Haven’t been around much

Haven’t been on here much. My son is inpatient until they can find a place for him but it got really traumatic before he left. Recovering has been hard and it taking longer than I thought.
T has taken a slight change in Course with me, getting more nurturing and more human. It seems to be a good thing as I seem to have spontaneously started processing last session. He was surprised but pleased. We are pretty far outside my understanding of “normal” therapy practices but we have talked through all of it in great detail... why, what it feels like, where the boundaries are, why/when it would have to change, ethics...
I am changing stores I work for from the one by my house (that got toxic) to the one in the town T lives in (which is more stable and healthier). T is excited. He shops there and thinks the people there will be healthier for me to be around. So we have also talked about running into him in public. We still have a couple things to talk through in session Monday before I start there next weekend. I think it will be a good thing for our work together to run into eachother outside the office... the therapy vacuum is getting in the way of some potential progress. My manager at the new store will think it is funny when I get all excited to see a “customer” I know.
But, I *think* we started processing last session. I need to ask T if that was what that was last session. Even if it wasn’t processing he now has a much better idea of my triggers and why they are not what he expects them to be. He also has a much better understanding of why I struggle to navigate how to act in therapy (and in all my relationships). I think it will be safe to go back to working on the timeline now... we will see Monday. I think he may have inadvertently started to bridge a connection with my protective Jr High part that he had been setting off before... although he isn’t sure how he feels about going from getting transference from a priest to getting transference from a horse.

So good to see you again! I'd been wondering how you were doing. This all sounds really positive - well done.

I hope things continue to go well.

those of us who have lived with the "evil" know just how bad it can get and the recovery is not easy but it will come♥

I was also wondering how you've been doing--glad things are going better. I hope they can find a permanent placement for your son.

Thanks for the update Omers.

I'm also glad you're doing better.

I would say that anything that involves a horse will be a good thing.

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I love T dearly but there are some things he just doesn’t get. He also didn’t get it when I told him about having a bad day and I must have been super pitiful because my feral house cat head bopped me. No. Clue. She has, for now, gone back to being feral but does head bops on really bad days (her name is Spitty M Hiss)