Dear T: I really need to tell you something XLI

Aug 11, 2019 at 06:32 PM

Yes, I know the answer to that question.

Mountaindewed · Aug 11, 2019 at 08:18 PM

I guess I’ll tell her tomorrow that sometimes I just plain don’t feel good but that doesn’t mean she has to read so much into it. No, I don’t have an eating disorder and no, I don’t need to see a doctor about my symptoms.

captgut · Aug 11, 2019 at 11:26 PM

Stop being so beautiful

CantExplain · Aug 12, 2019 at 01:00 AM

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Originally Posted by captgut

Stop being so beautiful

Something to talk about?

LonesomeTonight · Aug 12, 2019 at 01:23 PM

Dear T,
If you'd just f***ing told me that last Monday, you could have saved both of us a lot of grief (and email charges). It's not like your back injury is some big secret. You said months ago that you'd injured it and have been sitting on a special back support thing on your regular chair since. Grumble.
Love anyway,

--LT

SlumberKitty · Aug 12, 2019 at 01:51 PM

Dear T--I feel like you let me down in some way. Like you did your job with the risk assessment but you didn't seem to take my pain seriously. I'm all alone now and want to cry but I'm at work so that would be bad. Why couldn't you have shown me a bit of compassion?

SlumberKitty · Aug 12, 2019 at 01:51 PM

Also, could you please get my name right? It's a small thing but obviously very personal.

SlumberKitty · Aug 12, 2019 at 01:52 PM

And when I see you next week, I plan on telling you something that is a secret and painful and I don't want you to make it no big deal. Because it's a big deal to me.

Lemoncake · Aug 12, 2019 at 04:42 PM

Dear R,

I'm not ready to come back.

LonesomeTonight · Aug 12, 2019 at 04:42 PM

Dear T,
Not sure what's going on with me...I think the talk about disclosure/lack thereof may have triggered something?

Love,
LT

toomanycats · Aug 12, 2019 at 06:42 PM

I cannot shake the feeling that I have worn you out and that you're close to taking email away from me. I really really really hope I'm wrong. I like to think you'd tell me if this was the case - that we'd talk about it first or something - that there'd be some warning. I've been emailing a lot because this topic is SO hard, and it's shaken up SO many feelings.

Today was so hard. I am scared about having already sent you an email. I hope it's ok. I kept it adult. I kept it not needy. In reality, I'm over here crying and desperately wishing you were here and feeling like you are SO far away and like you don't care anymore... but I know that's not true... just

a mess
but you have got to be tired of my mess...

I cannot. shake. this feeling. that you want to be done with me.
I hate this feeling.

LonesomeTonight · Aug 12, 2019 at 07:40 PM

Thanks for the caring reply.

Love,
LT

NP_Complete · Aug 12, 2019 at 10:46 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Also, could you please get my name right? It's a small thing but obviously very personal.

Just tell her "actually I go by ...". It would drive me nuts if my therapist got my name wrong or spelled it wrong (my name has several ways to spell it). Sometimes he uses just my initials in emails (and once on the phone) and I'm still not sure how I feel about that. Your name is very personal. I don't think she will take offense if you correct her.

SheHulk07 · Aug 13, 2019 at 03:23 AM

T, how the heck do I work this out with IOP and you when disclosing information about SH or SI? Do I tell them first then you? You first then them? Just you? Just them? Whoever I see first that day?

Possible trigger:

I would feel very stupid and crying wolf if I went in there tomorrow for the first time and said how bad my SH thoughts were tonight.

But you did say to look at it as this is what I need and they had a meeting specifically about getting me in this program. So I shouldn't feel guilty or worried about saying what I'm dealing with but I'm scared of a negative response like the last hospital.

04:20 AM

ExT I have put the money I used to spend on you into making my house feel safe for me. I think it is making a difference. I spent all that effort in trying to make you change your room to make it feel safe for me.
I still miss you.

Lonelyinmyheart · Aug 13, 2019 at 04:54 AM

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Originally Posted by captgut

Stop being so beautiful

I feel like this

CartDown · Aug 13, 2019 at 06:51 AM

Thank you for talking me through another mini breakdown, you have no idea how much you helped me. The only problem is, your kindness just makes me want you more.

LonesomeTonight · Aug 13, 2019 at 06:53 AM

Dear T,
I'm not sure what to talk to you about today. I'm not sure how to explain the feelings if I'm not certain where they came from. Clearly I was triggered by something. Hopefully we can figure out what it was together. Maybe the "steel trap" thing is part of it?
Love,
LT

SummerTime12 · Aug 13, 2019 at 06:57 AM

I’m not sure what’s going on with me. I don’t know why I’ve been different lately, but I hope we can figure it out.

susannahsays · Aug 13, 2019 at 11:25 AM

So are you laughing at me or what?

You probably aren't... you are on vacation, so I am probably safe.

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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 12, 2019 at 01:51 PM #426 Dear T--I feel like you let me down in some way. Like you did your job with the risk assessment but you didn't seem to take my pain seriously. I'm all alone now and want to cry but I'm at work so that would be bad. Why couldn't you have shown me a bit of compassion? __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 12, 2019 at 01:51 PM #427 Also, could you please get my name right? It's a small thing but obviously very personal. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 12, 2019 at 01:52 PM #428 And when I see you next week, I plan on telling you something that is a secret and painful and I don't want you to make it no big deal. Because it's a big deal to me. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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Lemoncake Roses are falling. Member Since May 2017 Location: Cafe Nervosa. Posts: 9,733 (SuperPoster!) 6 10.2k hugs given	Aug 12, 2019 at 04:42 PM #429 Dear R, I'm not ready to come back. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing."
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LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,829 (SuperPoster!) 9 75k hugs given	Aug 12, 2019 at 04:42 PM #430 Dear T, Not sure what's going on with me...I think the talk about disclosure/lack thereof may have triggered something? Love, LT
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Anonymous42961 Guest Posts: n/a	Aug 13, 2019 at 04:06 AM #435 ExT I have put the money I used to spend on you into making my house feel safe for me. I think it is making a difference. I spent all that effort in trying to make you change your room to make it feel safe for me. I still miss you. Last edited by Anonymous42961; Aug 13, 2019 at 04:20 AM..
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CartDown Member Member Since Apr 2019 Location: United States Posts: 70 5 53 hugs given	Aug 13, 2019 at 06:51 AM #437 Thank you for talking me through another mini breakdown, you have no idea how much you helped me. The only problem is, your kindness just makes me want you more.
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LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,829 (SuperPoster!) 9 75k hugs given	Aug 13, 2019 at 06:53 AM #438 Dear T, I'm not sure what to talk to you about today. I'm not sure how to explain the feelings if I'm not certain where they came from. Clearly I was triggered by something. Hopefully we can figure out what it was together. Maybe the "steel trap" thing is part of it? Love, LT
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SummerTime12 Grand Member Member Since Mar 2013 Location: USA Posts: 876 11 601 hugs given	Aug 13, 2019 at 06:57 AM #439 I’m not sure what’s going on with me. I don’t know why I’ve been different lately, but I hope we can figure it out.
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susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Aug 13, 2019 at 11:25 AM #440 So are you laughing at me or what? You probably aren't... you are on vacation, so I am probably safe. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold
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