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Location: USA
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#41
Good to know it was always just about the money. I mean it makes sense, but still... good to know. So pissed at myself for ever letting myself believe you cared.
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Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#42
And I’m even more pissed at myself for being this distressed over it. Your opinion shouldn’t even matter to me.
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Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#43
I don't want to stay safe! Why did I have to tell you my plan. Just send me to IOP!
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#44
Lol this is almost funny to me. [/trigger] I emailed you saying I’m extremely suicidal and you ignored it, probably thinking I’m exaggerating and you’ll just reply in the morning. Nope, not exaggerating. Also, don’t plan to be here in the morning. [trigger]
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#45
t wtf just happened???!!!! I am so sorry. I feel like I hurt you and I hate that feeling. Especially when I said to you out loud "I'm sorry" before I left and you just said "mmhmm". And because you pretty much kicked me out of there at 50 minutes and we always go for an hour. I feel absolutely miserable. what the **** am I supposed to do with these feelings?! what?! But this is exactly WHY i needed to stop. don't you see?! I want so much more from you than i can ever have and that's just ****ing everything up!! I can't keep trying to work with you. because every few months the same damn thing would happen. Not that you would ever let me come back now anyway
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Lonelyinmyheart, SlumberKitty
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#46
aww Artie I am sorry your session didn't go well
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#47
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#48
L, my heart feels shattered and I am broken.
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#49
i wish i had the words to help you understand the way i feel
twice a week would only make things worse weekly was hard enough you can't see that though why can't you see that why couldn't you understand what i was trying to say i hope you will read my email pathetic as it is it explains better than i did in your office earlier omg i am broken |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Location: USA
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#50
Thanks for allowing me to have a lighter session today yet still giving me new opportunities to work on for improvement. I really needed a break from EMDR. I know you are always working hard on the goal of improving my life. Also, thank you for gently helping me admit the issues I need to overcome that require your help even though I always want to do it on my own.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Member Since Jun 2019
Location: Earth
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#51
Please go to a crisis centre if you need to...I'm so sorry you feel so rejected by your t. You will get through this, you will find people who care about you and it will be easier. Please dont throw your life away over one person. Msg me if you need to, I care.
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#52
please forgive me
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Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, Out There, SlumberKitty
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#53
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stay safe summertime please talk to us |
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Poohbah
Member Since Jun 2019
Location: Earth
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#54
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#55
I have decided that I don't like EMDR anymore. It takes the pain away, but it takes emotions and memory with it.
I get angry at you sometimes when I want to escape. Once upon a time, I could disappear into a world of darkness without even knowing that I'd left the room. Now I can't escape. I just have to sit in my misery -- in the present. I don't want to be on meds anymore. I think I will stop. I don't think I'm going to adjust well to my new pdoc so I want to remove the need to go and see him. I don't really like change. Sometimes I REALLY don't want to be here and I don't want your help to keep me here. __________________ "I knew who I was this morning, but I've changed a few times since then." ~Lewis Carroll Bipolar I PTSD |
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#56
Maybe you said one too many times that this work was only about me - when I actually made it only about me and tried to tell you how I was feeling it all went to hell so that tells me it wasn't only about me, was it. So I had to get out. I had to.
But I still love you. |
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#57
You were everything to me. I was wrong to let that happen.
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Lemoncake, Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, Out There, SlumberKitty
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#58
You don't even know how badly I want you to respond to my email but I know in my heart you won't. What the **** happened though? I didn't mean to make you hate me. ****.
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Lemoncake, Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, Out There, SlumberKitty
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#59
Possible trigger:
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
Out There, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Anonymous45127, Echos Myron redux, Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, NP_Complete, WarmFuzzySocks
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Member Since Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
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#60
I don't want to go to th clubhouse. I don't want to share where I am. I'm not following the plan. I don't want to stay safe. Just don't leave on vacation. I know you said I can call to get you but I don't want you to go.
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