[puzzclar]

It was a harder session today with T. I think t and I are starting to open up he big and scary book, as t put it. I have been a bit anxious this afternoon. I feel scared that a past anxiety attack came to mind. One that is if most important. One that I do not talk about, until today.

I'm still worried that I will be triggered. But I know working through and not getting stuck at picking up the book, will be most helpful.

I'm scared that I will have to change t. Or that t will leave the practice. That better not happen. It's take a long time to get here. Where ever here is!

I may be scared, but I want to say I'll get there. My indecision needs to die. I need to make more choices for myself.

I'm getting closer to the truth. Another incident was brought up, a rape of another patient in a psych ward. I remember it like it was yesterday. It's very vivid. I need a break. This has been tough.

[Yaowen]

Dear Puzzclar,

It sounds like you are doing all the right things. I hope it continues to work for the best for you. It also seems like you are getting to the heart of things that concern you. Sorry that I don't have any wisdom to share.

Sincerely, -- Yao Wen