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I am not gonna lie, I loved loved loved being close with T... and feeling like I truly mattered to him. Feeling loved. However, once he left, everything snapped and I just went way back from any progress I made, now it's like, I want to trust... my T ant my friend but I am too scared to trust them much. I want to believe things they say but I can't. It's like it was literally the best relationship with a man I've ever experienced but at the same time, it destroyed me and I am too scared to do it again. So yes, I am aware I keep a huge distance __________________ Grief is the price you pay for love. |
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#23
If this is your first experience with an alcoholic, you may need to add another category. Which are kinda problematic to begin with, but this may be a horse of yet another color, and less subject to correct interpretation of the cause and effects of your mutual interaction. I.e., its not you, its him.
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Your killing me here.
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This probably isn’t helpful, but I have the exact same issues you do- but with women. It’s interesting to me that all of your examples I have the exact same responses, but with women instead of men. Hmmm.
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With men I'm unsure why I have this issue. I am not close with my dad but I wouldn't say he was abusive either. He drank a lot but I don't see how that fits into this. I've just always been this way, in wanting but not feeling like I am enough or feeling too much and deciding its best to protect them and leave. __________________ Grief is the price you pay for love. |
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I think it's significant that your dad is an alcoholic and you're not close to him. I would think more about why that is given your affinities. It's possible that it's a coincidence, but I doubt it. Even if he himself was not abusive, neglectful, or emotionally unavailable due to his alcoholism, he failed to protect you from your mother and her abuse. Seems unlikely anybody would be unaffected by that.
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There are many wonderful men in the world. Don’t lose hope. |
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#30
Personally after knowing someone in person for only a month, i generally would not share too much at all. I’d need more time for getting close enough to really feel this person is a friend. At the same time if people can’t share what they think and what bothers them, then what’s the point. It’s hard to tell how soon and how much is appropriate to share
Come think of it I and my husband had no fear of sharing everything with each other early on in a relationship. I’d say as soon as after few dates. Just came natural. Normally I am way more private. Well that’s maybe why I married him, not others. Ha I wonder if you have to ask if you should share your fears, you aren’t ready to share |
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Lots of stuff to work out there but at least I am gonna try to work through it. Hopefully I can __________________ Grief is the price you pay for love. |
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Convo with the guy friend went well, It's just now gonna be a test of how I can trust his word.
Therapy with t3 today, we will see. Hopefully I can share this stuff and not shut down. __________________ Grief is the price you pay for love. |
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Good luck on your therapy appointment DP. I don't really have any advice. I just read all the posts in this thread and wanted you to know that your struggle is important and I'm glad you are working on it (since you want to) with your T. HUGS Kit
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