Couch 198: All the Countries Couch

Art that's a great shot of Jupiter and the moons I originally looked at it on my phone in the car and the dust specks looked moons I was confused.

When we learned about the moons of Jupiter in Astronomy class, sadly why they were named what they were *(such as Ganymede) wasn't part of the chapter. Now I am curious.

When I look at the pic on my phone I can't see the moons at all... it's just so fascinating to me that I could see them through my camera lens, they are so incredibly far away, how big they must be! yet compared to giant Jupiter they are small. eta I just looked up the biggest one, Ganymede, the radius is over 1600 miles.

I think I am sitting here talking myself into taking the Astronomy 102 in the fall...

The Galilean moons are all named for Jupiter’s inability to keep it in his pants. They’re some of his sexual conquests.

I am going out to the somewhat mid- north -west to a ranch sort of thing later this summer with some friends and about half the people are all excited because looking at stars/the sky/whatever is up there is supposed to be a thing and the other half of us are like oh god we are going to get dragged out to stare at the sky - who is in charge of the liquor.

The next one would usually also be late.

I'd suggest seeing a gynecologist.

It might be fun, friends +liquor + food.

So dinner for two tonight?

I don't have any personal experience, but maybe there are other support forums on facebook or online? Are they explaining everything to you properly?

I didn't know this. Free edumacation!

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Do you get paid extra?

Yes of course. That is the "worth it" part of the equation. I don't know of anyone (and would hope there was no one) who would teach a summer school course for law students for free. That would be completely daft.

The case worker hasn't talked to me since he came out to do the home study and talk to my kids the first week of May. He said at that time that he might have to talk to my father as he lives with us but he'd let us know. That's the only thing that's been explained to me, besides the allegations of negligence based on how severe my self harm and mental illness is.
The prior times they've came out, they did the home study and that was it. Then I'd get a letter a few weeks later saying it was closed.

I've been looking online and I keep finding q&a things but nothing about what kind of information can they get. For instance the case worker wanted me to take a picture of my prescription and send it to him and he mentioned monitoring if I was taking it. But I don't know if they could do that, or if they know that the SH is still occurring.

I feel emotionally drained and I see my T this evening. Part of me doesn't want to go because I've cried every session for the last 2-3 weeks. I feel like a burden to him a lot lately, and maybe it would be better for both of us if I don't show up.

I'm sorry you're dealing with this. Maybe this is something you could ask your T about? He may have had some sort of involvement with social services/CPS (like if they interviewed him about a past client, for example) or had another client who did. Or he could know someone to refer you to for info. Or is it possible he could talk to them?


I'm not clear on how SH could endanger your kids though.

Have you ever felt like you annoyed your therapist?

I have only had a few sessions but the last one didn’t go so well. I initially went for anxiety but he now knows I have some trauma and asks each session about that but I’ve not been able to talk about it at all. I tried to even mention something last time and got myself tied in knots so he said I can tell you don’t want to go there and we moved back onto anxiety stuff.

Well I think my lack of talking (although I was trying but was feeling down and depressed) was maybe frustrating him. At one point he asked me what I was thinking in relation to something and I said I wasn’t thinking anything so he said well you weren’t asleep... would that be a bit off to you or am I just overthinking what he said? I was as frustrated as him as it felt like a wasted session and I do get his frustration as he probably did more talking than me but I find it so so hard. He also seemed surprised when I said that I was still as anxious as the first appt...

I have a selection of diary entries I was thinking about sharing next appt (they’re from 2/3 months ago now) but I don’t know if he’ll agree to that. I keep wondering if it’s stupid to even share them as I’m not sure if he will find the information in them useful or wonder what the point is of me reading them if he thinks it’s a waste of time. Also if I read it then can’t elaborate on a few of the things I mentioned in the entires I worry he’ll be annoyed/frustrated. Ugh. Gosh therapy is fun..

The caseworker reached out to my T last week, and sent him questions to answer. He's going to talk to them after he talked to me first. I'm guessing by the end of the week he'll talk to them.

I had a dream last night that I saw my therapist at a basketball game. At halftime, he walked by me and I ignored him but he came over to talk to me and while we were awkwardly chatting, he suddenly kissed me. Ugh. I don't need this. I wonder if this dream was instigated because I emailed him yesterday saying I was feeling overwhelmed with loss that morning and also that I was worried he was sick of me and he sent me a really lovely response.

I dreamt that my D and I put phones on the side of the road and rang them when people walked past and got them to do things in the end we got close to exTs house and targeted people in certain houses