Dear T: I really need to tell you something XLII

junkDNA · Nov 05, 2019 at 05:58 AM

Sometimes ur my mom, neglecting and abandoning and ignoring me. Pretending I dont exist

Sometimes ur my dad , outright abusing me, hurting me

Sometimes ur my former therapist , sneaky and pulling some scam to get whT u want from me.

But I'm trying to remind myself that u are none of these people , that u are u. A totally separate individual with your own life and thoughts and feelings and needs.

And that all ur trying to do is help me recover, help me heal. And that is all you've ever been trying to do

darkestpart · Nov 05, 2019 at 11:30 AM

hey t,

i like your hemorrhoid pillow.

me

circlesincircles · Nov 05, 2019 at 12:08 PM

I wish you would write me back. Waiting is making me anxious.

NP_Complete · Nov 05, 2019 at 01:37 PM

I need your attention. But I don't think you're going to give it. I emailed you right after our session yesterday while I was sitting in my car sobbing. But I doubt you're going to bother to respond to it. Right now I don't want to come tomorrow. I hate this!

junkDNA · Nov 05, 2019 at 02:21 PM

I found a photo of u at the treatment center. Remember when they did the fashion show?? U dont have a beard in these . This was in 2011

Sometimes I really super miss being there .. ..... ..

junkDNA · Nov 05, 2019 at 02:23 PM

Omg holy sht what is that noise

Lemoncake · Nov 05, 2019 at 03:13 PM

Well I went for the friday date, now I'm thinking If I've bitten off more than I can chew.

comrademoomoo · Nov 05, 2019 at 03:34 PM

I am not drinking tonight! For the first time in a long time, I will not be hungover in the session tomorrow. I wonder if you are any more tolerable to me when I am sober.

susannahsays · Nov 05, 2019 at 05:34 PM

You are seriously so hurtful. I feel like texting you I won't be talking to you anymore, but that seems like an empty threat.

I can't tell if I'm being crazy or not. I can't tell if you're in the wrong. I can't tell if it's reasonable to feel hurt.

I regret putting my trust in you and sharing the things I have shared in the past few months - but not because your response to those things was hurtful. I feel regret because I let your responses mislead me. I took what you said at face value. But when you talk to C, it's clear what you actually think of me. And it hurts my feelings that you encourage her to come and put the option of her coming for what is supposed to be my time. That is really hurtful. You don't speak to me that way about her or taking her time. I feel like I invested some of my precious trust in you and you don't even value it. I let you make me think I mattered enough to have session time to talk. Now it turns out you don't really believe that and I can just be shoved aside as needed. You are just like C. I am not a real person to you.

chihirochild · Nov 05, 2019 at 06:55 PM

Wishing that you would say that I’m not repulsive (after I’ve shared something gross and reasonably traumatic with you) does not mean that I have erotic transference for you, you strange strange man. *Shudder*

susannahsays · Nov 05, 2019 at 08:50 PM

I hope I can stick to what I said. Makes me sad that I won't have you to talk to anymore, but you've only been around for a short amount of time. I survived before and I'll survive again. You aren't a bad therapist. If I was a "real" person, this wouldn't be necessary.

Wish I hadn't let you in. It's hard to now choose to shut you out. I don't want to be alone. But I don't want to get hurt, either.

velcro003 · Nov 05, 2019 at 10:08 PM

I maybe missed you a little tonight. I know your H was literally on his death bed, and that made your schedule all wack a doo, but I hope we can get back to regular sessions in the near future. I will never tell you this, of course.

JaneTennison1 · Nov 05, 2019 at 10:50 PM

Dear T

I miss you, I hope things are still the same

goatee · Nov 05, 2019 at 11:03 PM

How could you? To me? What the heck, T? I thought... I really thought...

jrae · Nov 06, 2019 at 04:39 AM

I don't know what to do here, do I pull away from you when I probably 'need' more cuz you seem so uninterested/unhelpful OR schedule a couple 'more' appts and hope you step up to the plate & realize what's going on ..........
maybe even finally see that MAYBE I 'need' you and your help

Lemoncake · Nov 06, 2019 at 09:47 AM

The doctor I like added extra exam dates with him after talking to us and I'd honestly like to do it with him instead of the other doctor on friday so my exam is now on tuesday.

We got to see another young patient today. He led and was kind and comforting with her and I just realized I don't get that with you. We could tell at first she wasn't comfortable so he even made jokes about us first.

