Couch 196: Cinnamon Swirls

I don't know if it is the SH or the xanax but I am definitely feeling less anxious. Not that I am promoting SH as a good way to deal with things, just sometimes things happen. My goal is to not get into a big vicious cycle with the SH right now and not let it go on for days and days. I feel like I'm not done yet, so I am trying to be gentle to myself if I do end up doing more. I remember former T would sometimes tell me to slow down when I was in an SH cycle. Boy do I miss her. Current T talked to me about SUI and if I am feeling that way, she wants me to talk to her first before I do anything like make an attempt. She said to call the office or the answering service and give them my name and number. The office will likely say she is booked for 3 and a half weeks, but if it is a crises she will see me on her lunch or after hours. She said she would make it work. That's good. I am having some SUI thoughts but they're just thoughts. I'm 100% sure I'm not going to act on them, but at least I know there's another avenue besides going to the ER if I get stuck in that thought mode and become not sure if I'll be safe. I wish I could lay down and take a nap but I have work and then PDOC tonight. I think the xanax made me sleepy. HUGS Kit

I've watched them all.

I started with the books, years ago. GRR Martin seriously needed an editor. I found them a frustrating read because it was nearly impossible to figure out which character and/or events were important (not actually all that many) and which ones (2,333,342 of them LOL) were not.

When the HBO series started, I watched and actually really like the series because they were wise and simplified Martin's mess a bit. It's been well acted, albeit rather overly violent/sexual at times, but I've found now I can reread the books and make more sense of them because of the decent job the show writers did, particularly in the first 3-4 seasons. I have a good visual (the expanse is much larger than I originally visualized . . . I had a similar reaction to LoTR movies vs. books).

The television writers didn't have a completed book series, so these last few seasons started diverting from the last books, and of course, we have no idea how close, particularly, the last several seasons are to Martin's vision, since he hasn't actually written those books yet.

I was okay with how they ended the televised series. It makes sense if you consider it from a literary/archetypal/structural viewpoint and aren't just watching because you like the sex/violence, etc. The English department is full of GoT readers and viewers, so we've enjoyed the debates about this last season. It's been fun -- no therapy needed. LOL.

The air conditioner guys are coming today or this week, so i got the place straightened up for them. The pool is open, but it is barely 50 degrees F out there today! Thats practically freezing!

But it makes the apartment nice and breezy and cool so i am cleaning up. It feels like i am catching up to time, like its not running over me so fast anymore. Here it is only Monday and i am already feeling caught up on chores. Of course, its because im so far behind, i lapped myself! I just threw out my Medicare book from 2016.

I got up to book 4- but mainly listened to the audiobooks version at the gym or whilst studying. I gave up on the first LOTR book.

I've seen the HBO Chernobyl trailer. That gets added to my list.

I got up to book 4- but mainly listened to the audiobooks version at the gym or whilst studying. I gave up on the first LOTR book.

You have a pool- hey big spender spend a little time with me?!

Unnnnnnnnna I'm from the school of thought that says stuff gets done when it gets done, not a minute sooner or later. You got it done that's what matters.

Thank you sweetie but i am running out of minutes!!

Must remember not use sarcasm or humour of any kind in intake interview.

This would be a deal breaker for me. A spouse who forced me out of my home, who disregarded my financial security, who shows signs that he will never attempt to change his approach, thus leaving my future uncertain, stressful, and relationally isolated, is a spouse I would have to get away from. Errors, mistakes, hard times are one thing, but this is of his own making and he fully intends to continue this way. I just couldn't live that way.

I think it's technically his money. Altho i agree with you, i couldnt live that way either.

Avoid sarcasm, yes, but I don't see humour as a problem. Better than surly cynicism, anyway!

If one is married, it's always our money. A spouse who doesn't respect that is a thief.

Thank you sweetie but i am running out of minutes!!