Couch 196: Cinnamon Swirls

Lemoncake · 02:51 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Well at least now one of us is happy with your paycheck!

See food diet going well!

I have a spare snickers bar on my table. Room 1901 .

Lemoncake · May 23, 2019 at 02:47 PM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Good session today, though a bit intense at times. T used an extended Lego metaphor to talk about attachment that really resonated with me. Like a base for building Lego structures. How those with secure attachment have more of the little bumps to build on. And early attachments/other attachments in life for them build a strong foundation. So then future buildings are more secure. Whereas for people like me, with anxious/insecure attachment, we don't have that same strong foundation. Might be fewer bumps to build on. Buildings are more unsteady and teetering. And he said that in the case of ex-MC for me, it was like the existing buildings were a bunch of shacks. And ex-MC was building a big church, so lots riding on it. He elaborated on it a bit more, too. But it seemed to make a lot of sense. (He said before he shared it that he works with a lot of kids/teens, hence the Lego comparison, but it fit.)

I love the lego talk. It makes so much sense. You can't build a house and expect it to stand when the foundations are shaky.

Lemoncake · May 23, 2019 at 02:58 PM

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Originally Posted by NP_Complete

I like your hair @Lemoncake. I'm glad you did something nice for yourself.

Personally, I would show up to see R, but I've never cancelled before even when I was so anxious about showing up and being seen or when I'm feeling distant from him. But he's never sat in silence when I wanted him to talk either. I hope if you show up you get some resolution and comfort from it.

Thank you NP.

I just don't feel like I can go going back right now.

Lemoncake · May 23, 2019 at 03:05 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Hi Couchies, I went to the ER last night, but got discharged obviously. That's kind of why I hate going because it seems like I just pay a lot of money to get assessed and then sent home. There's no real help involved. But I went and kept myself safe. Maybe T will be more helpful on Saturday. HUGS Kit

In the UK we have one charity that lets you stay with them free of charge when you're feeling suicidal for a few days. Do you have anything similar in the US? Can you ask a friend/family if you can stay over?

SheHulk07 · May 23, 2019 at 03:20 PM

I like your hair @Lemoncake. I dyed the underneath part of mine purple last week but it's barely noticeable.

My home health nurse is one her way over here to do wound care on the spot that got infected last month. I told T that I wanted to avoid her call today about coming over, but he said he doesn't think that will look good to anyone

Possible trigger:

I made a new spot last night when I was upset on my stomach, so I'm hoping she doesn't notice it when she's looking at the other wound. I have a bandaid over it now.

StressedMess · May 23, 2019 at 03:29 PM

Lemon your hair looks awesome and holy wow you're beautiful!!

StressedMess · May 23, 2019 at 03:30 PM

Hugs and head-nods all around. It's just too hot to function. I'm splayed out like a starfish in front of the air conditioner, and not inclined to change any time soon. Hopefully you all have more moderate weather. Have a good night!

SlumberKitty · May 23, 2019 at 03:49 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

In the UK we have one charity that lets you stay with them free of charge when you're feeling suicidal for a few days. Do you have anything similar in the US? Can you ask a friend/family if you can stay over?

Thanks Lemoncake, I stay with my parents most of the time, but that's not a guarantee because the time that I attempted, I was at my parents house, and they were home. There is a clinic but it's not free, but you can stay for 23 hours. I'm not a huge fan of the place though (they usually do my psych evals at the hospital and the clinicians seem like giant jerks). I just have to get through this and trust all will be well. HUGS Kit

WarmFuzzySocks · May 23, 2019 at 04:29 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Last night I dreamt my university started paying salaries in gold bars. But they were actually gold foil wrapped chocolate.

Something more immediately satisfying but with less substance and value?

WarmFuzzySocks · May 23, 2019 at 04:30 PM

Lemon, your hair is purty and you are adorable.

May 23, 2019 at 04:37 PM

My art class was **** I got to take the painting in to work on and what I wanted was some constructive criticism and I did have reference photos but to me a reference photo is just that, a reference I didn't want to copy the photo entirely. She was going on about the ship that I had sketched in how it wasn't the same. I kept on saying I wanted help with painting waves in the end I painted over the stupid sea to make it darker. I only had the reference photo on my phone and couldn't enlarge it. Then she kept telling me things I already know. I could have worked all that out on my own. I am not going for the last 2 classes. I feel like I am not communicating what I want very well. Maybe it was a misunderstanding on exT part but I have feeling it partly wasnt
She kept saying if she could see the pic better she could help me. I just wanted the techniques for painting waves also the lighting was pretty ****

May 23, 2019 at 04:39 PM

Lemon cake your hair looks lovely

NP_Complete · May 23, 2019 at 04:45 PM

Totally overwhelmed after today's session. I went back to work, but I'm crying at my desk. I should've gone for tater tots instead.

