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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jan 2014
Location: n/a
Posts: 4,819
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#421
Why does it scare me so much when we have a good session. I dont want to like you. I don't want to need you. What if I get hurt again?
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jrae, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329
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#422
Dear Pastor T and Regular T: thanks for caring about me, and trying to get me to care about myself. Kit
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jrae, Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since Jan 2017
Location: Here
Posts: 1,731
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#423
Say something. Why are you always silent?
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Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, SoAn, unaluna
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Grand Member
Member Since Jun 2008
Location: WYLTK
Posts: 766
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#424
I have my appt with you next week and I'm thinking about it. what's the point of even saying ANYTHING to you - if we can't meet again for 6 weeks?!?! you won't remember what I say by then anyways. and h**l, I could've had surgery in that time too.....
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,796
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#425
Thanks for today. I wouldn't say I'm ready for Sunday, but I don't think it's going to flatten me. It will be hard, but I think I can handle it.
Above all, it's a celebration of my students. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,698
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#426
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__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
Lonelyinmyheart, SlumberKitty
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 20,744
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#427
Dear T,
So that ended up being more intense than I'd expected it to be today. Some really good insights in there, mostly from you. I think I understand the paternal transference for you now, how it's different than with ex-MC and why. Because I don't want you to be my dad from when I was a kid--I want you to be my dad *now*, so I can talk about stuff with my D and you get it. Chances of you getting an email before session Tuesday are fairly good, but I imagine you're expecting that. I felt connected today and will do my best to hold onto that. And it's good you saw me as making progress on some things. Love you, LT |
Lemoncake, Lonelyinmyheart, LostOnTheTrail, SlumberKitty
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Member
Member Since Apr 2017
Location: Parts Unknown
Posts: 333
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#428
Dear T,
I know I am not supposed to let the hurt feelings or sadness take over anymore, but I don't know how to do that. Maybe you can give me some pointers in my next session.... :P |
Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Member
Member Since Mar 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 876
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#429
I hope you email back soon. I’m trying not to do anything stupid, but admittedly not trying as hard as I could.
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Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Member
Member Since Mar 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 876
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#430
I’m too scared to talk to anyone else because I don’t want to be sent to the hospital, but I think you’re busy because you haven’t replied. I don’t really know what to do. I can’t bring myself to reach out to anyone, so hopefully you check your email soon.
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Lonelyinmyheart, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 20,744
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#431
Dear T,
I kept thinking about the "needy" thing. Your saying you'd let me know while any neediness from me was still a tiny monster. Why is it a monster at all? What's wrong with needing you? You've already said I might not have any trees... LT |
chihirochild, goatee, SlumberKitty
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#432
That sounds so painful really. Why the heck is need a monster, Dr T?
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comrademoomoo, LonesomeTonight
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 20,744
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#433
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SlumberKitty
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#434
I don't like how he seems to be pathologising need. My T isn't perfect but she frames it as crutches and broken legs. "Neediness" often points to unmet needs. She definitely hasn't met every single need, but the expression of those needs on my part isn't wrong or a monster (whatever the size). If I were to email too much for example, we'll discuss about why and how we can find something sustainable... But that's not because my needy behaviours are bad, or that needs are bad.
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LonesomeTonight
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Member Since Sep 2014
Location: UK
Posts: 394
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#435
Dear ex T,
once again you've been cropping up in my dreams. It's lovely but also feels a bit cruel, I miss you still. The drama back home has been kicked up again big time. It's like none of them can see facts or the reality. The lingering, it's cruel, I can only hope she genuinely has no idea what's going on. I have so many questions about morality and loss. I was raised by hmmm, I don't eat to say 'bad people'.... My point is I'm not like them, but their way of thinking was beaten into me and its causing a lot of conflict in me. I wish we could have finished our work. Processing all this b.s would be clearer. If you do want to continue, don't wait too long x. |
chihirochild, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jan 2014
Location: n/a
Posts: 4,819
10 375 hugs
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#436
You are the best. This week I disclosed and went places I never knew existed. It's so hard because it is okay in the safety of your office. If only it felt okay after I leave your office. You gave me an amazing calming hug which was nice. Why couldn't I hold those feelings?
Thank you for talking to me for so long on the phone today. You saying we are making good progress. Thank you for your patience. __________________ |
LonesomeTonight, Polibeth, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#437
I wish I hadn't texted you that link. That was an impulsive move on my part and I can't remember what I was thinking. I don't want to talk to you, have no intention of doing so, so why did I do that?
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Poohbah
Member Since Jun 2014
Location: Earth
Posts: 1,193
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#438
You wrote me such a nice email. I'm really glad that you checked on me since I have been so sick and missed two appointments. Thank you.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Aug 2019
Location: hanging from a cloud
Posts: 3,002
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#439
I'm not ok, T, and I'm starting to question whether you are the right T for me. You don't seem to get so many things and I really suck at putting them into words.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,698
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#440
Today I began to cry in biochemistry class.
We've been in rupture mode since your October break. All i wanted was care and comfort- not because I was one of your x number of clients, but because I was me and because of everything that I've already shared with you. I was surprised by my own reaction and all the tears. I shouldn't have threatened to complain about you- but I could feel your anger and irritation. My ambivalence about therapy is strong, but being all twisted is hard too. I think it's clear I have higher needs than you can provide. Like you've said : "you've always made a big deal about the emails" I always thought you would be my last T- so after you I'm not going to jump into seeing someone else straight away. P,s How do you feel about me not sending a payment for this week- when we didn't go the full 50 mins and just slightly over 24 mins plus interuptions? __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." Last edited by Lemoncake; Nov 15, 2019 at 09:56 AM.. |
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