Couch 196: Cinnamon Swirls

Lemoncake · May 23, 2019 at 09:34 AM

I wasn't feeling well this morning, but I still went to my hair appointment at the fancy smanchy place. I sat down on his sofa whilst he finished with someone else as I was 10 mins early and I began to cry right there like a loony.

The stylist was nice though and he made me feel like I was pretty . He dyed my black hair to brown.

This is me now:

https://i.imgur.com/VqvCwVX.jpg

But do I see R tomorrow?

I have my exam tuedsay and I'm already so messed up in the head. I don't know if I'm make the right choice. I want space.

ScarletPimpernel · May 23, 2019 at 09:45 AM

Can people please send me positive thoughts today? It's moving day. I'm so tired and stressed. And depressed. I loved this house. And I loved my baby's room. Just a sad day.

MobiusPsyche · May 23, 2019 at 09:50 AM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

Can people please send me positive thoughts today? It's moving day. I'm so tired and stressed. And depressed. I loved this house. And I loved my baby's room. Just a sad day.

Hoping your move goes as smoothly as possible. Just remember it's a very stressful day even if one WANTS to move so don't be down on yourself if the upset feelings leak out.

Lemoncake · May 23, 2019 at 09:51 AM

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Originally Posted by Louella

Does how your t sits matter to you? I sit with my legs crossed I think out of habit. I have noticed that my t changes position during session to sit with his leg crossed so one leg is resting on his knee/thigh. I read this can be a sign of competitiveness and dominance and I don’t understand if that’s the case why he’s sitting in that position unless I’m saying something that he’s at odds with or something. Or maybe he’s just trying to mirror me? I don’t know but it has been bugging me and next time I plan to try and remember what we’re talking about when he does it so I can see if it might be related to what we’re talking about. What are your thoughts? Does how your t sits matter to you?

I notice when he moves around but i think it would only bug me if he moved closer.

LonesomeTonight · May 23, 2019 at 09:53 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I wasn't feeling well this morning, but I still went to my hair appointment at the fancy smanchy place. I sat down on his sofa whilst he finished with someone else as I was 10 mins early and I began to cry right there like a loony.

The stylist was nice though and he made me feel like I was pretty . He dyed my black hair to brown.

This is me now:

https://i.imgur.com/VqvCwVX.jpg

But do I see R tomorrow?

I have my exam tuedsay and I'm already so messed up in the head. I don't know if I'm make the right choice. I want space.

Your hair looks pretty! Not sure what to say about seeing R...maybe space will help?

Lemoncake · May 23, 2019 at 09:53 AM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

Can people please send me positive thoughts today? It's moving day. I'm so tired and stressed. And depressed. I loved this house. And I loved my baby's room. Just a sad day.

LonesomeTonight · May 23, 2019 at 09:54 AM

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Originally Posted by MobiusPsyche

Hoping your move goes as smoothly as possible. Just remember it's a very stressful day even if one WANTS to move so don't be down on yourself if the upset feelings leak out.

Hugs, Scarlet--I second all of this. Hope your H is understanding if you do become emotional.

unaluna · May 23, 2019 at 10:08 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

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The stylist was nice though and he made me feel like I was pretty . He dyed my black hair to brown.
This is me now:
But do I see R tomorrow?
I have my exam tuedsay and I'm already so messed up in the head. I don't know if I'm make the right choice. I want space.

Gorgeous! I even had that same sweater in high school! Now you really are my mini-me! Stress and all, unfortunately.

Lemoncake · May 23, 2019 at 10:10 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Your hair looks pretty! Not sure what to say about seeing R...maybe space will help?

Thank you LT.

I don't know what I want even the idea of a session missed fills me with dread, yet I don't feel ready to see him.

LostOnTheTrail · May 23, 2019 at 10:11 AM

Your hair looks beautiful @Lemoncake

If you feel like having a session tomorrow would negatively impact you on Tuesday, then you are making the right choice.

Lemoncake · May 23, 2019 at 10:14 AM

Awww thanks for all the love guys.

Lemoncake · May 23, 2019 at 10:35 AM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Gorgeous! I even had that same sweater in high school! Now you really are my mini-me! Stress and all, unfortunately.