SlumberKitty · May 23, 2019 at 05:14 PM

So sorry @NP_Complete HUGS Kit

ScarletPimpernel · May 23, 2019 at 06:14 PM

Moving people are almost finished. H is with my dad retrieving the husky. H finally found a home for him. There are SO many boxes. The apartment is full to capacity. I'm overwhelmed. I'm sure I can get it organized with time...if H doesn't bug me. But so far so good.

May 23, 2019 at 07:01 PM

Finished!

WarmFuzzySocks · May 23, 2019 at 07:12 PM

I had a therapy session today, and I am restless and can't settle. Thank goodness for routines. I am cooking tonight: Pulled pork and apple sandwiches with homemade bbq sauce and lime-pineapple slaw. Lots to chop, and I started another batch of homemade mustard.

Ugh. I feel horribly restless. If I get done chopping and need more busy-ness, there's beans and sunflowers to plant in the garden.

LonesomeTonight · May 23, 2019 at 07:23 PM

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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

Moving people are almost finished. H is with my dad retrieving the husky. H finally found a home for him. There are SO many boxes. The apartment is full to capacity. I'm overwhelmed. I'm sure I can get it organized with time...if H doesn't bug me. But so far so good.

Hugs, I'm glad you found a home for the husky. No rush to organize it all at once.

LonesomeTonight · May 23, 2019 at 07:26 PM

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Originally Posted by WarmFuzzySocks

I had a therapy session today, and I am restless and can't settle. Thank goodness for routines. I am cooking tonight: Pulled pork and apple sandwiches with homemade bbq sauce and lime-pineapple slaw. Lots to chop, and I started another batch of homemade mustard.

Ugh. I feel horribly restless. If I get done chopping and need more busy-ness, there's beans and sunflowers to plant in the garden.

Hugs, I find that cooking tends to calm me, too. Lime-pineapple slaw sounds amazing! (I'm sure the rest is great, too, but I'm vegetarian). I get the restlessness. I had an intense session today as well. It's hard to figure out where to put all the feelings, how to process them.

May 23, 2019 at 07:41 PM

Hugs all around to those who want.

While visit with mom is going well, h is back to being a condescending *** to me. Now he's in there taking his temperature likely trying to get out of going to son's graduation this evening so he can watch tv instead. Remind me again why I didn't get out in Feb when I had a golden opportunity?!

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StressedMess Grand Magnate Member Since Jul 2014 Location: Usa Posts: 3,068 9 589 hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 03:29 PM #746 Lemon your hair looks awesome and holy wow you're beautiful!!

StressedMess Grand Magnate Member Since Jul 2014 Location: Usa Posts: 3,068 9 589 hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 03:30 PM #747 Hugs and head-nods all around. It's just too hot to function. I'm splayed out like a starfish in front of the air conditioner, and not inclined to change any time soon. Hopefully you all have more moderate weather. Have a good night!

WarmFuzzySocks Magnet Member Since Jun 2017 Location: in the garden Posts: 2,307 6 15.5k hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 04:30 PM #750 Lemon, your hair is purty and you are adorable. __________________ Since you cannot do good to all, you are to pay special attention to those who, by accidents of time, or place, or circumstance, are brought into closer connection with you. (St. Augustine)

Anonymous42961 Guest Posts: n/a	May 23, 2019 at 04:39 PM #752 Lemon cake your hair looks lovely

NP_Complete Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2017 Location: the upside down Posts: 3,807 7 6,349 hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 04:45 PM #753 Totally overwhelmed after today's session. I went back to work, but I'm crying at my desk. I should've gone for tater tots instead.

SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 05:14 PM #754 So sorry @NP_Complete HUGS Kit __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA

ScarletPimpernel Wise Elder Member Since Nov 2013 Location: US Posts: 8,407 (SuperPoster!) 10 6,402 hugs given	May 23, 2019 at 06:14 PM #755 Moving people are almost finished. H is with my dad retrieving the husky. H finally found a home for him. There are SO many boxes. The apartment is full to capacity. I'm overwhelmed. I'm sure I can get it organized with time...if H doesn't bug me. But so far so good. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica

Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	May 23, 2019 at 07:01 PM #756 Finished!

Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	May 23, 2019 at 07:41 PM #760 Hugs all around to those who want. While visit with mom is going well, h is back to being a condescending *** to me. Now he's in there taking his temperature likely trying to get out of going to son's graduation this evening so he can watch tv instead. Remind me again why I didn't get out in Feb when I had a golden opportunity?!