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#41
Honestly, I think you're just feeling hypersensitive about this relationship because of what happened with your last T. I don't think you've done anything to worry about at all. If she got your phone message a day later, why didn't she return it? You're just trying to figure out what's going on and it seems totally reasonable to me.
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#43
I am so sorry you're having to go through this. Well I understand that your DBT therapist is having pregnancy issues, she is ethically bound to not abandon you. You left messages and it is ridiculous she hasn't called you back. I definitely don't think you are "too clingy". Your concern is valid. Perhaps you could use this time to practice radical acceptance and more DEAR MAN (I think your texts were skillful and in Wise Mind).
If Dr. A is already kind of being like this, I wonder if it might be good to look for other options. You have already had relational trauma from your first T terminating under ridiculous circumstances. I think you would need someone willing to really stick it out with you but that is just my opinion. I am sorry your DBT T has put you through this. My heart goes out to you. It sucks that this dx has such a stigma you live in fear of not being treated for it. I truly understand. |
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#44
Hugs I agree with what BizzyBee wrote. I hope things turn out for the best. To me she is still bound to be there for you, it's like she abandon you with her using her pregnancy as a way to get out of something she agreed to. She should of talked to you before about it if she was not going to be avalible to you and helped you find other supports. I don't think you are clingy unfortantly you have been hurt by the other t so it's understandable to feel that way. I like how you texted her it was very honest and very well worded. Hugs
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I really hope things work out with the new psychologist. She seems reliable, but I don’t know if I need to assume she’s judging me for my BPD tendencies. I respect professionals who know the behaviors of BPD and don’t feel like they can help because the behaviors are quite extreme and can be difficult to manage/help, but I do have an issue with psychologists not simply understanding the behaviors as ingrained coping strategies for the relational trauma the client has experienced and then judge the behavior as being character flaws, like selfish, manipulative, attention seeking, stalkerish, etc. It’s impossible to know what the psychologist thinks, but she has been responsive and didn’t charge me for the 1 hour conversation we had in her office. It was going to be an intake, but after she and I started talking, she realized I was already seeing DBT T and simply wanted to talk about how the transition needs to be smooth and why I want to switch. I think that was nice of her because I’ve seen psychologists in the past for intake and even though they decide right off the bat they can’t work with me, they still charge for the full intake fee |
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Hmm. Can things not be both coping strategies emerging from relational trauma and also be selfish, manipulative, attention seeking, etc.? A child who is raised being given everything they want by their parents will be spoiled and entitled even though that's not by their own doing. Yes, you might call the things you listed coping skills with BPD, but the gist of it is that they are ways to get needs met. For a spoiled child, throwing tantrums might be a way they find to get what they see as a need met. But being spoiled is still basically a character flaw, right? I guess what I'm trying to get at is that these things can be character flaws, but that doesn't mean that they are innate. And I would certainly hope that any psychologist would understand that, just as any person with common sense knows that a spoiled child is not an inherently bad child but the result of poor parenting.
I do not have BPD (as far as I know), but I do have some BPD traits, and the ones I do have tend to be a bit extreme. I can be very selfish, unbelievably manipulative, and yes, attention seeking. I can also be selfless, honest, and attentive to others when they need it. Nobody is just one thing. The therapist I see takes a nonjudgemental stance towards me as a person, but she does judge my individual actions - while also acknowledging her understanding of why I do the things I do. When I say she "judges," what I mean is that she unapologetically identifies something as wrong, says I am in the wrong for doing it, and doesn't pretend everything's coming up roses if I keep doing it. Doing otherwise would be colluding with me in my dysfunction. I kind of hate her at the moment, but... eh, she's not that bad, I guess. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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I can understand your anxiety given your recent experiences. I would highly recommend directly asking her how she views people with DBT traits. I am so glad she seemed open. I would just be leery of her insistence to speak with DBT T. I am so sorry it has been hard for you to find the support you deserve. Hopefully things will work out soon. Sending lots of support! |
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did you hear from her after your last text?
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I don't want to make you worry unduly. You see, I have had some bad experiences and may be projecting my concerns on your situation. Try and trust yourself. You seem to have a good head on your shoulders. |
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