My extensive Dark viewing has taught me the future also influences the past. No reason why me and you can't be the same person and exist at the same time. ( just like Ambassador spock I've got you to guide me)

P.s My jumper is from H&M!

atisketatasket · May 23, 2019 at 10:57 AM

Last night I dreamt my university started paying salaries in gold bars. But they were actually gold foil wrapped chocolate.

NP_Complete · May 23, 2019 at 11:21 AM

I like your hair @Lemoncake. I'm glad you did something nice for yourself.

Personally, I would show up to see R, but I've never cancelled before even when I was so anxious about showing up and being seen or when I'm feeling distant from him. But he's never sat in silence when I wanted him to talk either. I hope if you show up you get some resolution and comfort from it.

Jersey 4 · May 23, 2019 at 11:41 AM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Last night I dreamt my university started paying salaries in gold bars. But they were actually gold foil wrapped chocolate.

Well...that’s not helpful. Or an incentive to stay. Were you hungry when you went to sleep? Craving anything? I’m not good with dream stuff.
Art?

SlumberKitty · May 23, 2019 at 11:43 AM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

Can people please send me positive thoughts today? It's moving day. I'm so tired and stressed. And depressed. I loved this house. And I loved my baby's room. Just a sad day.

I hope today goes well for you Scarlet, but I can understand being sad/depressed. I hope you make lots of new good memories in your new place. HUGS Kit

SlumberKitty · May 23, 2019 at 11:44 AM

@Lemoncake, your hair is gorgeous!

Jersey 4 · May 23, 2019 at 11:46 AM

I woke up this morning a little less paranoid about DOD background check. I have no idea why I was acting like these people were going to interview my relatives, neighbors, and have the FBI come pound on my door.

That’s my brain for ya.

SlumberKitty · May 23, 2019 at 11:47 AM

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Originally Posted by Jersey 4

I woke up this morning a little less paranoid about DOD background check. I have no idea why I was acting like these people were going to interview my relatives, neighbors, and have the FBI come pound on my door.

That’s my brain for ya.

My brain probably would have gone in the same direction! HUGS hope you are less stressed today and good luck on the interview. You're going to do great! Any family would be lucky to have you as their nanny! HUGS Kit

SlumberKitty · May 23, 2019 at 11:49 AM

Hi Couchies, I went to the ER last night, but got discharged obviously. That's kind of why I hate going because it seems like I just pay a lot of money to get assessed and then sent home. There's no real help involved. But I went and kept myself safe. Maybe T will be more helpful on Saturday. HUGS Kit

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ScarletPimpernel Wise Elder Member Since Nov 2013 Location: US Posts: 8,408 (SuperPoster!) 10 6,414 hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 09:45 AM #702 Can people please send me positive thoughts today? It's moving day. I'm so tired and stressed. And depressed. I loved this house. And I loved my baby's room. Just a sad day. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica

Lemoncake Luna's offical mini me. Member Since May 2017 Location: Cafe Nervosa. Posts: 9,697 (SuperPoster!) 6 10.2k hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 10:14 AM #711 Awww thanks for all the love guys. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing."

atisketatasket Child of a lesser god Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Tartarus Posts: 19,148 (SuperPoster!) 8 12.4k hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 10:57 AM #713 Last night I dreamt my university started paying salaries in gold bars. But they were actually gold foil wrapped chocolate.

SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 11:44 AM #717 @Lemoncake, your hair is gorgeous! __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA

Jersey 4 Poohbah Member Since Feb 2019 Location: NJ Posts: 1,162 5 1,170 hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 11:46 AM #718 I woke up this morning a little less paranoid about DOD background check. I have no idea why I was acting like these people were going to interview my relatives, neighbors, and have the FBI come pound on my door. That’s my brain for ya.

SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 11:49 AM #720 Hi Couchies, I went to the ER last night, but got discharged obviously. That's kind of why I hate going because it seems like I just pay a lot of money to get assessed and then sent home. There's no real help involved. But I went and kept myself safe. Maybe T will be more helpful on Saturday. HUGS Kit __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA