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LonesomeTonight · Jun 20, 2019 at 05:00 PM

Hugs, Omers...feel free to PM if you want to share more.

Jun 20, 2019 at 05:13 PM

Sending hugs, Omers.

Jun 20, 2019 at 05:14 PM

And more hugs to anyone else who needs/wants.

LonesomeTonight · Jun 20, 2019 at 06:07 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

And more hugs to anyone else who needs/wants.

I could use one, thanks, Art.

atisketatasket · Jun 20, 2019 at 06:18 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

It's so hard isn't it? L was talking last week about it being ego that wants to stay away, with me... and that I need to listen to what my soul wants instead. Ego is like my persona or whatever, what I think I want myself to be or something instead of what I am. She did not say this next part but to me it's kinda obvious that my soul wants to heed the call to continue my work (my dreams lately are glaringly showing this, as are my continued phone calls to her and now going back last week with "one thing".) Ha. I'm probably going to ask today to come back weekly through the rest of the summer. If ego will shut its trap long enough that is.

Actually in that analysis isn’t ego what makes you set those deadlines (just one session, the rest of the summer...)?

Continuing your work means no deadlines. It takes as long as it takes.

And ego doesn’t just want to stay away or set deadlines. It wants to stay itself, not to change or grow.

Omers · Jun 20, 2019 at 06:46 PM

I just want to freaking scream! So, T just emailed again letting me know he has to cancel a session we scheduled in July for a training he is going to... I already have him as out of town the following week for a training... I sent an email asking him if I had gotten the other date wrong or if this is in addition to... hoping he responds quickly as I am completely ready to terminate.

Jun 20, 2019 at 06:48 PM

Thank goodness the rogan josh/vegemite thing was cleared up I was getting confused there

stopdog · Jun 20, 2019 at 07:32 PM

I love rogan josh. I couldn't figure out that rogan josh was the thing that was being questioned

Jun 20, 2019 at 07:39 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I love rogan josh. I couldn't figure out that rogan josh was the thing that was being questioned

I have left over rogan josh it's going to be unbelievably good.

Jun 20, 2019 at 07:43 PM

I had never heard of Rogan Josh til here.

atisketatasket · Jun 20, 2019 at 07:43 PM

On the plane I watched a documentary about the American branch of the Hitler family tree.

At one point the narrator said something like, “while we don’t have a lot of historical records for Alois Hitler [the ancestor of this branch], we know much more about his half-brother Adolf.”

I should hope so.

Jun 20, 2019 at 07:49 PM

Deep, tough session today. I'm not sure what exactly has changed but something is different. In me. I've always worked hard in therapy but this... this is a new level. We've peeled back a lot of those metaphorical onion layers up until now. How many freaking more layers are there?! I never even got to asking more about that ego stuff today. Maybe next week. Anyway we're on weekly through the summer. I shouldn't have been nervous about asking.
Also I am rather wiped and am going to go watch mindless tv.

Jersey 4 · Jun 20, 2019 at 07:49 PM

If anyone needs to watch something that won’t stretch your brain and you kind of just need to veg a bit- I would suggest Dead To Me on Netflix. But...only if you are a Christina Applegate fan. I am a fan but only of her older current self. I loved Married with Children growing up, but I didn’t love her on the show.

WarmFuzzySocks · Jun 20, 2019 at 07:55 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Bring a football, spike it on the ground, and strut.

There was someone in the waiting room.

Didn't have a football. So I just strutted. Well, more like sauntered a little. Does that count?

UnderRugSwept · Jun 20, 2019 at 08:26 PM

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Originally Posted by WarmFuzzySocks

There was someone in the waiting room.

Didn't have a football. So I just strutted. Well, more like sauntered a little. Does that count?

Absolutely.

I walked out of my appt with T2 the other day, and there were about 5 people in the tiny waiting room (there is usually maybe about 1, max).

I just froze.

So way to go on the sauntering!

SheHulk07 · Jun 20, 2019 at 09:45 PM

I told T during my session this morning about last night. And about another thing from earlier this week. He knew I had an appointment with my pcp and family therapy for my boys this afternoon, so he offered to call me this evening. He called and we ended up talking for 30 minutes. He ended up mentioning going to the hospital, and that he thinks that's what might need to happen to stay safe and not be so "violent" to myself. His words. He didn't mention any of this to me this afternoon. I'm not sure what changed. We're not scheduled to meet on Fridays during the summer, but he said he wanted to at least talk to me tomorrow. He asked if I would be okay with a phone session and I agreed to that because it's a better option for me than checking myself into the hospital. I wouldn't even know where to begin for something like that. He asked if I could tell H that's where we're at, not explain myself, just tell him. Tonight I'm going to try to focus on my online class, and see if I can knock out my 3 assignments for the week and my discussion post.

