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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#341
I am so depressed. Maybe I should move my appointment up with Dr. B. I can't exist like this. It's intolerable. I'm on 90mg of Cymbalta and clearly, that's not sufficient. I agreed with her to consolidating my meds and that's fine since I don't think they were doing much anyway, but it's not like I think I don't need medication.
She wrote on that school accommodations thing that I'm unlikely to get better. I wish I could go back to Dr. S, but I can't afford it. Dr. B isn't terrible, but she seems to accept that I'm just in a constant state of depression. Maybe the situation has not been adequately communicated to her. I don't know. But I'm to the point where I'm tempted to start experimenting with illegal drugs because I feel hopeless that she will come up with anything that helps. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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Magnate
Member Since Sep 2013
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#342
Why can't you be on my side? Who needs a repeat of 'real' life in therapy..
You're doing more harm than good. |
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,796
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#343
Everything is changing so quickly, and so slowly.
Feels like a long time before I'll see you again, and even longer before some sense of 'normal' returns. I can't handle wearing a mask, and really don't want anything to get in the way of the connection between us. What a ****ing mess. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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catches the flowers
Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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#344
If the internet connection isn't working today I'm not going to have a superficial check in with you on the phone. If it doesn't work, see you whenever.
------------------------------ So you cancelled again today because you're not feeling well. You cancelled a few sessions ago, then no internet connection on Thursday. Now my appointment postponed until Wednesday. I love getting cancellations 1 hour before my appointment Thanks a ton. I feel so discouraged. I'm losing connection with you and in part, I wonder if it's best to just skip this week altogether. I'm tired of taking care of you. __________________ Last edited by *Beth*; Jul 13, 2020 at 12:34 PM.. |
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,698
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#345
Meeting up with two of my old best friends went well. I expected one to show up but the other one came too! We spent 4 hours together and it was lovely.
Thank you for encouraging me to make contact which I did straight after last session. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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Poohbah
Member Since Jun 2019
Location: Earth
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#346
I miss you so much at the moment.
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,234
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#347
is it wednesday yet
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#348
You should be worried about me!
__________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,796
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#349
Please don't let me off the hook as regards talking about what happened last night.
The random crying is unbearable, but apparently it does happen. I hate it, because I feel hollow afterwards. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#350
Would you be mad if I was a little buzzed in my session? I don't want to upset you.
__________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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Luna's offical mini me.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,698
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#351
I've actually been happy today.
With the London stuff- I just paid someone to act as a power of attorney and sort it all for me. It's a huge weight off my shoulders,but I feel guilty about not being there for my sisters. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." Last edited by Lemoncake; Jul 14, 2020 at 03:26 PM.. |
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catches the flowers
Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
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#352
I'm truly sorry that you're out sick again. It's just that when you have to be out as often as you are, maybe it's time for you to retire?
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
Posts: 36,188
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#353
I have regressed a lot since March. largely due to my hormones. Partly due to the pandemic. Also partly due to you. I’m hoping to get back on track.
__________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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Member
Member Since Oct 2018
Location: the astral plane
Posts: 493
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#354
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jan 2014
Location: n/a
Posts: 4,819
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#355
OMG. What an intense session today. Only one before in all my years on therapy have I felt so exhausted after an appointment because we went so deep.
Thank you for working through this with me...even though I feel horrible at the moment. __________________ |
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Magnate
Member Since Sep 2013
Posts: 2,014
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#356
How can we fix this? Can we fix this?? I don't think we can...
You just keep messing up instead of... |
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Member
Member Since Mar 2020
Location: Wales
Posts: 197
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#357
Couldn’t tell if you were comfortable with what we talked about today or not. I have more to say about it, if you’ll let me.
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,234
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#358
i am sooooo ready to talk tomorrow afternoon.
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Member
Member Since Oct 2018
Location: the astral plane
Posts: 493
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#359
Oh look at the two of us, having a rupture.
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Elder
Member Since Jan 2010
Location: Where? US
Posts: 5,621
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#360
T,
Today was good. It was weird being late for the appointment. It threw me off a bit. I'm scared to talk to Med provider, as I said but I know it's best for me to speak my mind. I ultimately want to be OFF medications. My mind has the power to overcome my past, and I need to let it. I"m stronger now then I have been. IT feels WONDERFUL!!! Reading has been helping me, and I want you to read it too. I want to break barriers both with those who are survivors and professionals. We need to be at equal footing with each other. Is that too hard to understand??? |
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