Dear Ex-T: I really want to tell you something

To PrevT,
It just occurred to me....we never set up any treatment plan in case I *lost* the criminal, civil and med lic board cases against AbusivePDoc! I didn’t think about losing. I was sure I would win because ..I knew I was telling the truth...you told me what he did was not only unethical, it was a felony! He was arrested and faced three felonies! No way did I think I would lose.

His license was revoked...but I lost the criminal and civil cases!
I lost!

And when the cases ended...YOU moved on. YOU stopped being my therapist. YOU TERMINATED me. You transferred my care to Julie and you stopped being my T.

Other than Julie, we had no plan to address the trauma of what happened to me...or address the trauma of going through three cases and LOSING two!

There is still no plan.

We should have talked about what would happen if I lost.
You should talk to clients about this...let them know so many different scenarios happen during cases..they might lose.

YOU got to go back to your comfortable life ...and I’m stuck with the issues that brought me to therapy, plus, now, I have NEW issues and I don’t know what I’m going to do.

I could not stop myself going back to your website. You posted a series of pictures of yourself fishing, camping, hiking with your dog, roasting marshmallows at the campsite fire on your about page. WHY WOULD you DO THAT!! Why would any therapist do that?! Does that attract rich therapy clients? It would attract desperate needy attachment disorder me. I feel I would empty my bank account just to see you weekly. Would you not want to have some kind anonymity? It is killing me that you made me feel like I was privy to you personal life when you constantly told me stories about yourself. It kills me. I want to cut that out of my chest how heavy it feels. I want to beat my head in until I no longer remember you.