Dear T: I really need to tell you something XLIV

ArtieTheSequal · Sep 19, 2020 at 11:36 AM

Am I too dependent on you?? We sooo need to talk about that.

LostOnTheTrail · Sep 19, 2020 at 01:26 PM

Beginning to feel like I'm not supposed to have a life that isn't somehow built on pain.
Without the ability to do my job in person, it all feels pretty damn meaningless.

Mountaindewed · Sep 19, 2020 at 07:22 PM

Sorry if that email was kinda odd. I’m a bit high on Xanax and melatonin gummies right now. At least your aware I took them since I told you in the email. So maybe you can put 2 and 2 together and figure out why I’m so loopy.

Echos Myron redux · Sep 19, 2020 at 07:50 PM

Good god T, I just want to say that I love you

velcro003 · Sep 19, 2020 at 10:59 PM

Hey T: I hope we talk/connect before I go inpatient on Tuesday. God, it feels so far away.

Also: I hope you never have to get a Covid test...it was extremely unpleasant.

Lemoncake · Sep 20, 2020 at 11:17 AM

71/168 topics done for the first time with anki cards made.

Currently at the in love with you phase.

susannahsays · Sep 20, 2020 at 04:38 PM

I'm hurting today. Don't know why. Just feel really down.

Merope · Sep 21, 2020 at 12:25 AM

We were close to seeing each other and now the UK is seeing a second wave, new restrictions etc. Feels like we’re going back in time with accumulated anxiety. I don’t want to go to work, I want to hide in bed until our next session. I genuinely think I’m starting to hate my life. I miss you too much, this isn’t normal. I haven’t even seen my family in almost a year (and I don’t zoom them every week either), yet it’s you I crave for.

LostOnTheTrail · Sep 21, 2020 at 04:11 AM

What a paradox of a day. My body and mind recognise this as an anniversary, although it's just as likely that nothing actually happened. The George Harrison song that might help still brings me to the verge of a panic attack, about 13 years after.

It's also my nephew's birthday, so I am trying to hold on to that.

LonesomeTonight · Sep 21, 2020 at 02:48 PM

Dear T,
I sort of mentioned this last week, but didn't officially say anything. But happy 3-year thera-versary (thought if we need to remove the week that I left, I suppose it would be in a week).
Love,
LT

LonesomeTonight · Sep 21, 2020 at 03:32 PM

Dear T,
Also, this might seem silly, but I liked how you said, "Hey there," to me today while smiling in that tone at the start of session, partly because it felt more like how things were before Covid, how you'd greet me when you retrieved me from the waiting room. But also because I've worried that I screwed things up with admitting certain things a couple weeks ago, and that greeting, plus your pretending to fall out of your seat at something positive I said I did made it feel like things are still normal between us (whatever "normal" is for us...).
Love,
LT

*Beth* · Sep 21, 2020 at 05:21 PM

The first session after you returned from being out sick for a month, you looked so refreshed and seemed so on pointe. Since then, you look more tired and seem less invested, sort-of. I am wondering why you cut our session by almost 10 minutes today.

Elio · Sep 21, 2020 at 07:11 PM

sigh, nope... not going to bring it up ... the ball is in your court and that's where it will sit.

ArtieTheSequal · Sep 21, 2020 at 08:28 PM

friday feels a long time away. wish i hadn't had to change from wednesday, but it couldn't be helped with h's dr appt/test. they had limited ones available and we didn't want to put this one off. Well it'll be shorter til the next one at least.

*Beth* · Sep 21, 2020 at 09:57 PM

You must have thought it over, too- ending the session early. Thank you for calling me. I think your idea is a wise, well thought out idea.

velcro003 · Sep 21, 2020 at 10:47 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by velcro003

Hey T: I hope we talk/connect before I go inpatient on Tuesday. God, it feels so far away.

You are so sweet and called me twice today to make sure I am okay and ready to go inpatient tomorrow. I think...I might love you a little bit. Shite!

beauflow · Sep 21, 2020 at 11:15 PM

Dear T,
Idk if I'll see you again.
There is a part of me that, well, hasn't trusted you for a while and it's just grown.
You helped me a little but I probably should split ways. Which really sucks, because it took, what four others before you last year .... I'm tired, I'm older and I just am not sure at times... all of you have your opinions and ways, some to which are contradictory. I dislike that anyone that spends time with me... just a lot comes to mind with that.

I wish i had someone I trusted and could talk with on so much

comrademoomoo · Sep 22, 2020 at 04:55 AM

Yeah well, £uck you and £uck your suggestion to have a session at the beach. £uck you forever and ever amen!! You stink. Ip, dip, dogshit, you trod in it!!!

