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#721
@WarmFuzzySocks, how is that little grandbaby doing??
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#722
I turned up today.
He was sorry yada yada and he could see why the stuff he said was hurtful. That he shouldn't have been short with me and tried to push me. Showed me a book about therapeutic ruptures he was reading and other stuff he was going to read to be a better T for me. I also made fun of his hair and told him he was a now a back up T and not my main one. He also speaks French which I didn't know when I told him I was learning it. (6 days so far = duolingo and youtube ) __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." Last edited by Lemoncake; Jan 21, 2020 at 01:43 PM.. |
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#723
Hi Everyone, meeting with Pastor T was weird yesterday. I had told him that I was feeling nothing--devoid of emotions--at the time of the appointment. I think because I had been having so many intense emotions that I was totally drained of having emotions. He seemed to tread very lightly. He kept asking me if I wanted to stop for the night, etc. I know he has a fear of "pushing me over the edge" but it was like, I had barely gotten there, so I sort of felt unwanted. He gave me several positive comments at the end of our time together regarding the strengths that I have that I cannot see yet. He asked me if I felt up to setting some goals for next week, or if I just needed to get through this week. I went ahead and set three goals--hopefully manageable ones. He told me that I need to rely more on other people. I keep too much in my head. I don't reach out enough. It's hard for me to do that. I try but I can't. I don't think I really got across to him how it is when I am in a very heightened emotional state and I want to SH.
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#724
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You are reaching out and doing enough already. Texting/calling someone is okay if your feeling up to texting/calling. I just think you can't run before you can stand and pushing you before you're ready is what isn't helpful. Do you have a safety/crisis plan? __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." Last edited by Lemoncake; Jan 21, 2020 at 02:12 PM.. |
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#725
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#726
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Sounds like a good session. Out of curiosity, what's the book? I got one about therapeutic ruptures, curious if the same one (someone on here recommended it). |
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#727
A band I loved when I was a kid are doing their first UK tour in 10 years. Tickets go on sale on friday at 9.30am and hopefully I'll be done with exams.
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#728
Hugs, Kit...I'm glad you were able to be so open with your T. I disagree with him about self-destructiveness--I'd consider it an emotion (and have felt it myself). Maybe self-loathing would be a better term to him? And I don't see how blocking out outside stimuli is bad. Sometimes I'll retreat to the shower, where, if I close my eyes, I just hear the rushing water and feel it against my skin, but everything else is blocked out. Or I lie down in the dark with headphones on, so all I really hear is the music. It's really meditative in a way, like thinking of Savasana (sp?) in yoga, where you're just lying on your back for like 10 minutes. The place I go to, they give you heated eye pillows to put over your eyes to block things out more. And I've done the blanket thing, too.
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#730
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The one SE recommended was Resolving Impasses In Therapeutic Relationships by Sue Nathanson Elkind. I have that in my amazon wishlist but seeing as it's £41.99 it's most likely going to stay there. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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#731
My chemical Romance.
My Chemical Romance | 2020 UK Tour | Dates | Tickets | Ticketmaster UK Ah teenage angst. YouTube __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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#732
Just got back from Dr. T. We spent most of the time talking about stuff with D. This time, I'm certain he wiped away a tear a couple times, like I saw the tear before the wipe. They came when I was talking about how I wonder if D realizes she's different than the other kids. Wanting to fit in but not knowing how. And I wondered how to deal with that, how to talk to her about it. He had some good suggestions on how to frame it, the sorts of questions I could ask to get a sense of what she's feeling without coming out and asking it. He seemed very empathetic to my sadness around the topic. Stuff with D is one of the areas where I feel most connected to him, like he really "gets" it and feels for me. And I feel it's a very important topic for me right now to be...uh..."gotten" ...on? (Yes, I have an English degree!)
I also learned that he doesn't keep client's names in his phone (HIPAA in part, also because he doesn't want a zillion contacts), but that he recognizes my number and knows it's me if a text shows up. Which felt sorta nice, as he said many clients he has to look up (it came up because he was sharing a contact with me--a child psychiatrist--and he had to ask me his number, saying my email was in his phone if he searched, but not my number). He does apparently use my full name in his calendar though. |
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#733
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Ah, OK, not too familiar with them. They're sort of emo, right? I do like a few emo bands. |
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#734
Since I'm still hunting for emotions for my writing project, I thought about self-destructiveness. I don't think it's an emotion either--it's a state caused by emotions like hatred or fear or anger.
Still four more emotions to go (minimum). I'm gonna get Info to do my homework for me tomorrow. And the whole thing is getting annoying because the upshot is we write about one of the emotions/moments, and I already know which one that will be, so... |
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#735
Suggestions for a good gateway song or two, Lemon?
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#736
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Yes, the latter is the one I have. See if there's a used version available maybe? I think that's how I got mine. |
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Lemoncake
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#737
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#738
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It might be on archives.org I've tried to cut back on my spending. The last non school text book I bought was in 2017- Instrumental by James Rhodes. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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#739
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So one down. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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#740
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It was them and Linkin park that defined me through ages 14-16. I listened to the song you talked about previously by the national. That was really good. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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