Omers · Jun 20, 2019 at 10:21 PM

I caved and emailed T with everything... now to cower until he responds, until Monday or.... I really don’t have good enough meds for this nor is there enough chocolate in the state.

ScarletPimpernel · Jun 21, 2019 at 01:01 AM

I'm a little worried about seeing L tomorrow. One, I contacted her every day this week except today. I was super clingy, needy, and constantly crying -- this is right after she gave me a scarf and I felt so much joy. Second, I bought her two books. She once told me one of her favorite things and even applied it to therapy. So I found 2 books that pair the two. I didn't ask her if I can give her another gift, or even if it's a purchase and not crafted. She also might have the books already, however I doubt anyone would think to look for such books, except maybe her. I'm just worried she might not accept them. I love gift giving to people especially when it's not expected. And I only have about 4 months left with her, so I want to give to her as much as I can during this period. The next thing I think I'll give her is a therapist survival kit. I think she'll appreciate that even though that is mostly purchased items.

Lemoncake · Jun 21, 2019 at 01:34 AM

For fellow coucharoonios RE: Dark

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Netflix will release the series at different times around the globe, depending on the time zones.

Every episode will be released at 12am PT (Pacific Time) as this is time zone where Netflix HQ is based in LA, California, USA.

In the UK, therefore, Dark will be available to stream from 8am BST (British Summer Time).

I got 60-34 = X mins left.

Lemoncake · Jun 21, 2019 at 01:37 AM

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Originally Posted by Omers

I caved and emailed T with everything... now to cower until he responds, until Monday or.... I really don’t have good enough meds for this nor is there enough chocolate in the state.

We're here too.

I'll trade you my Cadbury Hazelnut for a packet of Reese's peanut butter cups.

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LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,763 (SuperPoster!) 9 75k hugs given	Jun 20, 2019 at 05:00 PM #541 Hugs, Omers...feel free to PM if you want to share more.

Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 20, 2019 at 05:13 PM #542 Sending hugs, Omers.

Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 20, 2019 at 05:14 PM #543 And more hugs to anyone else who needs/wants.

Anonymous42961 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 20, 2019 at 06:48 PM #547 Thank goodness the rogan josh/vegemite thing was cleared up I was getting confused there

stopdog underdog is here Member Since Sep 2011 Location: blank Posts: 34,731 (SuperPoster!) 12 1 hugs given	Jun 20, 2019 at 07:32 PM #548 I love rogan josh. I couldn't figure out that rogan josh was the thing that was being questioned __________________ Please NO @ Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live. Oscar Wilde Well Behaved Women Seldom Make History - Laurel Thatcher Ulrich Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

Anonymous43207 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 20, 2019 at 07:43 PM #550 I had never heard of Rogan Josh til here.

atisketatasket Child of a lesser god Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Tartarus Posts: 19,149 (SuperPoster!) 8 12.4k hugs given	Jun 20, 2019 at 07:43 PM #551 On the plane I watched a documentary about the American branch of the Hitler family tree. At one point the narrator said something like, “while we don’t have a lot of historical records for Alois Hitler [the ancestor of this branch], we know much more about his half-brother Adolf.” I should hope so.

Jersey 4 Poohbah Member Since Feb 2019 Location: NJ Posts: 1,162 5 1,170 hugs given	Jun 20, 2019 at 07:49 PM #553 If anyone needs to watch something that won’t stretch your brain and you kind of just need to veg a bit- I would suggest Dead To Me on Netflix. But...only if you are a Christina Applegate fan. I am a fan but only of her older current self. I loved Married with Children growing up, but I didn’t love her on the show.

Omers Grand Magnate Member Since Nov 2010 Location: Crimson cattery Posts: 3,512 13 3,133 hugs given	Jun 20, 2019 at 10:21 PM #557 I caved and emailed T with everything... now to cower until he responds, until Monday or.... I really don’t have good enough meds for this nor is there enough chocolate in the state. __________________ There’s been many a crooked path that has landed me here Tired, broken and wearing rags Wild eyed with fear -Blackmoores Night