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Default Sep 03, 2020 at 02:30 AM
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Just trying to process my bad therapy experiences, hope it’s ok to post.

Across the room you sit in your chair
I’m anxious and nervous wondering if you will care.
I sit in silence waiting for you to start
Not realising this process would break my heart.
The walls around me built so high
Can’t even bring myself to look you in the eye.
No tears can fall I cannot cry
Or tell you how much I want to die.
But you try to build trust by being gentle and kind
Slowly encouraging me to share what’s on my mind.
You’re patient and understanding when my words hide
Maybe you are the person I need on my side.
We begin to talk about my pain and despair
And how this world is too much to bare.
You make me feel safe and like it’s ok to explore
Everything that has hurt me and gone before.
But then all of a sudden you walk away without a care
Rejected and abandoned, my worst nightmare.
I blame myself for being so worthless and bad
For believing you cared about the relationship we had.
Broken and bereft I don’t know what to do
Why did I ever begin to trust you?
Worse than ever is the hurt and pain
How the f**k did I let this happen again?
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Default Sep 03, 2020 at 02:40 AM
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I love it! Thank you for sharing...it's really relatable as well.
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Default Sep 03, 2020 at 02:42 AM
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i am feeling every.word.of.this right now. thank you SO much for sharing it.
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Default Sep 03, 2020 at 06:58 AM
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a very good poem

and I can relate to everything you wrote.
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Default Sep 03, 2020 at 07:07 AM
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I can also relate. Thanks for sharing!
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Default Sep 03, 2020 at 08:59 AM
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Thank you for the feedback, it’s nice to hear other people appreciate it. Just trying to decide now whether to send it to ex T or not.....
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Default Sep 26, 2020 at 05:01 AM
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Another poem:

You’re jumping for joy now that you’re free
Mission accomplished you got rid of me.
Nobody can be trusted is what you have shown
Safer to stay isolated and alone.
I’m hurting so bad, complete despair
The worst of it is you don’t even care.
You are the straw that broke the camel’s back
The emotional devastation more than I can hack.
A knife to the chest would have caused less pain
I’m so stupid for letting this happen again.
I’m worthless and don’t matter, that much you’ve made clear
The kindness and compassion was all insincere.
Why oh why did you have to treat me this way
I need you to help not to betray.
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Default Oct 06, 2020 at 03:28 PM
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I can relate to the first poem

The second poem is also relatable.

Thanks for sharing!

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Default Oct 06, 2020 at 03:34 PM
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I am sorry for your pain KLL85.

Human beings are so disappointing
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