Couch 211: The Stoffle couch

Musta been Flashdance theme night.

My tweaky dog is a wreck because my bonkers dog has had to go to the vet a few times this week. Tweaky dog is very very attached to bonkers dog and becomes quite distressed when he is the only dog at home. Bonkers dog does not really care when tweaky dog goes someplace without him. He doesn't seem to notice and possible thinks "good all the treats are now mine" It is like watching the descriptions of therapy I sometimes read here. Not my own experience - in my experience neither me or the therapist cared much one way or the other. But it looks to me what is described by some.

I have never seen Flashdance all the way through. Or Officer and A Gentleman or Top Gun or Dirty Dancing. I think all the films (probably 5) I have seen from the 80s were on cable or were when I was at home with my parents and on cable.

Ive only seen the movie posters.

H is going out to get me some fast food to eat, since I'm feeling gross physically from last night. I won't go into details to not Trigger anyone...that's the last thing I want to do since this is a big support for me esp after ending with ex T.

HUGS @SheHulk07 if wanted, Kit

Maybe that's the other medication. I know there was two.

I received a call from the Hospital today. I had sent a letter of complaint to the hospital regarding the ER doctor and there were a few things that the woman wanted cleared up. She said she will forward the letter to the Medical Staff Office that oversees the physicians. She said I won't find out any outcome of any discussions or anything that they have with the doctor (if they even occur) just that my complaint will be forwarded there and I will receive probably a form letter stating they got my complaint and forwarded it to the correct department. I can still file a complaint with the Medical Board if I wish. I don't think it will do much good but I have to think about it. I don't want to sue, and I don't think it was so egregious as to sue anyway. If he would have been nicer to me and treated me humanely and with respect, I could forgive some of the neglect in care. But he was a giant jerk to me. So that coupled with the neglect of care makes me royally angry. And I don't get angry often, so this is actually positive for me. But I also need to let it go. I just don't want to be in that position again or have someone like me in that position and be treated like crap. At least I know they got the letter. The woman was sympathetic, though not apologetic, and I don't know, maybe I can put this to rest now. That would be nice. Then I called the insurance company and had them explain the Explanation of benefits to me. It was a little confusing. I'm getting a better picture of what I owe though. It's pretty close to what I thought, but there could still be some bills that I don't know about that come in, but they aren't showing up on the claims as of yet. What a mess. Best never to go IP again. Or go to the ER for SH! HUGS to anyone who wants one, Kit.

I got a call today stating that my pdoc is no longer with the company. I was supposed to see him tomorrow. They wanted me to follow up with a female pdoc but not until mid March and I told them to forget it right now. That would be the 4th pdoc I would meet at that office since September and I don't have it in me to meet with another person.

HUGS @SheHulk07 wow, that's terrible, and it's a lot of turnover! I totally understand you not having it in you to meet with someone new. Hang in there as best you can! HUGS Kit

SD - I know you don't like being 'mentioned', so I won't. However, thank you for my new custom title.

Good for you for saying something, maybe nothing will happen now but it will certainly be on file if he does it again

I called the psychiatrist's office and spoke to them, got on the schedule for mid March. I did explain that My pdoc had filled the wrong prescription for me last time I went in...since the hospital changed my meds, but I don't think he charted it on his end. They first told me to call the hospital for a refill but said they'll speak to the main manager at their office and see if I can get in sooner or if they can give me a refill. It's what I was planning on discussing with my pdoc tomorrow but can't now.

My niece is doing better. An ear infection was the culprit. The doctor said it has nothing to do with the actual temperature, but how fast the temperature rises. He said by 4 years old, she should have outgrown it. Luckily, he said that these seizures don't cause brain damage. I still feel bad I didn't go to the hospital, but I had a good, yet difficult session.

At the gym for the first time in two weeks (I was working on a difficult service). Feels good

Hugs, glad she's doing better. An ear infection was the culprit for my D too. Didn't realize it was about how quickly temp rises vs. the actual temperature.

Glad she is doing better.

Thank you. I do feel more empowered now that I know they got the letter and someone actually read it. I don't know if I will go ahead and make a complaint to the medical board or not. I need to think about it. But today for the first time, I'm not angry anymore. Yes I was treated like crap, yes he was neglectful in his care of me, but now that I've been "heard" it's been helpful. Even if nothing comes from it. Just that someone has heard my complaint. It will probably at least go into his file as you said and maybe somewhere down the line it will make a difference for someone. Someone asked me what if I had to go to that ER for something else (like bronchitis) and that doctor was there? I said if I was physically able to get up and walk, I would, I would walk right out of that hospital and go to another one. There's no way I would let him treat me again unless I was unconscious and had no say in the matter. At least I feel like I stood up for myself. At least I feel like I matter, to myself, if no one else. I didn't just take that crap laying down and absorb it into my skin and SH it out of me later. I got mad (which I think was healthy), complained, which I think was standing up for myself, and now I have been heard. Maybe this is what appropriate anger is like. HUGS to anyone who wants one, Kit

A friend of mine showed me a facebook page that is for people without children. It is both hilarious and makes me look like a schoolmarm in comparison.

I got really emotional in session with Dr. T today when we talked about his being away next week. And then was apologizing for crying so much, then said “wait why am I apologizing?” He was really understanding and supportive about why his vacation worries me—because last year, the ruptures seemed tied into his being away.
I’d mentioned how H was still sick (maybe flu). I said at end that I understood (because of that) if he didn’t want to shake my hand. He smiled and held out his hand. It was touching to me, even if he may have immediately run to the bathroom to scrub his hands. And just before I left, he said “take good care” and “thanks for sharing today” (I think about the fears). Which also meant a lot. I told him to have a good trip and thanked him for listening.