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#21
I have been fortunate to only find warm hearted and kind therapists.
I don't need the tough approach because I am tough enough on myself. Anyways, I think it is important to like your therapist and be comfortable with them. Turn this negative into a Positive! Good Luck |
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This issue is more complicated than it looks. We cant constantly change therapists tho I have that temptation myself. It’s vitally important to have a therapist that really knows you.
I dont agree with the philosophy that therapists are never wrong. I am pretty high functioning, have 3 degrees, worked my whole life, tho I actually space out when I’m having serious stress and then episodes. I have more stress now because I handle my ex’s serious medical issues, but I am not doing well in retirement without the structure and validation of work. My therapist here has never seen me work and seems to have little confidence that I can or should do that. Years ago, an excellent pdoc said “you wouldnt do well without work”. He was so right. If she just thinks I am under too much stress already, she should say that rather than making me feel inadequate. Maybe this woman is trying to get you to understand that you haveimportant work to do rather than risking a higher level of transference (you mistaking the relationship for a friendship)by acting more friendly with you. As I recall, you do seem to want your therapist to be your friend. Sometimes my T and I joke around a lot and sometimes we dont, so I dont know when I do better. My suggestion is to focus more on working on your issues than wanting her to be super friendly with you. If things continue to feel super uncomfortable then you can change, tho it sounds like changing is more difficult in your country. __________________ Bipolar 2 with anxious distress mixed states & rapid cycling under severe stress tegretol 200 mg wellbutrin 75 mg, cut in half or higher dose as needed Regular aerobic exercise SKILLSET/KNOWLEDGE BASE: Family Medical Advocate Masters in Library Science Multiple Subject Teaching Credential-15 yrs in public schools |
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#23
Maybe "a good therapeutic relationship" you keep mentioning is something else and more than just changing pleasantries. Can you think that a good therapeutic relationship might be a relationship where the T is reliable and focused on your improvement in a constant way and seeing if that is the case and trust it takes a while to build?
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It's kind of like- I prefer oatmeal with walnuts, banana, and a bit of honey, but if I'm hungry, I may have to eat plain oatmeal if that's all I have. Sarah, you trusted this T to tell her things you did not like about her approach. Could you settle with making the best of what she can offer? |
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Sarah, even if she acted more warmly and adjusted to your wishes to make you feel more welcome, I'm sure you'd find the next thing which in your opinion is "wrong" with her and which prevents you from actually working with her.
Also, your former therapist was pretty accomodating to your wishes, if I remember correctly. And yet she didn't really help you to make sustainable progress in your life, or did she? She just made you feel "good" which only lasted for the actual session, if at all. But it didn't have any longlastig effect in terms of helping you to make changes and to tackle your problems. So why not give it a go with this therapist, even if it seems rather difficult? More of what you already had isn't very likely to work in order to help you solve your problems, in my opinion. So why not try and see if she does in fact have something good and useful to offer to you, even if her style is different from what you're expecting? Best wishes, c_r |
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#26
"I see through that kind of actions and I just ignore her back by leaving her room without saying goodbye nor looking at her. She said 'goodbye' when I walked towards her door and I then replied but she for sure noticed my reaction."
"I let my tears run over my cheeks and it was very visible to her. Even if I had begun to cry a lot I had let my tears fall on my shirt or trousers or such just to demonstrate the dumbness in not offering a Kleenex. Yesterday I left with tears on my face and that doesn't bother me so much but it felt good to show her I rather leave that way than taking a Kleenex from her 'hidden' Kleenex box." Just seems like there is a lot of game playing on your part. THAT would be interesting discussion and exploration with your therapist. Why do you go into passive-aggressive mode when you don't get what you want? That's a history thing which is probably what she's pointing out to you. Your need for these niceties (and your focus on them) comes from somewhere. It is about you which is why you are in therapy. That isn't blaming you, but rather, it is pointing out that your focus on these things like a kleenex box or a greeting are really pointing to a larger issue. The "things" - the kleenex and the greeting - are minutiae themselves. It is the underlying reason these things become such BIG things to you that needs to be explored because if you go back and read your posts, you inevitably get bogged down in detail about the other person. This therapist may be saying it's time to focus on the detail about yourself so that you can understand why you still are feeling good about things and why you have the difficulties you experience in your current life. |
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#27
Every therapist is probably going to do something you don't like at some point, they are just people—I like my T but there are things he does that annoy me. I think the challenge for you here is to get past her problems and find a way to do your work. You don't get to choose your therapist, and it sounds like she's far from your idea of perfect. But you don't need a perfect car to get to your destination, just one that runs. So maybe if you can focus on the problems that brought you to therapy, you can make progress anyway.
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I've achieved some goals by determining them, breaking them down into steps,deciding additional tools and knowledge I needed and reverse engineering traits in people I felt effective. Quote:
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#30
It’s hard to say if this therapist is a good fit for you or not, but I’m not sure I’d discount them because they make you feel uncomfortable. I think there are therapists who are more about offering support and comfort and others who are about helping you see yourself in a new way which might be uncomfortable at first, but ultimately better for personal growth. I thought my T was cold and not very useful for a while, but I’ve learned over time that he can actually be quite warm and caring, but he expresses it in ways that I didn’t expect and couldn’t see in the moment.
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#31
The elephant in the room is the indignity of a mechanical, paid relationship. I'd look there first for perspective on why it feels unpleasant.