LonesomeTonight · Nov 06, 2019 at 10:51 AM

Dear T,
Thanks for the insightful reply. Of course this part of me wanted you to be like, "Of course you're a good mom!" But what would that really accomplish? Your mention of my strengths suggests that obviously you think there are some (and we've discussed that in session, too, plus how D is very challenging to raise). Empathy and caring came across in your reply, and that's what I needed. And I appreciated the smiley

Love,
LT

stahrgeyzer · Nov 06, 2019 at 12:36 PM

Dear Therapist,

You don't know me yet, but I have so much to tell you with a lot of tears. I hope you can help

Taylor27 · Nov 06, 2019 at 01:46 PM

Dear t, i am glad to see you tomorrow, however i am so anxious. I feel like you are going to terminate me because of what my ex t has put in my file of being too dependant on therapy ect. I hope thats not true. Also i have other things i need to get off my chest. I hope you can help me

circlesincircles · Nov 06, 2019 at 01:49 PM

Write you again, don't write you again? Why do I keep playing this game with myself? I don't think there's any way to win.

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darkestpart Member Member Since May 2017 Location: US Posts: 66 6	Nov 05, 2019 at 11:30 AM #322 hey t, i like your hemorrhoid pillow. me __________________ Experience: that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn.

circlesincircles Member Member Since May 2018 Location: United States Posts: 303 5	Nov 05, 2019 at 12:08 PM #323 I wish you would write me back. Waiting is making me anxious.

NP_Complete Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2017 Location: the upside down Posts: 3,808 7 6,354 hugs given	Nov 05, 2019 at 01:37 PM #324 I need your attention. But I don't think you're going to give it. I emailed you right after our session yesterday while I was sitting in my car sobbing. But I doubt you're going to bother to respond to it. Right now I don't want to come tomorrow. I hate this!

junkDNA Comfy Sedation Member Since Sep 2012 Location: the woods Posts: 19,301 (SuperPoster!) 11 8,149 hugs given	Nov 05, 2019 at 02:23 PM #326 Omg holy sht what is that noise __________________

Lemoncake Luna's offical mini me. Member Since May 2017 Location: Cafe Nervosa. Posts: 9,700 (SuperPoster!) 6 10.2k hugs given	Nov 05, 2019 at 03:13 PM #327 Well I went for the friday date, now I'm thinking If I've bitten off more than I can chew. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing."

comrademoomoo Grand Poohbah Member Since Feb 2019 Location: Toodlepip Posts: 1,714 5	Nov 05, 2019 at 03:34 PM #328 I am not drinking tonight! For the first time in a long time, I will not be hungover in the session tomorrow. I wonder if you are any more tolerable to me when I am sober.

chihirochild Magnate Member Since Feb 2017 Location: North America Posts: 2,360 7 4,865 hugs given	Nov 05, 2019 at 06:55 PM #330 Wishing that you would say that I’m not repulsive (after I’ve shared something gross and reasonably traumatic with you) does not mean that I have erotic transference for you, you strange strange man. Shudder

velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,361 15 25 hugs given	Nov 05, 2019 at 10:08 PM #332 I maybe missed you a little tonight. I know your H was literally on his death bed, and that made your schedule all wack a doo, but I hope we can get back to regular sessions in the near future. I will never tell you this, of course.

JaneTennison1 Magnate Member Since Aug 2014 Location: US Posts: 2,202 9 121 hugs given	Nov 05, 2019 at 10:50 PM #333 Dear T I miss you, I hope things are still the same

goatee Member Member Since Jan 2017 Location: Florida Posts: 322 7 567 hugs given	Nov 05, 2019 at 11:03 PM #334 How could you? To me? What the heck, T? I thought... I really thought...

jrae Grand Member Member Since Jun 2008 Location: WYLTK Posts: 766 15 410 hugs given	Nov 06, 2019 at 04:39 AM #335 I don't know what to do here, do I pull away from you when I probably 'need' more cuz you seem so uninterested/unhelpful OR schedule a couple 'more' appts and hope you step up to the plate & realize what's going on .......... maybe even finally see that MAYBE I 'need' you and your help

stahrgeyzer Magnate Member Since Feb 2018 Location: literally hell Posts: 2,348 6 5,660 hugs given	Nov 06, 2019 at 12:36 PM #338 Dear Therapist, You don't know me yet, but I have so much to tell you with a lot of tears. I hope you can help

Taylor27 healing from trauma Member Since Dec 2017 Location: Alberta Posts: 30,425 (SuperPoster!) 6 24.3k hugs given	Nov 06, 2019 at 01:46 PM #339 Dear t, i am glad to see you tomorrow, however i am so anxious. I feel like you are going to terminate me because of what my ex t has put in my file of being too dependant on therapy ect. I hope thats not true. Also i have other things i need to get off my chest. I hope you can help me

circlesincircles Member Member Since May 2018 Location: United States Posts: 303 5	Nov 06, 2019 at 01:49 PM #340 Write you again, don't write you again? Why do I keep playing this game with myself? I don't think there's any way to win.