Wish I Could Talk To My Previous Therapist Like We Used To

I am feeling very depressed right now. I just finished my time in community college and I am not sure if I will transfer to a 4-year school. I am also stuck in a terrible job that I hate and I don't know how to get out of. I am miserable. What hurts is that my previous therapist doesn't know everything about this. My previous therapist and I don't see each other anymore so I just send her bimonthly emails on how I am doing since that is ok with her.

The most recent email in April hurt making because I have not been doing much of anything. I wish I could tell her all my depressive feelings and pour most of those out in the email. It hurts hiding what is really going on with me. My emails tend to be general. They go like this: "I did this and did that. Then I did this and that is it." The emails are usually 3 lines long. I don't pour my feelings of sadness or say what's going because there isn't much point in doing that. She isn't my therapist anymore and we can't at length like we used to. I talk about all my struggles to my current therapist so that help. It just hurts hiding all my pain in these emails because my previous therapist is the most influential person in my life. At the end of each day, I think to myself "I wish you knew what is really going on."

I too email my former therapist, even though I have a current therapist. I email her about once a month, but I do go in depth in how I'm feeling, even though it isn't good. She always responds, not as quickly as when she was my T, but still she responds, and it is kind, caring, and compassionate. And it really helps. Maybe let yourself tell her what is really going on. HUGS Kit

Me, too. It’s also a nice confirmation that the caring was always real and I was never just a job to her.