I went thru a lot of therapists trying to find that "special someone" who will make all the hurts go away and who would explain me to me. Pathetic and futile. If therapy makes you feel crappy, then maybe it's because therapy sucks. People in long term therapy are going to side with the therapist most of the time and these threads seem increasingly punishing. The therapist will be given benefit of the doubt and the client will be taken to task for getting it all wrong. |
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#32
Some of the things you've talked about feeling are "common courtesy" and you felt the T was rude or even hostile for not: saying hello, asking about your trip in, offering water, walking you to the door, shaking your hand.
I was also brought up with a more strict interpretation of common courtesy/polite behaviour than is common these days. However, I have found that leading by example will often elicit the response I want. It's fairly automatic for most people to respond if you say hello or goodbye. What would happen if you went in and were the one to initiate conversation ("hello, it's good to see you - how was your morning?")? She's not going to tell you about the details of her previous clients, but she might well say "my morning was alright, what about yours?" You want her to offer you water... next time, bring two bottles of water. Pull one out of your bag for yourself and offer her the other. At the end of the session, stand up, thank her for her time and offer your hand. She's unlikely to turn down a handshake or to be rude in response to a polite closing statement. I suspect you'll respond to these suggestions by saying it's not your responsibility - she's the professional, she's supposed to be welcoming you into her office and doing her best to build rapport. I would argue that one should always be polite, regardless of the position of power you're in. Additionally, since it is easy to influence this level of behavior in many people, if it is important to you why wouldn't you do it? Finally, there is a saying among therapists: don't work harder than the client. It sounds like you're upset because perhaps that's what this therapist is doing. She's not pushing herself to change her behaviours to make you comfortable and you're not pushing yourself to change your behaviours (trust her, accept her) to do the work that needs doing. |
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#33
You make some great points GeekyOne
...but sometimes we run into people with attitudes we cannot accept and adjust to. |
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However, the result is probably quite different than you imagine because the T has specifically said that they won't engage in small-talk. That means, the T's behaviour is not lack of common courtesy but deliberate - this is therapy, which is not a normal social situation and thus there's no need to engage in common courtesy because it just takes time away that could be otherwise spent to the patient. So, if the OP starts doing those things (which according to my interpretation would be just a next way to try to manipulate the T doing something, rather than focussing on herself) then the T would instead of reciprocating common courtesy draw OP's attention to why the she has the need to do those things when they are not necessary in this therapy situation. |
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#35
If you've been assigned to her because she is the only one with available slots - then do you have an option to stop seeing anyone until a different therapist becomes available? I'm not saying that will solve anything, since NHS therapy has its particular distinctive mentality - get them fixed fast or else shut them up. Probably another reason that she isn't going to be your mother or your best friend is that you don't have a million dollars to pay for that kind of attention.
Perhaps what people are saying is that if you don't have enough best friends (I don't) then you need to honestly think about your options. Perhaps you have very few options but we all have at least one step that we can take to move forward, and then the next step. If someone outside isn't doing it for you, then you need to find a way to do it yourself? One of the things that I did for myself was to follow something that was related to a twelve step program because I figured that my negative emotional states were something akin to addiction. That's not meant to be prescriptive but situational. It's just my experience over the years that the best therapy that my friends experienced was - mostly - very expensive and long term therapy relationships. The one exception to that was a friend who found a low fee therapist in Texas who had a regular job but saw clients at weekends. __________________ *"Fierce <-> Reality"* oh god I am struggling today, help me to remember how to stay connected and human! remember: the nut shell against human predators and my own fear! |
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Pretty sure diagnosing people like this violates either the letter of the law or spirit of the law here. So much for boundaries. Seems OP feels consistently mistreated by therapists and then comes here and gets more of the same. I guess every group needs a punching bag. |
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Also most therapists say the therapeutic alliance is the main thing. If the therapist acts like a sociopath, seems a poor foundation for a healthy relationship or alliance. |
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#38
The OP absolutely has the right to protest, which, I hope she is also doing. But that doesn't mean that the T has to submit to her. After all, the T's role is to help her to become more functional in her life and not exchange pleasantries.
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Further, I still think it would be unlikely the T would blatently ignore an outstretched hand at the end of session, or a friendly/casual "see you next week". This T is reportedly psychodynamic - not psychoanalytic (I could possibly see it happening if the T was an analyst). And... it seems it would be good to explore this. The OP could make a good faith effort to engage in exploring these topics - perhaps starting with the observation that it upset her that T didn't do these things, and maybe that has soured other relationships (or how it goes back to childhood, or whatever). That is one way to start building rapport with the T and eventually lead to a relationship where she could look at harder topics. It's not bad to start "small." I also still think that if the OP demonstrated the behaviour, and did some work with the T beyond petty power struggles, OP might feel more empowered and the T might modify her behaviour. Right now there is little incentive to do so. Unlike a private T, this T is in a public system and will have a new client to fill the slot fairly quickly if OP walks away. In that sense, OP has more to lose in the failure of this relationship and should modify her behaviour accordingly. |
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I think OP is doing best by just being the way they are, which in the current moment seems to mean acting out certain things she seems unable to talk about openly and honestly (like leaving without saying good bye and demonstratively not using a tissue). By doing all these things she is doing exactly what she's supposed to do in therapy. It's the job of the T (who actually seems to be psychoanalytic) to figure out how to use this material. |
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