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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 20,767
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#901
Dear T,
Monday feels so far away... I will try to hold in my mind your smile as I was saying "Well, have a good weekend." Love, LT |
Lemoncake, Lonelyinmyheart, precaryous, SlumberKitty
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Member
Member Since Mar 2015
Location: Minnesota, USA
Posts: 82
9 49 hugs
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#902
You were distracted today due to everything that is happening in our community with the murder, the protests and the riots. I know you live nearish to where this all started/is happening. You admitted that right away when I sat down. Thanks for being up front with me. I appreciate that.
But it affected me more than I thought it would. I stayed in my frontal cortex the whole session...I didn't feel anything. I didn't access anything. I felt like I had to protect you. I don't like that. I'm not mad. I'm not blaming. I just don't like it. I needed something from today's session. Weekends have been horrible for me lately. And I needed a thought out plan with you, not a quick question on safety minutes before we ended our session. __________________ "Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." Albert Einstein |
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,700
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#903
Think I'm pretty much done with therapy.
Thank you for ignoring my message it makes me feel very seen. Like you said before maybe I am just playing my "silly little games". __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
ArtieTheSequal, daisydid, LonesomeTonight, precaryous, SlumberKitty
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,798
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#904
Back to back heavy sessions are hard. Thursday feels a long way away.
I don't feel able to reach out - send basically the same email I sent last week, and get maybe the same response? Feeling so damn vulnerable at the moment. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Quietmind 2
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#905
I can't believe how supportive you were last night! Thank you! It felt really good that you seemed to be angry with my idiot professor on my behalf. And it also felt nice that you know me well enough that what she said to me was clearly outrageous.
__________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since Feb 2019
Location: Toodlepip
Posts: 1,714
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#906
Wednesday is ages away. Why can't we speak every day? And why can we only speak for an hour at a time? Why don't you send me a postcard telling me that you miss me? Why have you never baked me shortbread? Why didn't you kiss the top of my head when you had the chance?! You ruin everything.
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
Posts: 36,225
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#907
I’m having those bad thoughts again. The thoughts that make you think I need a higher level of care and at times IP. I guess I’m a bit impulsive right now. I may just take another Xanax.
__________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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Elder
Member Since Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
Posts: 5,621
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#908
T,
I'm learning that mindfulness is important. Yet I don't choose to do it. This is a problem. I may just have to have a conversation about it with you. Maybe I'm just anxious about changing. And a bit overwhelmed. So much happened this week week. And I know I worried you... I worried myself too. |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
Posts: 36,225
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#909
I get jealous when you talk about your other clients in our session. Why do you even do that in first place though. I think I’m the only of your clients who’s transitioning. So maybe I’m a bit more “special.”
__________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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Quietmind 2
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Magnate
Member Since Feb 2017
Location: North America
Posts: 2,360
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#910
Dear T,
I miss you and feel distant from you and wish I felt closer to you right now. Even though the longing is awful and ultimately does me a disservice. -c |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Quietmind 2
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Member
Member Since Mar 2015
Location: Minnesota, USA
Posts: 82
9 49 hugs
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#911
I really think that I should text you. Not at all because I want to...more because it's when we decided that I would. But it's too late right now...it's after 10pm. You told me that you're a grandma (not really) and go to bed early. If I text you now, it'll either wake you up or you won't respond until tomorrow morning. Either isn't okay with me. I just need to calm the freak down and be okay.
__________________ "Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." Albert Einstein |
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,700
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#912
As I didn't see you for that second session- I donated 65% of it .
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." Last edited by Lemoncake; May 31, 2020 at 05:48 AM.. |
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Magnate
Member Since Sep 2013
Posts: 2,014
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#913
I need you.
Where are you..? |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
Posts: 36,225
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7 8,779 hugs
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#914
I’m about to make an executive decision and quit my job. I feel unsafe going back.
__________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,239
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#915
i think i need to call you. i can't do this anymore. so much hate. so much violence. i'm sick to my stomach 24-7 the last couple days.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#916
You don't care about my liver lesion! I'm not going to the doctor! I hate going to the doctor! I don't want to do all those scans and tests and stuff again and have to wear a gown!
__________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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Member
Member Since Mar 2015
Location: Minnesota, USA
Posts: 82
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#917
I texted you. Your response was not what I wanted. I wanted more concern. I wanted a reaction. I think that I need to tell you this when I see you tomorrow. I thought that texting was a bad idea...this is kinda why.
__________________ "Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." Albert Einstein |
LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
Posts: 36,225
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7 8,779 hugs
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#918
You sent a second email and said “sorry, if that sounded mean.” Um, ok. We are all stressed and tired. I get it. But you can be super weird sometimes. If you thought you were being mean maybe you kinda were??? God therapists can be so shady sometimes. Then they blame it on the clients.
I don’t want to just come out and be like “I thought you were kinda being shady when you said that.” Because I am super tired right now and I’m starting to ramble and also I’ve been watching a lot of the Drag Race episodes with Gia Gunn in them who’s very two faced But that 2 sentence email just seemed very two faced. And you wonder why I have trust issues. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 20,767
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9 75k hugs
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#919
Dear T,
Do I admit to you I sent that? I don't know. Love, LT ETA: I mean, hey, I lasted like 11 weeks into the pandemic before doing so, so that's something, right? |
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,239
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#920
i'm feeling so verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry needy of you right now. the hell with my resolve to see someone else (at least for the time being). like you said on 5/1, these are different times. it's you that i want. it's the comfort of us that i need.
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