Elio · Sep 22, 2020 at 09:59 AM

Is it weird that I feel more down about RBG dying than my own mom? Maybe not when you figure the whole state of the union and the possible impact. Granted I live in a very blue city in a moderately/mostly blue state. So I guess, I'm safe. It doesn't feel safe. It feels very scary.

Lostislost · Sep 22, 2020 at 04:10 PM

Sorry for the really awkward session today. I want to look at you more but I can't think properly when I do and id just go silent.

Thank you for saying we could touch with our hands if I wanted, I was really tempted...but it felt too desperate of me to jump at the chance.

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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,236 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,766 hugs given	Sep 19, 2020 at 11:36 AM #901 Am I too dependent on you?? We sooo need to talk about that.

Mountaindewed Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2016 Location: Where the sidewalk ends Posts: 36,199 (SuperPoster!) 7 8,765 hugs given	Sep 19, 2020 at 07:22 PM #903 Sorry if that email was kinda odd. I’m a bit high on Xanax and melatonin gummies right now. At least your aware I took them since I told you in the email. So maybe you can put 2 and 2 together and figure out why I’m so loopy. __________________ Ridin' with Biden

Echos Myron redux Magnate Member Since Apr 2018 Location: UK Posts: 2,160 6 1,833 hugs given	Sep 19, 2020 at 07:50 PM #904 Good god T, I just want to say that I love you

velcro003 Elder Member Since Oct 2008 Posts: 7,361 15 25 hugs given	Sep 19, 2020 at 10:59 PM #905 Hey T: I hope we talk/connect before I go inpatient on Tuesday. God, it feels so far away. Also: I hope you never have to get a Covid test...it was extremely unpleasant.

Lemoncake Luna's offical mini me. Member Since May 2017 Location: Cafe Nervosa. Posts: 9,698 (SuperPoster!) 6 10.2k hugs given	Sep 20, 2020 at 11:17 AM #906 71/168 topics done for the first time with anki cards made. Currently at the in love with you phase. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing."

susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Sep 20, 2020 at 04:38 PM #907 I'm hurting today. Don't know why. Just feel really down. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold

LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,754 (SuperPoster!) 9 75k hugs given	Sep 21, 2020 at 02:48 PM #910 Dear T, I sort of mentioned this last week, but didn't officially say anything. But happy 3-year thera-versary (thought if we need to remove the week that I left, I suppose it would be in a week). Love, LT

Beth catches the flowers Member Since Jul 2019 Location: Downtown Vibes, California Posts: 15,701 (SuperPoster!) 4 23.7k hugs given	Sep 21, 2020 at 05:21 PM #912 The first session after you returned from being out sick for a month, you looked so refreshed and seemed so on pointe. Since then, you look more tired and seem less invested, sort-of. I am wondering why you cut our session by almost 10 minutes today. __________________

Elio ............... Member Since Sep 2006 Location: in my head Posts: 2,911 17 8,779 hugs given	Sep 21, 2020 at 07:11 PM #913 sigh, nope... not going to bring it up ... the ball is in your court and that's where it will sit.

ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,236 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,766 hugs given	Sep 21, 2020 at 08:28 PM #914 friday feels a long time away. wish i hadn't had to change from wednesday, but it couldn't be helped with h's dr appt/test. they had limited ones available and we didn't want to put this one off. Well it'll be shorter til the next one at least.

Beth catches the flowers Member Since Jul 2019 Location: Downtown Vibes, California Posts: 15,701 (SuperPoster!) 4 23.7k hugs given	Sep 21, 2020 at 09:57 PM #915 You must have thought it over, too- ending the session early. Thank you for calling me. I think your idea is a wise, well thought out idea. __________________

comrademoomoo Grand Poohbah Member Since Feb 2019 Location: Toodlepip Posts: 1,711 5	Sep 22, 2020 at 04:55 AM #918 Yeah well, £uck you and £uck your suggestion to have a session at the beach. £uck you forever and ever amen!! You stink. Ip, dip, dogshit, you trod in it!!!

Elio ............... Member Since Sep 2006 Location: in my head Posts: 2,911 17 8,779 hugs given	Sep 22, 2020 at 09:59 AM #919 Is it weird that I feel more down about RBG dying than my own mom? Maybe not when you figure the whole state of the union and the possible impact. Granted I live in a very blue city in a moderately/mostly blue state. So I guess, I'm safe. It doesn't feel safe. It feels very scary.

Lostislost Veteran Member Member Since May 2020 Location: Uk Posts: 557 3 890 hugs given	Sep 22, 2020 at 04:10 PM #920 Sorry for the really awkward session today. I want to look at you more but I can't think properly when I do and id just go silent. Thank you for saying we could touch with our hands if I wanted, I was really tempted...but it felt too desperate of me to jump at the chance.