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#661
I’m going to call and ask if you can see me. Once I’ve stopped crying. I don’t think I can deal with the rejection. You are always too busy to see me ahead of appointments. Maybe I’ll tell you it’s a crisis. You’ll make time? Is that a lie? Is this a crisis? I can’t tell where the crisis starts and where it ends. It feels like a crisis. Letting one person be the only person is dangerous. No other person is safe. Do you see my issue here? Nothing is ok.
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#662
ExT still hate that i cant do christmas with you.
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Elder
Member Since Oct 2008
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#663
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#664
T: (self-hatred rant)
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Anonymous42961, kumy, LabRat27, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, RosyC, SlumberKitty
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Member Since Jun 2019
Location: Space
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#665
Please don’t reject me! I am actually so very sorry for intruding on your life what feels like every single day at the moment! It’s a hard time of year for no actual reason! Anyway... yes, please, please don’t reject me! Oh the shame will eat me up if I think you, you who is pure and good, don’t think I’m worthy of your help.
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Anonymous42961, chihirochild, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,691
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#666
If the truth be told R, I'm just sad.
Exam on thursday. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since Feb 2019
Location: Toodlepip
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#667
For the first time, I want to cancel tomorrow due to utter boredom of this rigmarole rather than due to my ambivalence and struggle to be in relation with you. I feel drained by you, by the relationship, by myself and by the tangles of it all. I would rather stay in bed and shop online for expensive socks and hand-knitted jumpers.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
Posts: 36,112
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#668
I know you told me not to worry about what I’m eating or my weight but I don’t want to be 180 pounds when I see the doctor on the 14th.
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Aug 2019
Location: hanging from a cloud
Posts: 3,002
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#669
You helped me a lot in session today. I liked the fact that you shared something personal and put yourself as an example for what we were talking about (thus, taking me off the limelight). For a minute or two, you presented yourself as a real person and not as a person that's just doing his work. You helped me a lot, but now I'm alone again, with my demons...
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Location: Space
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#670
Today has been difficult. I feel like I’m dissolving. It’s just hit me that when I see you on Monday I won’t see you again for 3 weeks because of Christmas. I’m afraid, of course. Everything I do is wrong at the moment. So very wrong. How do I manage?
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chihirochild, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Elder
Member Since Oct 2008
Posts: 7,361
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#671
I do not have an eating disorder. I do not have an eating disorder. I do not have an eating disorder. this is what my brain is yelling at me. today's session was sort of terrible, though I know you know that.
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Anonymous42961, chihirochild, downandlonely, ElectricManatee, kumy, LabRat27, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#672
ExT every year you tried to wish me a happy christmas and i would not respond. This christmas i want to wish you a happy christmas
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downandlonely, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Member Since Sep 2006
Location: in my head
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#673
Yes, I was a bit alcohol impaired when you called back. I think it was good that we did not keep talking.
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Grand Member
Member Since Jun 2008
Location: WYLTK
Posts: 763
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#674
how do I say, you need to do better with me ?!?!
better yet, how CAN I say that |
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,691
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#675
In today's exam I wasn't with it at all. Maybe we should have a new rule of leaving a gap between sessions and exams. Tuesday's session was just so heavy.
I counted up all the exam only subjects that i've done. Of the 23 over 5 years- I've had to retake 10 before passing the second time around. Which makes 11 now. What do you think of me now? __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." Last edited by Lemoncake; Dec 12, 2019 at 12:43 PM.. |
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since Feb 2019
Location: Toodlepip
Posts: 1,711
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#676
This love-in is nice, isn't it? Don't worry, I will £uck it up before we both get too comfortable. It is one of the few ways in which I am reliable.
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Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Echos Myron redux
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
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#677
Thank you for your support today.
__________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Feb 2017
Location: the upside down
Posts: 3,804
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#678
Things have gotten completely muddled in my head and I'm seriously struggling with SI. Even though you say I am, I don't feel all that welcome as your client any more. You're going away for 9 days again. It feels like you were gone not that long ago. I'm feeling really hopeless and I just want to give up. I wish our relationship felt stable again. You're never going to do anything nice for me again, are you? I hate this feeling. I hate my life. I'm sorry I was doing therapy wrong.
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atisketatasket, chihirochild, Elio, LabRat27, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Elder
Member Since Oct 2008
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#679
T: i am starting to feel bad. SO many people have had it so much worse than me. I don’t deserve therapy.
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chihirochild, Elio, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#680
I hate my life.
__________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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