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I'm sorry if that sounded rude but holy cow your situation sounds so fu*ked up.And sounds pretty scary to me that the psychologist is supposed to be a specialist

Dr.C is the one trying to pull the hocus pocus my regular T is gone on vaca now. So do I just tell Dr. C she sounds like a fool. Lol

I know Dr C is the one trying to pull the hocus pocus,I probably just worded it wrong.

I wouldn't tell her she sounds like a fool but I would definitely spend the entire time discussing all your concerns.

You can tell her what you wrote in this thread: that if these are alters (and you're not sure they are) they provide a defense against something, and you're not sure you're ready to mess with things without first understanding what that is and being ready to deal with it.

Ok, will do. I see her in the morning. I actually have discussed with her all three times thst I have seen her that I do not hear internal dialogue which she responds well you dont have to hear them they are parts of you. I also have told her all 3 times thst this could be other things besides DID which she said the alters have different perspectives. Yes one does. Then I have asked her about the perpetrator alter and then she goes off on things about Micheal Jackson. Everything is DID and everytime I try to explain to her not everything is DID or maybe not even at all she comes up with reasons it is. Some make sense some she cant possible know me enough to know those things.

Here's the thing Dnester. This therapist (Dr C) is committed to sticking with her original diagnosis of DID because pride would prevent her from going back on it. She said she remembers diagnosing you with DID 15 years ago (even though she doesn't remember anything else about you, or have your files to look back on) and she has publicly declared to you current T that she did in fact diagnose you with DID back then. So she has set that in stone. Human psychology tells us that when someone has publicly declared a belief it is incredibly difficult for them ever to retract that - in fact people will go to extraordinary lengths to defend the publicly stated belief, even when all rational evidence indicates the belief goes against the reality of a situation.

What that means is, this Dr C is going to stick with your diagnosis of DID NO MATTER WHAT. She will not be interested in hearing anything else, she will not entertain any ideas of anything different. and she will rationalize any contrary symptoms to queries you have to match her belief. This is a real psychological thing. This is what human beings do. And from all you have said about this Dr C, that is exactly what she doing.

If you do actually have DID it should be fine (even though that is also questionable as well, given what you have said she wants to do).

If you DON'T actually have DID - and to be honest the symptoms you describe do not fit a typical DID presentation at all - then this T will have zero interest in exploring that.

I like what BettyBanana suggested - go in and talk to her, list all your concerns., get real answers, and don't give up until you have them .You are too important for her to push her on agenda on you or make mistakes with you. The most important thing in that therapy room should be YOU.

So I told her I really think this chatter has something to do with my meds. She said that I was in the acceptance/denial phase and that can happen all through therapy. I asked her about the splitting in BPD versus the alters. She explained that splitting in BPD is like a baseball player getting bad scores he cant accept anything bad in himself so he shows his previous scores to people so he can see the good in himself and project the bad out. She said alters like I explain with Thorne she is out and her emotions I am aware but taking the back seat is co consciousness. We did some work on a possible sexual alter going in asking questions. Then she also said she recommended the fusing because it is a way to combine everyone without bringing the painful memory attached to it to the present.

I still dont know what to do. Stay with her or keep searching for somebody new. Got another no from someone who would have been great.

How did you feel about what she told you in session?

Somehow I didn't catch the part about UDD in your post before.Your therapist told you to accept the very likely diagnosis of UDD?When did that come about, did she say that just recently?Because you were saying OSDD at one time,then DID,so now it''s UDD?

Do you understand what UDD means? This is what I just read:

So,now I can't help but think maybe you should just stick it out with this person and go along with what they suggest.Who knows,maybe they know what they're doing afterall.Maybe they can actually help you.

I'm sure that doesn't help your confusion.But it sounds like maybe even your treatment providers are unsure themselves right now and that would be why UDD would make sense.

Alot made sense I didnt have time to talk to her about not fusing. She cut my time short to meet with her daughter. The BPD or alter explanation made sense. I also understand why she thinks I have a sexual alter now but I wont go into that. I did have a therapist I had in mine because we talked on the phone. She seemed informative, stable and caring but she doesnt accept my insurance, charges out of pocket and has a waiting list.

Dr.C said DDNOS on the phone before I started seeing her again. I asked her today what my diagnosis was and she said she put adjustment disorder because I live in the group home for insurance purposes. I asked to make sure she wasnt putting me under PTSD because my insurance doesnt accept that. She said she doesnt want to delve any deeper into telling my diagnosis right now. My t on vaca labeled me as possible UDD. When I told her I didnt believe I had any alters she said accept it as a strong possibility and why was I refusing help with something that could be resolved. So I dont have a solid answer right now.

I thought you were actually going to discuss things with her not just go in and try to prove her wrong.It sounds like it didn't go well and wasn't very helpful at all.

Thanks for explaining.That's good she doesn't want to delve deeper until she's sure what your diagnosis is.So maybe working with her will help with that.Maybe fusion will work since they're not saying DID.Maybe it's worth a try,maybe they're more like different parts that aren't the dissociative type.Or different types of alters or something. Having alters doesn't equal DID and it sounds like that's what your treatment providers are trying to figure out?

IDK,I am super confused by all of this.

I am confused too. She has said they are dissociative alters but I am not like her clients that have surgery and dont even remember. She has called it low spectrum DID. I dont even know anymore.

IDK,maybe just go with what she says,follow her suggestions and her treatment.

I was thinking she's a quack and you need to get away from her but you don't have an official diagnosis yet.It sounds like they're trying to figure things out and help you.Accept the help.

What if she does more harm than good?

Wait, she cut your session short to meet with her daughter? How short? Did she actually meet you for less than the scheduled time? If so, that's not right...I mean, maybe it you agreed to it beforehand (like if she said, "you can still come to session, but I'll need to leave 5 minutes early," maybe).

She cut it short without my approval. Her reviews say she is famous for that. She was also late for the appt. 10 min late. Left 10 min early.

Ugh, that's no good. So you lost 20 minutes from your session? Ex-MC used to be late all the time, but with one exception, he always made up the time at the end (which then made him late for his next client...)