Couch 205: The 5 x 41 Couch

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 02:00 PM

Welcome to the couch, old and new! A place to hang out - sometimes you get immediate feedback, sometimes you don't.

Shouting, "Cool Whip" tends to bring others out from between the cushions if you're feeling lonely.

This is a chatty thread. All are welcome. We're kind of psychologically oriented, sometimes. We try to be supportive. At times we discuss what that means.

It’s a place to plop down on the couch when you come home from work or wherever, or wake up in the middle of the night, or check in at lunch, rant a bit or not, and be among friends.

We advise you not to drink or drug and text your therapist ("T") - we speak from experience.

Sometimes the thread moves fast and you might get overlooked; sometimes it moves slowly and all you hear are crickets. Sometimes you get hugged or thanked pages later. So if it's a bigger question, you might want to start a new thread.

Grab a cushion, a spot on the floor, or an armchair in the corner and make yourselves comfy.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 02:13 PM

I felt better yesterday than I do today. Today I feel depressed, but not suicidal. It's like something is pulling on my rib cage. I can feel it inside of me. Must be the sadness. I'm trying to distract myself at work but there isn't much to be distracted by at the moment. Still 4 hours and 15 minutes to go.

comrademoomoo · Sep 20, 2019 at 03:17 PM

What does 5x41 mean?

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 03:20 PM

5 x 41 = 205 which is the number of the couch.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 03:21 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

5 x 41 = 205 which is the number of the couch.

Not very imaginative, I know. Just what I could come up with.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 03:22 PM

I'm really stressing about this self-appraisal I have to do for work. I'm always very hard on myself. I don't want to give myself a lower score than I really deserve, but I don't want to inflate the score either. The funny thing is, it talks about creativity. You don't want to be creative in accounting. The second page of the self-appraisal is worse. It's like essay questions. I hope this self-appraisal comes with a raise!

NP_Complete · Sep 20, 2019 at 03:49 PM

This place is depressing. I hope they give me my copies soon.

unaluna · 04:27 PM

Kitty, you run that place! Youre a jill of all trades! You know they couldnt keep that place going without you. You can replace almost anyone who is out sick! I would tell them, the one thing i would have done differently, is ask for more money and a better parking spot.

One place i worked, when i left, they had me hand off my work to FIVE people. All the other contractors who left, handed over their work to ONE person. The way you talk about your job, you know they would be in the same spot if you left. They DEPEND on us mad scientist types. And they know it. Let them know you know it too.

atisketatasket · Sep 20, 2019 at 03:53 PM

Ah...a bright student has finally figured out that now that people are living longer, attending multiple great-grandmother funerals in one semester is plausible.

unaluna · Sep 20, 2019 at 03:56 PM

Man there could be infinite numbers of those.

Echos Myron redux · Sep 20, 2019 at 04:08 PM

Accidentally found my T's Instagram, and a pic of him doing his hobby with his daughter. I'll just try and unsee that now 🙄

StressedMess · Sep 20, 2019 at 05:18 PM

Hey new couch. I didn't sleep much last night so I'm just gonna sit here and rest. Ya'll have a good night.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 05:40 PM

I've been feeling irritable. Like coworkers are getting on my nerves. Not all of them. Just some of them. I wonder if it's because I've been messing around with the dosage of my AP. Ever since I was so severely suicidal, I was like, the meds are not helping if I feel this bad, so I've been trying to figure out what dose I should be at on the AP. I know I should leave it up to the professionals, but.....well, I'm only human. But I wonder if it is making me irritable. I'm just like ugh. Stop bothering me. Or maybe it is the depression. Or maybe it is the increase in the ADHD medication. When too much changes at once it can be difficult to pinpoint.

Sep 20, 2019 at 05:43 PM

Ok so we are getting my daughters dog. I have no idea how to introduce him to the cats. I figured out leaving him in the laundry and letting my dog sniff him through the door for a couple days should work. I hope. I dont want to stress anyone unnecessarily. Is this the right approach i have looked up websites but they seem to present and ideal world.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:04 PM

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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker

Ok so we are getting my daughters dog. I have no idea how to introduce him to the cats. I figured out leaving him in the laundry and letting my dog sniff him through the door for a couple days should work. I hope. I dont want to stress anyone unnecessarily. Is this the right approach i have looked up websites but they seem to present and ideal world.

