Couch 198: All the Countries Couch

Jun 19, 2019 at 05:10 PM

I'm surprised as heck that I haven't dreamed about L lately.

Anastasia~ · Jun 19, 2019 at 05:38 PM

Why is it so difficult to go to a hospital when I have major depressive disorder and my meds. are no longer working. I waited for my Psychiatrist but she didn't call. Maybe tomorrow. In the meantime, I'm stuck with OCDish behavior, no brain syndrome where I can't follow a plot line, no desire to do sui, but not wanting to be here. I don't remember what motivation feels like.

Jun 19, 2019 at 06:55 PM

Just sent a friend request to my exT on fb just to see what happens as part of my campaign to bug him he has several fb profiles so I will systematically do all of them

atisketatasket · Jun 19, 2019 at 07:16 PM

I encountered Amazon’s Photo on Delivery for the first time today (delivery to my mom’s house). The Amazon help page told me to contact Customer Service to turn the feature off.

Contacting Amazon Customer Service to get something done? Yeah...

unaluna · Jun 19, 2019 at 07:30 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

I encountered Amazon’s Photo on Delivery for the first time today (delivery to my mom’s house). The Amazon help page told me to contact Customer Service to turn the feature off.

Contacting Amazon Customer Service to get something done? Yeah...

Its text. Its not bad. I think its a bot.

Eta - watching the movie Code 46. I love samantha morton soooooo much. And the music is great.

Jun 19, 2019 at 08:29 PM

I hate our local youth mental health service. They closed my D case because I had used the 10 free sessions form last year but I gave them a new referral for this year that someone overlooked. My D is struggling now and I don't want to go through the whole thing again.

Jun 19, 2019 at 08:30 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Its text. Its not bad. I think its a bot.

Eta - watching the movie Code 46. I love samantha morton soooooo much. And the music is great.

I remember my first encounter with a bot I didn't realise they existed and I could not work out why the person on the other end was so thick.

Jun 19, 2019 at 08:32 PM

I have picked up my new glasses and my other frames were bigger and it's hard to adjust. The prescription is better to I no longer need to take off my old bifocals to read

SheHulk07 · 10:05 PM

I'm irritated at H tonight, and so glad he went driving for the night.

Possible trigger:

I feel like a prostitute with him bargaining all these things for sex. Baseball game. Sex. Pink concert. Sex. Try guys. Sex. Magic men live. Sex. His new one tonight is that Backstreet boys will be here in August and he says he's going to buy me a ticket. For sex. I didn't ask to see them, even though I would love to. I told him no. I told him this is the very definition of a prostitute by offering a "payment" for sex. I'm tired. I'm frustrated. I'm angry. I'm angry at myself that I give in to this. I want to do fun things by myself for myself for a change. But he makes the money. He denies this is what he's doing but I feel like that's all he sees me for.

Omers · Jun 19, 2019 at 09:54 PM

I’m getting mad at T. I don’t like this feeling. I’m not usually like this. Thankfully H has a short day tomorrow so maybe I can sew and get the feelings turned down a bit.

Omers · Jun 19, 2019 at 09:56 PM

Oh! And I have a stove again.

unaluna · Jun 19, 2019 at 09:58 PM

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Originally Posted by Omers

I’m getting mad at T. I don’t like this feeling. I’m not usually like this. Thankfully H has a short day tomorrow so maybe I can sew and get the feelings turned down a bit.

i mostly just hand-sew, but boy i get started and i dont want to stop. Its soooo good.

atisketatasket · 10:21 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Its text. Its not bad. I think its a bot.

Eta - watching the movie Code 46. I love samantha morton soooooo much. And the music is great.

Well, whatever Benji (or whatever his name is) is said was: "You will not receive photos on your device from now on."

Do they think I was born yesterday? That's not the same at all as not taking pictures of my mother's front door and storing them in some vast hackable database in the cloud.

Lemoncake · Jun 19, 2019 at 11:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Louella

Have you ever felt like you annoyed your therapist?

I have only had a few sessions but the last one didn’t go so well. I initially went for anxiety but he now knows I have some trauma and asks each session about that but I’ve not been able to talk about it at all. I tried to even mention something last time and got myself tied in knots so he said I can tell you don’t want to go there and we moved back onto anxiety stuff.

Well I think my lack of talking (although I was trying but was feeling down and depressed) was maybe frustrating him. At one point he asked me what I was thinking in relation to something and I said I wasn’t thinking anything so he said well you weren’t asleep... would that be a bit off to you or am I just overthinking what he said? I was as frustrated as him as it felt like a wasted session and I do get his frustration as he probably did more talking than me but I find it so so hard.

Possible trigger:

The thing is I think if I don’t go things will just go downhill I keep feeling really down and suicidal on and off but gosh going is one of the hardest things ever.

He also seemed surprised when I said that I was still as anxious as the first appt...

I have a selection of diary entries I was thinking about sharing next appt (they’re from 2/3 months ago now) but I don’t know if he’ll agree to that. I keep wondering if it’s stupid to even share them as I’m not sure if he will find the information in them useful or wonder what the point is of me reading them if he thinks it’s a waste of time. Also if I read it then can’t elaborate on a few of the things I mentioned in the entires I worry he’ll be annoyed/frustrated. Ugh. Gosh therapy is fun..

Go at your own pace. If you've just started seeing him and are learning to trust him it might be too early to talk about your trauma. It can take months for some people others can talk about it others may start uicker but it's not a race.

