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WastingAsparagus
is trying to enjoy life.
Member Since: Mar 2014
Location: South America
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#261
Dear T:
I feel like calling you tomorrow about my decision-making. I guess I don't know why I make big decisions so often, but I'd like to at least talk about it with you. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
is rediscovering her passion and purpose in life.
Member Since: Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,158
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#262
then again, perhaps, this is the way it has to be right now.
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Grand Magnate
nottrustin
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Member Since: Jan 2014
Location: n/a
Posts: 4,819
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#263
Long term T, I miss you like hell. Today as I was leaving work I needed to go the way I use to go when I had an appointment with you. I had this tingling moment and felt like I would see you for a moment. Then reality hit. The last week alphas been really hard. Current T has been great, but I can't help but want to compassionate understanding and hug. The realization that it will never happen again is really painful. You always encouraged me to trust EMDR T and I do. She is great but she will never be you. How do I move on?
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Elder
velcro003
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Member Since: Oct 2008
Posts: 7,357
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#264
Hey T: I'm a little worried we didn't talk today. Hopefully we will tomorrow? If not, you forgot me I guess.
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Luna's offical mini me.
Lemoncake
Adult female human
Member Since: May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,646
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#265
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Could you ask her for an extra session? She might just have assumed wrongly you're okay with one a week . __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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Tweaky Dog
LostOnTheTrail
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Member Since: Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,777
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#266
Thank you.
The Critic has been wittering about your use of the word 'despair', as if I was the one to use it. Just because I don't want it to be true...that doesn't mean it isn't. I am in a great deal of emotional pain at the moment. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Poohbah
Salmon77
has no updates.
Member Since: Mar 2014
Location: PNW
Posts: 1,394
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#267
I am really, hideously depressed, and you are on vacation. Sigh.
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Grand Poohbah
comrademoomoo
is losing at chess, winning at blundering
Member Since: Feb 2019
Location: Toodlepip
Posts: 1,698
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#268
You need therapy.
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Elder
velcro003
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Member Since: Oct 2008
Posts: 7,357
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#269
You did forget me didn’t you? I feel sort of bad for texting, but at least we’ll talk soon.
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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
is rediscovering her passion and purpose in life.
Member Since: Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,158
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#270
i had a long kinda complicated dream last night. and this morning after i wrote it all down, i spent some more time writing a story about little artie and her shadow. it's going to be a long 2 weeks but don't worry I am not going to bother you. You didn't give me any options re: the scheduling so I'm assuming that means there aren't any.
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Always in This Twilight
LonesomeTonight
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Member Since: Feb 2015
Location: US
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#271
Dear T,
I feel like you care more about my well-being than my H does. Or at least you consider aspects of it that likely wouldn't even occur to him. I know you're a professional, so it's more natural for you to consider some of that stuff. I still think it's a problem. Not in the sense of ET, because I think I generally don't have that toward you, aside from fleeting moments. But more in the sense of...my H *should* consider some of that stuff. He should be more concerned about my emotional well-being. You don't react that much to my crying, but you still seem to react more than he does. I'm pretty sure I've seen you wipe away tears in response to things I've said, most recently today. I haven't seen H do that, even if I'm sitting here on the couch sobbing. H yelled at me tonight (and at D), so that's likely coloring some of this. My brain jumps to emailing you, but it's a holiday weekend, and we just had an email exchange Wed-Thurs. I'll just try to tell myself what I think you'd say to me. And then maybe we can talk about it Monday, unless more pressing matters have come up by then. And, OK, I keep thinking about how you looked almost stricken when I said how I appreciated what you said in the email, how I'm not alone and how I read that to be how this is affecting so many people, and that I appreciate you suggesting that it's affecting you, too. I would have discussed what I sensed from your reaction, but it was the end of session on a holiday weekend. Still, I guess I just wished you'd said, "I'm glad it was helpful." I feel the times you reveal some of yourself, put yourself out there a bit, it's like I need to just appreciate it without acknowledging it to you. I wish you could just understand and accept how it helps me, without making it into some other thing. Because if I say something, then you might get all weird. It's OK to let yourself out there a bit. It doesn't make this like it was with ex-MC. It's a very different relationship. And I value it. Love, LT |
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Tweaky Dog
LostOnTheTrail
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Member Since: Aug 2011
Location: England
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#272
Still having a difficult landing after Thursday's conversation.
Finished work, deep breaths, don't give in to the wave of feeling. All this crying feels really ****ing childish. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Writing my way through...
ArtieTheSequal
is rediscovering her passion and purpose in life.
Member Since: Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
Posts: 7,158
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#273
L, I did the piece of homework re: what i want to do today for my bday. I have already done 2 of the things. The 3rd will be as soon as h wakes up from his nap, we're going to drive through our local National Park and then my son and his gf are coming over and bringing dinner that we will share outside on my patio in a socially distanced fashion.
I am grateful for your being honest with me this past week even thought it was a really tough session. Last edited by ArtieTheSequal; Jul 04, 2020 at 07:14 PM.. |
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Legendary Wise Elder
Mountaindewed
NoahsArk30
Member Since: Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
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#274
This weekend has been ok so far. I’ve been doing good with my mindfulness and not worrying too much. I’ve been sleeping better and I told you that was the problem. I’m not sure how to bring up the SI on Wednesday night and the bad physical affects I had from it. They were pretty bad Wednesday night and all day Thursday. I’m not sure you necessarily have the power to hospitalize me 5 days later. But last time this happened I think you said you would if it happened again. So I’m not sure. I hinted at it in the couple emails I sent. You’ll probably have questions. You want me to be honest. I know.
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Child of a lesser god
atisketatasket
I may be @@, but please dont @ me.
Member Since: Jun 2015
Location: Tartarus
Posts: 19,137
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#275
Dear Info,
Outwardly just fine. Struggling badly inside. ATAT |
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Tweaky Dog
LostOnTheTrail
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Member Since: Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,777
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#276
I've existed in a kind of haze since Thursday afternoon.
Whatever it is that I am becoming right now is almost too much. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Magnate
Rive.
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Member Since: Sep 2013
Posts: 2,002
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#277
Now, do I or don't I? I keep changing my mind..
Does it even matter? Would you even care? |
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Luna's offical mini me.
Lemoncake
Adult female human
Member Since: May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,646
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#278
I don't want you to go away on holiday.
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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Tweaky Dog
LostOnTheTrail
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Member Since: Aug 2011
Location: England
Posts: 4,777
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#279
I am afraid of the person I am becoming. Having feelings is hard, which is why I prefer not to, if I can possibly help it.
__________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Grand Magnate
susannahsays
is fed up.
Member Since: Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 3,355
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#280
A-W-F-U-L awful.
__________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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