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Writing my way through...
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#561
I had another one of those perception-altering realizations this morning and I don't even know if I will be able to say it out loud to you on Friday. But it makes SO much sense and makes so many other things make sense. Damn.
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#562
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#563
Why are you always telling me to rest and not let myself think about stuff. When does this become avoidance. Although I’m not sure I’m not legitimately physically sick either.
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#564
This has been my question. What I am told is if I am not thinking about stuff because I don't want to feel emotions it is avoidance unless it is something like work or family gatherings where where distracting is necessary
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Writing my way through...
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#565
Work stressed me the hell out today and also my stupid anxiety is kicking my *** right now. I need to talk to my dr about medication. At least for a little while. I feel like I'm on super-high-alert all the time. Everything makes me want to cry. Everything. Bad day in Artie-land.
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Grand Magnate
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#566
Today I saw a news report that yesterday the body of a man was found in the harbor where you live after finding his boat capsized. I knew you were gone for your yearly mom's backpacking trip. Instantly I feared it was your husband which is crazy. I worry when there are fatal accidents in your town and when you go backpacking alone...
nut your husband, that is really crazy. A little searching revealed it was a man from out of state. Still sad but relievd it was not your husband. __________________ |
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Writing my way through...
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Location: In the desert
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#567
L, you would be proud of me today, after a stressful day of work I was all up in my head and my anxiety was getting outta control mostly about this refi we are doing, h is making it complicated by wanting to buy another house in the next year, and I was losing it big time... somewhere in my anxiety spiral I heard your voice telling me to take action, that it's just energy, so do something with it, so I put on socks & shoes and did a 30 minute walking workout on my treadmill. It was great! I feel so much less anxious now. Hopefully it'll stay at a lower level and I'll be able to sleep tonight. H and i were awake at 3 am me with my anxiety and him frustrated with my anxiety. Hoping I'll sleep good tonight.
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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Writing my way through...
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#568
holy hell L, this is embarrassing stuff I'm writing right now, how am I ever going to say these things that I've realized out loud on Friday morning, mostly the specific link that got cemented in my head so very long ago between two things that should not have to go together? And can you help me un-link them???!
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catches the flowers
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#569
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Tweaky Dog
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#570
Hi R,
This situation seems to be getting worse as it's getting better. We have a lot to talk about on Thursday, and I'm not sure how to prioritise, because it all feels important. I'd just 'got used to' my support workers wearing masks...by glancing at them rather than looking at them. Now they have to wear visors too? The Universe seems to be going out of its way to reinforce the attitude that I have been trying to challenge. Other people can be trusted, other people are safe to interact with. I can't tell you how desperately I want to believe that again. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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#571
6 days till have I to go back again. I really thought coming back to London would be bad for me but it's been the opposite.
School starts in 12 days. zero emails sent to you. Not even sure when you're supposed to come back and I'm not counting. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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#572
Why am I such an embarrassment?! I have some sort of genetic disease where I am a petulant child trapped in an adult body, or an emotional mutant who appears normal on the outside but has poisonous bile for blood. My nonsense has to stop. I was fine before I started therapy with you, it's your fault of course. Remember when I said I had been fine before therapy and you went doo-lalley flip at me?
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Writing my way through...
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#573
.... a purple flower!! please.
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Writing my way through...
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#574
holy sheep**** L. I was just writing some more and found another puzzle piece, as to why i've gained so much weight. it's all inter-related with the other stuff. Damn Sam **** a rug.
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Writing my way through...
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#575
i have been thinking about you a lot today
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LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#576
Why do you say I’ve been holding out on the emails but you don’t actually answer the ones I send you? When you don’t answer it makes me feel like I’m saying the wrong thing or like I’m annoying you. So no duh I’m not gonna send more.
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Writing my way through...
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#577
I really don't know how I can feel any differently about this pandemic, you know.
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#578
I feel like I have really strange transference with you. I think you think I want to have sex with you, but it's so much more complicated and not really erotic or not like I've read about anyway .I really wish it was a sex thing, that seems easier to approach and discuss. I wish you were here.
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Always in This Twilight
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#579
Dear T,
Well, OK, I may have been a bit fail in the drinking today, but it was socially with H while we were talking about stuff. Well, the one beer was processing session, I guess, but still.... Love, LT |
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Always in This Twilight
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#580
Dear T,
I'm sort of obsessed with this song that was on the 13 Reasons Why soundtrack, "The Night We Met." I almost want to play it for you, but it's sort of romantic, so seems inappropriate. But it also makes me think about how life was so different nearly 3 years ago, when I met you. That was before Covid, of course. But also before ex-MC hurt me. And before...the concert. Before so many things. Life was a different world then. I miss it so much...I want that innocence back.... I think the song is also about the beginning of anything...how it's so innocent and hopeful. I miss those moments... Love, LT |
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