do sometimes worry about wasting my T's time, but after all, I'm paying them, so if anything, I'm just wasting my time! I hope someone else has a better answer for you. HUGS Kit

[Skeezyks]

I've never been diagnosed as having OCD, although I certainly have some OCD-like tendencies. And I don't see a therapist either. But I can relate to the experience of feeling like your problems never existed. I've often thought to myself: "why do you say these things about yourself. You're just a normal everyday person." But then I think back over my history & there it is. I was never given a real diagnosis by any of the mental health professionals I saw over the years. And I've often wished I had one if, for no other reason, than to validate my lifetime of mental health struggles.

[Ashleypenwren]

Sorry you feel that way. When I stalled once I told my OCD t I was worried that I was taking time for other people who needed her. She said I'm making progress even by acknowledging the stall. Sometimes just being there is progress.

That being said I have OCD, with the diagnosis etc. It isn't in my group of obsessions/compulsions to worry that it's fake or not real. But my compulsions are straight up measurable and noticable to anyone who spends time with me. I struggle far more with the compulsions than obsessions. Maybe it's an obsessive thought of yours though? I have friends on the O side of OCD who have expressed that they worry no one believes them, or secretly thinks they are bad. That is tough! But if you have a t experienced with OCD they should be able to reassure you what is OCD and what is something else.

I do hope you have a therapist who specializes in OCD. That is extremely important because most therapists do not have enough training to sensitively and effectively treat OCD!!

[Anastasia~]

Yes, for quite awhile, and still sometimes, I tell my therapist that I feel like I am faking things. For me, it is because when I feel okay, I can't imagine that I actually feel as bad as I do some days. And when I feel really bad, it is hard for me to imagine feeling fine. Hope this helps.

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by CartDown

I'm really hoping I'm not the only one.

Does anybody here have OCD and fear they might be full of ****? That they really don't have problems and that they are wasting their therapist's time and feel like they need to come clean even though you're not sure what for? Like, in between sessions, when you're feeling happy you feel like a fake and think your problems never existed, you made them all up? You kinda wish your T finds something more wrong with you so got don't feel guilty being there?

I know it sounds nuttier than a snickers bar, but does this make sense to anyone else?

If you are faking it and making up symptoms, that's pretty weird and you should probably be in therapy!

But seriously - you don't need to meet a certain criteria or threshold to be in therapy. If you feel like you get something out of it and going is better for you than not going then go for it. You can choose to stop at any time too.

[Merope]

Yes I have this. I feel like I sometimes build up my problems or find new things that are “wrong” just so that I can be in therapy longer. And when I’m happy, I think I’m probably being a crybaby for being in therapy for minor things.

But then when the hard stuff hits, I feel like I couldn’t breathe without the safety net of therapy. And at the end of the day, I remind myself that I’m seeing a private therapist. I pay for my sessions in full, I don’t use any sort of insurance. So if I want to go to a session and talk about...idk....silly things, then it’s not like I’m wasting anyone’s money.

I do, however worry sometimes that he doesn’t believe me, or he thinks I’m making stuff up (I never have,). It’s a stupid mentality, but I feel like if I don’t build some stuff up, he won’t see me, or he’ll think that my problems are not that bad, or that I’m annoying, or wasting his time.

[Taylor27]

I worry allot that i am wasting time in therapy and that why don't i have it all together after all these years. I also remind myself that right now it's keeping myself alive and it might not be a forever thing. I just had to prove to my therapist who is retiring in 2 weeks to keep my file open. So yes i do still need therapy, sometimes my anxiety questions it. I struggle with this allot so fustrating. Hugs