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I went back and expressed all my doubts about the new rules and T basically didn't respond at all. I literally spend a week trying to come to terms with it in a mature way that's why I posted here as well. I really talked about many aspects as was met with more 'oh that's interesting' This really did shift my thinking about therapy with them. I sometimes think they are either burnt out or just don't give a ****. Well I actually think they don't give a **** many times. Actually something that I mentined to them as well. I don't think I'll last very long. I just still try to figure out how I can work harder in therapy or get more out of it. |
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#22
I had an impasse with my T over some comment he made that really hurt me. I cancelled one session to get my head on straight. We discussed it the next session and I decided to try to stop fighting him and just try to do as I'm told. I am trying to really work hard at getting better.
While I do get annoyed in sessions when he asks me to do something I really don't want to do, I try to swallow my comments and do it anyway. I have to admit that I have seen improvements just in the two weeks that I have been doing this. I don't know how long it will last but I do have an excellent T and I am going to try to trust the process and his skills for the next month or so and where it can take me. Good luck to you. |
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I am already attuned to my inner experience. I know what my issues are the cause my current thoughts and feelings. I also know what caused them. I am fully aware of why my head does what it does. What I need help with is fixing it. I also know to an extent what I need to do to fix it but that is hard work and uncomfortable. On my own, I will not do it. Right now, I am simply letting my T take the reins and lead me where I need to go without me fighting him. Fighting him is slowing my progress. By pushing myself to be a willing partner at least for those 2 hours each week I am learning that T isn't always wrong and I am the one that is benefiting from it.
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Firstly I don't think it is entirely wrong. I used to email my exT stuff that needed to be brought up in session but then never allow it to be discussed in person, it became unhealthy for me. My current T is fine with emailing but has also explained it that if I text or email and she responds then she might not be 100%, as in if I read something the wrong way or interpret something or she misunderstands something then I have to wait a week to discuss it in person. If I bring it up in session then I have her there 100% attention and we can discuss everything and sort it out before it becomes big.
Secondly I don't really care for him describing you the way he did. His feelings shouldn't be involved in what you are feeling. His interpretation of you shouldn't be involved. Any boundary change can be hugely difficult. Current T used to text but about 6 months in she let me know she wouldn't be texting anything other than scheduling. It was because she lost her phone and, although she found it again, she realised how exposed and non private this communication was. I was so upset bt we discussed it. Even recently it was mentioned and I told her that was a very painful and tough transition. She heard me and took those feelings not once putting me down or making me feel badly. She knew that I understood logically but that some deep down part of me felt rejected and she did not compound that rejection by reacting negatively to my feelings. I hope you can both work through this |
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My point is my attitude changed. Emails were a way to acquaint both of us of something that I wanted to bring up in session. If they are read at the beginig than it takes up extra time and makes them very present and creates the need to definitely talk about them. That's not alway necessary. I think sometimes I wanted T to know something without immediately brining it up in session unless it comes up. Does it make sense? I was willing to talk about the emails but when they correlate to what we are talking about otherwise. This has been the case upto this point. I am really discouraged by his lack of understanding. I feel like this creates an invisible barrier in my head and makes sharing things more difficult!
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