I don't think it's stupid to share journal entries either and I have have done so too.

Lemoncake · Jun 19, 2019 at 11:28 PM

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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker

I hate our local youth mental health service. They closed my D case because I had used the 10 free sessions form last year but I gave them a new referral for this year that someone overlooked. My D is struggling now and I don't want to go through the whole thing again.

can you contact them saying the above?

I think you mentioned previously that D had gone away to study, hs she tried asking her school for help?

Lemoncake · Jun 19, 2019 at 11:29 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Well, whatever Benji (or whatever his name is) is said was: "You will not receive photos on your device from now on."

Do they think I was born yesterday? That's not the same at all as not taking pictures of my mother's front door and storing them in some vast hackable database in the cloud.

Not sure if they will change it, the photo thing is their proof of saying it was delivered without a signature.

unaluna · Jun 19, 2019 at 11:40 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Well, whatever Benji (or whatever his name is) is said was: "You will not receive photos on your device from now on."

Do they think I was born yesterday? That's not the same at all as not taking pictures of my mother's front door and storing them in some vast hackable database in the cloud.

But i used it to prove they did NOT deliver. Even tho all our doors are supposably identical, mine is dirty in a different way than the one that was pictured. And in ours, they dont show the street number, altho i guess they could read it off the package. But hey, the whole order is in some hackable database, why are you worried about the photo?

not arguing, just not understanding.

Lemoncake · Jun 19, 2019 at 11:43 PM

I skipped gym today. Sat eating some chocolate for breakfast.

Dan brown is my secret guilty pleasure.I listen to audiobooks when I study. But I gave up on his last one Origin and just read the rest of the plot on wikipedia

Possible trigger:

the big deal the scientist figured out which was just about fusing with technology in 50 years and that somehow meant that there'd be no use for religion.

The villain was the AI he built. Which wouldn't have happened if he'd followed Manning's three rules of robotics from I robot.

and the Spanish prince was secretly gay along with the head priest.

Productive things done so far:

I emailed my summer placement doctor with dates of when I should hopefully be done and can start.

atisketatasket · Jun 19, 2019 at 11:47 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

But i used it to prove they did NOT deliver. Even tho all our doors are supposably identical, mine is dirty in a different way than the one that was pictured. And in ours, they dont show the street number, altho i guess they could read it off the package. But hey, the whole order is in some hackable database, why are you worried about the photo?

not arguing, just not understanding.

It's my mother's front door. And I like my mother, who is elderly and lives mostly on her own now, and I don't want her front door in any database.

(My front door, I wouldn't mind so much. I got a baseball bat and I know how to use it.)

Dare I ask how your door is dirty in a different way?

unaluna · Jun 19, 2019 at 11:53 PM

I get that its your moms. But once you send her something, shes i.e. her address in the system. Big brother is watching her. Eta - but i agree, its totally unnerving when you see the picture.

I know, right? My door looks like ive been in a flood. Where the pkg was delivered - there was a sandstorm! But same carpet and door paint

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Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 19, 2019 at 05:10 PM #481 I'm surprised as heck that I haven't dreamed about L lately.

Anonymous42961 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 19, 2019 at 06:55 PM #483 Just sent a friend request to my exT on fb just to see what happens as part of my campaign to bug him he has several fb profiles so I will systematically do all of them

atisketatasket Child of a lesser god Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Tartarus Posts: 19,144 (SuperPoster!) 8 12.4k hugs given	Jun 19, 2019 at 07:16 PM #484 I encountered Amazon’s Photo on Delivery for the first time today (delivery to my mom’s house). The Amazon help page told me to contact Customer Service to turn the feature off. Contacting Amazon Customer Service to get something done? Yeah...

Anonymous42961 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 19, 2019 at 08:29 PM #486 I hate our local youth mental health service. They closed my D case because I had used the 10 free sessions form last year but I gave them a new referral for this year that someone overlooked. My D is struggling now and I don't want to go through the whole thing again.

Anonymous42961 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 19, 2019 at 08:32 PM #488 I have picked up my new glasses and my other frames were bigger and it's hard to adjust. The prescription is better to I no longer need to take off my old bifocals to read

Omers Grand Magnate Member Since Nov 2010 Location: Crimson cattery Posts: 3,512 13 3,133 hugs given	Jun 19, 2019 at 09:54 PM #490 I’m getting mad at T. I don’t like this feeling. I’m not usually like this. Thankfully H has a short day tomorrow so maybe I can sew and get the feelings turned down a bit. __________________ There’s been many a crooked path that has landed me here Tired, broken and wearing rags Wild eyed with fear -Blackmoores Night

Omers Grand Magnate Member Since Nov 2010 Location: Crimson cattery Posts: 3,512 13 3,133 hugs given	Jun 19, 2019 at 09:56 PM #491 Oh! And I have a stove again. __________________ There’s been many a crooked path that has landed me here Tired, broken and wearing rags Wild eyed with fear -Blackmoores Night

unaluna Elder Harridan x-hankster Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Milan/Michigan Posts: 39,835 (SuperPoster!) 12 66.3k hugs given	Jun 19, 2019 at 11:53 PM #500 I get that its your moms. But once you send her something, shes i.e. her address in the system. Big brother is watching her. Eta - but i agree, its totally unnerving when you see the picture. I know, right? My door looks like ive been in a flood. Where the pkg was delivered - there was a sandstorm! But same carpet and door paint