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Poohbah
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#41
I guess part of my worry about sharing what I’ve found in my online searches is that it’ll make him pull away or distance more. He already doesn’t disclose much, so I’m not really dying for him to dial that back even more.
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Poohbah
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#42
Wouldn't this be something worth discussing with him?
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#43
I wonder if it's really the 'what' that matters, either to him or to you. I don't want to speculate, but I get both a 'want to be more connected' and a 'testing boundaries' vibe from this ... I hope he can help you to explore the issue, seeing that he at least didn't freak out or shut down.
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#44
Yeah, I guess so. The therapist part of him has been unflappable about pretty much anything I bring up, but my concern is that the “regular person” behind the therapist facade might be put off by all my snooping. I feel guilty about it all, but honestly, I’m not really ready to stop. Thanks for helping me think this through.
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You should talk about it especially because you feel guilt about all this. |
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#47
I don't see the point of making this into a problem and self-pathologizing. If you reveal personal stuff, and the other person does not, it creates an imbalance that undermines trust and safety, and attempting to right this by finding out more about the secretive therapist is normal. Or, if the process creates some emotional dependency and you feel disconnected in the void between sessions, it would also be normal in my opinion to take steps to ameliorate that. In my experience therapists are too stupid /andor too manipulative to acknowledge how they are provoking people in this regard, so that doesn't help.
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#48
It is normal to want to know something about someone....a t.....with whom you share such private thoughts and feelings.
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In my opinion, if a therapist has a clue and is honest, first thing they'd do is point out how the unnatural and asymmetrical relationship is bound to cause this kind of response. I have never been to one who acknowledged that nor heard of one who did. They just put it all on the client, either explicitly or implicitly. To me that is either a deliberate manipulation, or cluelessness. |
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Poohbah
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#53
I went to my session today and specifically told my T that I didn’t want to talk about the two emails I had sent him this week about online searches, the first expressing guilt and the second explaining my reactions to his response to my first email. I just felt weird about talking about it even though I had brought it up in emails. I’m not sure if we should have talked about it. I’m not sure if it was important or if I should just let it go.
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#54
If it's bothering you, then it's probably important.
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