IDK what the professionals would say but when I brought home Amelia to my much older dog and kitty, I put her in the spare room by herself for like a week to 10 days. The dog and cat could smell her through the door and she would reach her paw out from underneath the door. It was cute. But when it came to introducing her to the Emma and Esther it was a whole other story. Esther did a lot of hissing and growling while the dog was more just like content to sniff. But that was a cat. IDK what it would be like for a dog. FWIW when we brought Emma home, Esther was like who cares, but then again, that's a cat and a dog. Esther only cared once we brought home a second cat. Then the dog didn't care but Esther looked at us like we had betrayed her. They now get along pretty well. Occasionally there is a hissy fit.

susannahsays · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:17 PM

I really wouldn't mess with your meds, SK. Even though they don't seem to be helping, going off of them will still cause withdrawal which will definitely make you feel worse. Even when you have a doc in on the conversation they sometimes go too fast to avoid horrible withdrawal, so going off half cocked by yourself when you are already feeling like crap is honestly a terrible idea. If you want to change your meds, either talk to your psychiatrist about it or consult a new one.

atisketatasket · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:25 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

I've been feeling irritable. Like coworkers are getting on my nerves. Not all of them. Just some of them. I wonder if it's because I've been messing around with the dosage of my AP. Ever since I was so severely suicidal, I was like, the meds are not helping if I feel this bad, so I've been trying to figure out what dose I should be at on the AP. I know I should leave it up to the professionals, but.....well, I'm only human. But I wonder if it is making me irritable. I'm just like ugh. Stop bothering me. Or maybe it is the depression. Or maybe it is the increase in the ADHD medication. When too much changes at once it can be difficult to pinpoint.

I thought you started feeling so suicidal after not taking your AP one weekend?

I agree with susannah—leave it to the professionals.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:25 PM

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Originally Posted by susannahsays

I really wouldn't mess with your meds, SK. Even though they don't seem to be helping, going off of them will still cause withdrawal which will definitely make you feel worse. Even when you have a doc in on the conversation they sometimes go too fast to avoid horrible withdrawal, so going off half cocked by yourself when you are already feeling like crap is honestly a terrible idea. If you want to change your meds, either talk to your psychiatrist about it or consult a new one.

I know you're right @susannahsays, I'm not usually like this. I'm usually very compliant. This last bout with suicidality has really messed with me. But you're right, I don't want to make it worse.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:27 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

I thought you started feeling so suicidal after not taking your AP one weekend?

I agree with susannah—leave it to the professionals.

I know....you're right. Maybe this is some new way I'm trying to self harm or self destruct. I gotta knock this crap off.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:29 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

I thought you started feeling so suicidal after not taking your AP one weekend?

I agree with susannah—leave it to the professionals.

Well that time, I stopped all my meds. That definitely was a bad idea...I guess this one is too. I'm so tired of being sick. I just want to get better already but it's been years and I'm not better yet.

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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 02:13 PM #2 I felt better yesterday than I do today. Today I feel depressed, but not suicidal. It's like something is pulling on my rib cage. I can feel it inside of me. Must be the sadness. I'm trying to distract myself at work but there isn't much to be distracted by at the moment. Still 4 hours and 15 minutes to go. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA

comrademoomoo Grand Poohbah Member Since Feb 2019 Location: Toodlepip Posts: 1,711 5	Sep 20, 2019 at 03:17 PM #3 What does 5x41 mean?

SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 03:20 PM #4 5 x 41 = 205 which is the number of the couch. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA

NP_Complete Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2017 Location: the upside down Posts: 3,808 7 6,352 hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 03:49 PM #7 This place is depressing. I hope they give me my copies soon.

atisketatasket Child of a lesser god Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Tartarus Posts: 19,149 (SuperPoster!) 8 12.4k hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 03:53 PM #9 Ah...a bright student has finally figured out that now that people are living longer, attending multiple great-grandmother funerals in one semester is plausible. __________________ The secret to eternal youth is arrested development.—Alice Roosevelt Longworth

unaluna Elder Harridan x-hankster Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Milan/Michigan Posts: 39,867 (SuperPoster!) 12 66.4k hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 03:56 PM #10 Man there could be infinite numbers of those.

Echos Myron redux Magnate Member Since Apr 2018 Location: UK Posts: 2,160 6 1,833 hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 04:08 PM #11 Accidentally found my T's Instagram, and a pic of him doing his hobby with his daughter. I'll just try and unsee that now 🙄

StressedMess Grand Magnate Member Since Jul 2014 Location: Usa Posts: 3,068 9 589 hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 05:18 PM #12 Hey new couch. I didn't sleep much last night so I'm just gonna sit here and rest. Ya'll have a good night.

Anonymous42961 Guest Posts: n/a	Sep 20, 2019 at 05:43 PM #14 Ok so we are getting my daughters dog. I have no idea how to introduce him to the cats. I figured out leaving him in the laundry and letting my dog sniff him through the door for a couple days should work. I hope. I dont want to stress anyone unnecessarily. Is this the right approach i have looked up websites but they seem to present and ideal world.