[Crook32]

I think I may have gotten to acceptance over leaving my past T. Even with her flaws she had memories that I lost from ECT and now I feel like part of me is gone forever. Even though I didn’t want to leave here I finally realized that I associate her with all the bad things that have happened to me over the last 6 years. So I had to let her go so that I can try to not having a constant reminder of the worst years of my life. It has been 6 months since I last saw her but I don’t feel that crushing need to see her like I used to. Still working on finding a new one and I have to stop trying to compare them to my old T. My worry is every place I call either has a wait list or I get Ts that only have 1 or 2 years experience. That worries me that they won’t be able to handle me.

[Argonautomobile]

Kudos on getting to a place of acceptance regarding Ex-T. Good luck on your search for a new one. That is always difficult, especially since I think there's always a leap of faith taken with a new person. You can never know with 100% certainty that a new person will be the right fit until you try. I'm sure you'll connect with someone you feel good about eventually.

[seeker33]

Crook, I think this is a major progress.
I know exactly how it is to compare new Ts to your old one. And finding a good match is so incredibly difficult.
But I truly wish you all the best and I hope you find a good T very soon and feel better